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Slow Read: OUTLANDER

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Sarah Stewart Holland & Laura Tremaine slow read the books you've always wanted to tackle, at a pace you can handle. 🔹 Fall 2026: OUTLANDER by Diana Gabaldon https://slowread.substack.com slowread.substack.com

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  1. SLOW READ: Outlander (Part One: Chapters 1-5) from Slow Read: OUTLANDER, opens in a new tab

    Aug 31, 20266 min

    This is a free preview of a paid episode. To hear more, visit slowread.substack.com The OUTLANDER adventure begins! In this first episode of our Slow Read of Diana Gabaldon’s OUTLANDER , Sarah & Laura discuss their first impressions of the novel, make guesses about where it’s going to go from here, and, of course, dissect the book chapter by chapter. FIND THE FULL READING SCHEDULE HERE Reminder that you can watch the video version of our conversation on Substack HERE We’d love for you to join us in the comments on Substack or in the Slow Read chat. (Remember no spoilers beyond the sections we’re discussing!!) Looking forward to spending the next few months with you through the stones!

  2. Kickoff Conversation to Season 2 of Slow Read! from Slow Read: OUTLANDER, opens in a new tab

    Aug 18, 202630 min

    We hopped on live in the middle of a Tuesday to officially kick off Season Two and hundreds of you showed ready to talk summer reading and get excited about Outlander . Laura and I had two very different reading summers. We talked about that and which books we both really loved or really didn’t. We talked about the books of the summer (looking at you Yesteryear!). We talked about the fall lineup of new releases which is insane . Also, we talked about what you need to know to tackle Outlander with us. Outlander is broken into seven parts, and we’re doing eight episodes because we split one of them. Our first episode, covering Part One, drops Monday, August 31st . Part One is about seventy pages. If you want to stay with us, have it read by the 31st. The Slow Read Outlander season is members only this time. Bookmark slowread.substack.com for the reading schedule, the meeting schedule, the Zoom links, and replays of anything you miss. The printable bookmark is here. If you’re a slow reader who’s sitting Outlander out, we’re not going anywhere — we’ve got other episodes and goodies sprinkled through the fall. But if you want in on these episodes, come join us. We don’t know yet whether we’re going to love this book. We do know we’re going to have fun. Every book we mentioned Overview * American Hagwon — Min Jin Lee * Partita — Barbara Kingsolver * Peck & Peck — Bonnie Garmus * The Art of Fighting: The Transformative Power of Conflict — Priya Parker * Exit Party — Emily St. John Mandel * Under Story — Chloe Benjamin * Big Little Truths — Liane Moriarty * The Pirate Queen — Ariel Lawhon The big three of the summer * Yesteryear — Caro Claire Burke * The Calamity Club — Kathryn Stockett * The Unselected Journals of Emma M. Lion — Beth Brower Literary fiction * Land — Maggie O’Farrell * Whistler — Ann Patchett * The Things We Never Say — Elizabeth Strout * North Woods — Daniel Mason * Country People — Daniel Mason Nonfiction * How to Rule the World: An Education in Power at Stanford University — Theo Baker * This Land Is Your Land: A Road Trip Through U.S. History — Beverly Gage * G-Man: J. Edgar Hoover and the Making of the American Century — Beverly Gage * Famesick: A Memoir — Lena Dunham Everything else * Mad Mabel — Sally Hepworth * Dear Monica Lewinsky — Julia Langbein * Kitten — Stacey Yu * June Baby — Shannon Garvey * Girl’s Girl — Sonia Feldman * The Shampoo Effect — Jenny Jackson * The Great Wherever — Shannon Sanders What we’re slow reading * Outlander — Diana Gabaldon * The Stand — Stephen King * War and Peace — Leo Tolstoy Next Up: Our first Outlander episode covering Part One drops Monday, August 31st. It’s about 70 pages — read it however slow reading works for you. The reading schedule and printable bookmark are both waiting for you at slowread.substack.com. Thank you Stacey Loscalzo Reads , Jessie Benkert , Juli Clarner , Denise , Readingroberts , and many others for tuning in! This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit slowread.substack.com/subscribe

  3. Your official invitation to the next Slow Read from Slow Read: OUTLANDER, opens in a new tab

    Jun 22, 202631 min

    We finished The Stand. Six months in Boulder, and we made it out alive — well, most of us did. And now we get to tell you what we’ve been dying to announce: our next Slow Read is Diana Gabaldon’s Outlander . Here’s the part you need to hear first, because it changes things. Unlike The Stand , which we gave away free to everyone, the entire Outlander read this fall lives behind the paywall. Every main episode breaking down the chapters, every book club meeting, every unhinged side quest — members only. If you want to take this journey with us, now’s the time to join. The Stand episodes, we had to edit ourselves — pull whole sections, watch what we said, because the internet is the internet. Outlander has one of the most intense, passionate fandoms out there (they call Diana herself , like a deity — we’ll get into it). Behind the paywall, it’s just us and you. No torching on Twitter, no walking on eggshells. Our true feelings, full unhinged selves, the way a book club is supposed to be. A few reasons we are genuinely thrilled about this one: It’s Outlander. It’s been everywhere for a decade, the TV show just wrapped, and it sits right in the cultural water — but it’s also double-intimidating: a 50-million-copy series with nine books, novellas, graphic novels, a whole universe. Reading the first one together means you finally get to be conversant in this giant piece of pop culture, without committing to all 10,000 pages alone. Diana herself is a delight. Marine biology and zoology degrees, a PhD, a side hustle writing Scrooge McDuck comics, and she wrote Outlander on a lark as practice — never thinking anyone would read it. “Science and art are two sides of the same coin,” she says. “What they both rest on is the ability to draw patterns out of chaos.” We fell a little in love. And this time, both of us are going in blind. With The Stand , Laura knew the big picture and led the way. For Outlander , neither of us has read it — so we’re discovering it right alongside you. People say it’s intense. Possibly even slightly traumatizing. (Laura says that’s a selling point.) Here’s what to do: Join as a paid member now, and you get everything. Spend the rest of the summer catching up on our side quests from the first half of the year — the one we did on death is, no exaggeration, some of our best work. Plus, we’ll have a couple fun summer episodes for you. Then our whole Outlander adventure officially kicks off August 3rd, when we release the reading schedule. Book club meetings, watch-alongs, all the bonuses — it’s all included once you’re in. We’re all going to need a good, healthy, entertaining distraction this fall. Let this be it. Happy summer reading, y’all — see you in Scotland. This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit slowread.substack.com/subscribe

  4. SLOW READ: The Stand (The Circle Closes) from Slow Read: OUTLANDER, opens in a new tab

    Jun 15, 202645 min

    Welcome to SLOW READ , where we tackle the books you’ve always wanted to read at a pace you can handle. Hosted by Sarah Stewart Holland and Laura Tremaine We are currently reading The Stand by Stephen King (unabridged version) You can find our full Reading Schedule here Join the SLOW READ community on Substack for bonus episodes, book club meetings, and Side Quests with Sarah & Laura We have come to the end of our journey with The Stand by Stephen King. In this episode, we dissect what it all meant and what we’ll remember about this experience. Make sure to subscribe on Substack for our next SLOW READ! Mentioned: Wolf Hall War and Peace Don Quixote Brothers Karamazov Blazing Eye Sees All Sister Helen Prejean / Dead Man Walking The Circle That Doesn’t Close Laura: We are here today at the end of The Stand by Stephen King to close the circle. Sarah: But I think it’s a lie. Why did he say the circle closes? That’s not what happens at the end of this book. Laura: That’s true. That’s totally true. But it starts with “the circle opens.” That’s the opening. So he has to close it. Sarah: Or is it just that the circle continues? That would have been a more accurate title for this epilogue. Just saying. Laura: I do have to say that I purposely, when I made our reading schedule for The Stand — we knew we wanted to do it for six months, like January to June, which we did — I planned it to close our circle here the same week the book opens, which is the second week of June. Just because I liked that symmetry. Sarah: I love it. I love a symmetry. Laura: We have a few little pages to get through, but before we do that — we will be continuing the slow read. We have picked our next book. Sarah: I picked it and I forced it on Laura. That’s the truth. Laura: We’re going to tell you all about that next week, where you’ll hear the reveal. If you cannot wait another second to find out the book, our paid members learned last week during our book club meeting. So you can go watch the replay of that if you just can’t stand it another second. But today we’re going to tackle “dusk of a summer evening” and the circle closing — which is a lie, because it doesn’t actually close. Sarah: It doesn’t actually close, but there are things to say about how King ended this whole thing. Because if you do any sort of Reddit search, any sort of Googling about The Stand , what people want to talk about is the end. Laura: Pretty much. Whether it was a true stand, or a letdown for some people, or if it’s what people expected. There’s a lot of that. The Split Epilogue: An Epilogue for the Good Guys Sarah: We get this kind of split epilogue, right? So we get “dusk of a summer evening.” The people we get to see from the Free Zone contingent — the good side — are Stu and Franny and Peter. Laura: I’m sorry, three people. Babies are people too. On their journey back to Maine, they stop at Mother Abigail’s house. Sarah: I don’t know if that path makes sense, for the record. Geographically I’m always like, where are you guys going? What are we doing? But whatever, it’s fine. Laura: Maybe there’s something about the way you’d have to travel by foot. I’ve always thought this is weird. I’m going through all this area of the country, including Nebraska, this summer on my RV road trip with my family. So maybe I can report back to us. But they do stop at Mother Abigail’s house. They’re on the porch, the baby’s playing, and they’re talking about what happened in the Free Zone and what they think is going to happen next. It’s a little epilogue for the good guys, really. Did it feel true to you? Sarah: Yeah. I think it’s true that the Free Zone would not stay together as this tight, cohesive unit. As people came together — I love this line — “all these people make me nervous as a one-legged man in an ass-kicking contest.” That’s something my grandpa would say. My grandpa always said, I want to live in the middle of 400 acres with a fence around it that says no trespassing. So to a certain contingent, living with other people is never going to be on the menu. From their perspective, the circle has closed, the threat is gone, so the need to stay close together for safety isn’t as intense. It makes sense that people would start to dissipate. Laura: I do think it’s an interesting choice that he follows the people leaving instead of staying in the Free Zone to say what happens next. Although you’re getting reporting from them on what the next phase looked like before they left. So he’s trying to get the best of both worlds. Sarah: I think he’s also addressing a natural question. If this really happened — but for the dreams about Mother Abigail drawing everyone to Boulder, or the contingent that went to Vegas — after a catastrophic pandemic like this, these little communities would be sprouting up all over. They wouldn’t all gather into one place. That’s the storytelling aspect, that it’s not very normal. So he’s addressing: okay, but in reality, people would dissipate. There’d be a lot of people like Franny who are homesick for their region, for their part of the country, who want to go back. Sarah: At their last Free Zone meeting they’re ready to have a sheriff, ready to get guns — and the progression of “when we don’t have one enemy, we have many enemies” seems pretty psychologically right to me. Do People Ever Learn Anything? Laura: He’s making the point over and over again in this ending — even in the darker parts — that the more things change, the more they stay the same. People are gonna people. Do you think people ever learn anything? That’s the question he’s posing. Sarah: I do. And look, there’s a way to look back over this book, and over the whole of human history, and say people are gonna people — they can be cruel, they can be violent. But the side of the coin I’m on is: yes, and the human species has made enormous, dramatic progress over the past 500 years. From the dark, peasant-and-serf-driven structure of society where how you’re born is how you die, the end — to an enormous ability to chart your own path and create peace and prosperity for the majority of people. The statistics on the children pulled out of poverty just in the last 30, 50 years are incredible. So I get what he’s saying, but I disagree to a certain extent that this is just an endless cycle, because we’ve made enormous progress. There’s no point in human history — unless you’re a crazy person who has this vision of the ‘50s that’s not accurate — where you’d want to go back in time. I don’t want to go back. First of all, I have a Type 1 diabetic child. The technology sucked just 10 years ago. I’m always going forward in time. Laura: There’s no doubt there’s an evolution, which means we are learning as a species. We’re learning and adapting and changing. I kind of think a better question — instead of “do you think we ever learn anything” — a bigger question that feels more complicated to me is: do we think people are inherently good? Are People Inherently Good? Sarah: Well, we know what Stephen King thinks. Laura: Do we? Sarah: Well, actually, I don’t, because I think I probably sit with him. I don’t think you can categorize all people. I think there’s a small percentage that are cruel and evil and violent and dark — and some, yes, it’s a product of their circumstances and trauma, and some I think maybe there’s something else going on, and it’s just kind of baked. He dances around this nicely with the dark man. I don’t think there’s a “dark man baby,” you know what I mean? That’s the philosophical debate — would you go back and kill Hitler as a baby? Do people spring forth fully formed? I’m not naive. I understand there are cruel, violent, terrible people out there. And on the other end of the spectrum, there are people who are just naturally nice and good — and a lot of them teach preschool, you know what I mean? They’re organized a little differently. And then there’s this messy middle, where you’re deciding day to day, moment to moment, in these sliding-door moments. You’re Harold, you’re going to fall for Nadine, you’re going to lean in. Or are you Larry and you’re going to turn Nadine down? There are lots of moments where most of us — the average, the mean — could fall either way. Laura: I think that’s one of the points of the book: most of us could fall either way. Our goodness might be circumstantial. And that’s a little bit of a hard pill to swallow, especially if you were raised to believe one of two things in a black-and-white way. If you were taught we’re all good, created in the image of God, no one can take that away — or we’re all depraved, all sinful. If you were raised with that binary, it’s hard sometimes, even if you’ve totally deconstructed, to read books like this or have conversations like this and not shake some of those old ideas. And I think he’s actually asking some of these questions in a really interesting way. Harold is a perfect and easy example, but so is Franny. If you’re raised in a certain type of home, or tax bracket, or with certain luxuries, maybe it’s easier to be good. If you’re given an opportunity for power you’ve never had, maybe it’s easier to be bad. And it’s not innate. It’s circumstantial. Holding Both Things at Once Sarah: Growing up, especially if you’re a teen inclined toward reductive thinking — if you’re an Enneagram One, forget being a teenager, if you’re just an Enneagram One — it’s taken me a long time to realize and be grateful for my upbringing and my faith that says: no, baby, the whole time both things were true. Every one of us is a child of God with a spark of the divine, deserving of inherent integrity and dignity. And we are also fallen, and can be harmful, and have to watch our pursuit of vice or distraction or selfishness or greed or you name it. I have this little piece of paper on my desk that my friend, who’s Jewish, gave me. On one side it says, “For you the world was created.” On the other side it says, “And to dust you shall return.” You have to hold both. Every moment is incredible and the fact that you’re here — I was talking about this with our 11-year-old — that Nicholas just happened to go to Transylvania University even though he grew up in Atlanta, and we fell in love, and that’s how Felix got here, all the things that had to align to get you here. And also that doesn’t erase that you can be a selfish jerk sometimes and you’ve got to watch it. Holding all of that is the work. The work of life, for sure. Laura: But it feels like chaos to me to not be able to assign people into their roles. This is just my inner thoughts — it’s easier to be like, this is a good person and this is a bad person. I’m an intelligent person, I can get into the nuance and the layers. But it is scary and uncertain to feel like, oh, anybody could turn at any moment. Sarah: But they could also turn the other way at any moment. They could do the right thing at any moment. Laura: But I want to be able to categorize people or situations, because that makes me feel safer. To feel like I’m walking through a world where anything could happen at any time — which of course I know is true — is so scary. It’s easier for those of us who are designated Enneagram Ones, or black-and-white thinkers. Sarah: Your devotion to Stephen King is really coming into focus for me right now. Laura: I get why his approach to the world is appealing. Sarah: Why? Because he’s connecting these thoughts? Laura: Because the sorting is pretty easy. The clown is bad. The dark man is bad. The villains are easy to identify. Sarah: They’re easy to identify, but they’re very existential. They’re not boogeymen who live under your bed. They’re not one-dimensional the way a Michael Myers, a knife-wielding kind of scary, is. We All Hold Monstrousness Sarah: I find it deeply comforting to live in a world where it’s all at play. Deeply, deeply comforting. I always trace it back — maybe I was just at a developmentally appropriate age — but I saw Sister Helen Prejean, the nun from Dead Man Walking . Remember Susan Sarandon? That’s her. She spoke at my college when I was a freshman about working with people on death row. And she said, vividly I remember this: when you meet someone, do you tell them the worst thing you’ve ever done in your life? No, of course you don’t. And I thought, right — we all hold monstrousness. The capacity for it. Seeing that is deeply empathizing. And especially growing up as the victim of a school shooting — the shooter at my high school was 14 years old and did something really monstrous — it’s very much informed my understanding that we all hold that capacity. That’s what we share. We share that spark of the divine, but we also share that capacity for awful, terrible things. What I react the strongest against is this idea that you can do something so bad that you lose your humanity. I really push against that. I don’t think it’s true — for me personally, ethically, morally, spiritually. There’s something about the safety of the idea that your mama, or Jesus, is going to love you no matter what. You still maintain your humanity even in the face of something truly, truly terrible. And that’s why I think King plays around with the dark man — is he human? Does he maintain his humanity? Is he even human to begin with? That’s a much more interesting way to think about terribleness: put that structure in place and say, don’t worry, they’re not living next door to you, because he’s something different. Laura: I love that point. And I want to be clear that I don’t think our worst choices and actions define us, and I’m not walking around categorizing everybody — you’re bad, you’re good. I don’t think like that. I understand the layers and complexities of our humanity. But when I’m walking through the world, the best person I know — the thought that they could make a mistake, that these things would align and their child would die... there’s something about the idea that if you’re a good person it won’t happen to you. Bad things won’t happen to you. Sarah: There’s something comforting to me to say: no, you could make a call, it could be the bad one, it could lead to XYZ dominoes — but you still loved your kid. You were still trying. It’s the Brené Brown, everybody’s doing the best they can. Some people’s best is dangerous and they belong in prison. But there’s something about releasing the idea that you can try hard enough and be good enough and terrible things won’t happen to you, or you won’t do terrible things. I think about this poor woman on Oprah who fell asleep at the wheel and her children died. Dr. Robin had to talk her down off the edge. That episode lives rent-free in my head. That’s what I appreciate about Stephen King. Dark things happen, man. It doesn’t matter how good you are or how hard you try. There’s a lot of dark stuff that can happen to you. Laura: Totally. And that’s way different from what I’m talking about. An awful accident, an awful choice that led to an awful outcome, an awful diagnosis — anything that happens to you is not what I’m talking about. Not like living next to a serial killer. That’s different. Sarah: And what you’re saying makes me think what feels so anxiety-producing to me is maybe not other people — because I definitely have the capacity to think about other people’s layers. It’s my own. I worry about my own capacity. In The Stand , what would I choose? My deepest fear is that if it came down to it, I would make the selfish choice. Laura: We already talked about this — you’re not even leaving your house. You’re just staying there. Sarah: That’s true. That’s totally true. Which Side Would You Choose? Laura: Well, we have to be self-aware as Enneagram Ones and say the appeal of order would be high. Sarah: Totally. We just need to be honest about ourselves. But also, I like to sing the national anthem, so I’m still pretty sure I’d end up in Boulder. All the group singing and the clapping and supporting each other — I’ve got to believe my extrovertedness would win and I’d end up there. Also, I don’t like being bossed around. I’m not going to live with a dark man. I like to be in charge. I just like the woo-woo of the dreams. I know who’s going to get me in the dreams. I am devoted to Mother Abigail. I’d need one dream and I’d show up with 500 people I brought with me, because I’m an enthusiastic disciple. Laura: Yeah, we differ there. I left the evangelical church, but you can take the girl out of the church, you can’t take the evangelical out of the girl, let me tell you. I still hold a grudge against Mother Abigail a tiny bit, but her beckoning through dreams appeals. Sarah: You would be with her. You wouldn’t be like, I better go with the guy who’s freaking me out in my dreams. Laura: No, we’re too old for that. We would go with Mother Abigail. Sarah: No, we would, for sure. See, we’ve talked ourselves down. We’re good. Laura: Boulder would be appealing, but Mother Abigail’s voice would be stronger. I am more tied to the divine. I am not drawn to darkness in real life. I love dark stories. Sarah: Says the lady who holds Stephen King in summer. Laura: I know. I love dark stories, and it’s a mental experiment. But in real life I am not drawn to darkness. I don’t like a haunted house. I barely own any black clothing — this is actually true. I do not like darkness. I feel a lightness in my real life. So it’s always been interesting to me that I’m drawn to dark literature, and dark literature only. I don’t like dark music. My husband’s obsessed with Metallica. No, sir. I don’t do anything that feels like that. Nothing. Except horror literature. It’s just where I channel it all. Sarah: I read a book and I was like, this book was a delight, and you’re like, that doesn’t sound good to me. I’m like, who is opposed to delight? Laura: You described a book to me before we pressed record using the words “precious” and “adorable.” And I was like, yeah, I’m out. Sarah: I should have said scary and frightening. Laura: Precious and adorable will not make it to my shelves. The Actual Epilogue: Randall Flagg Wakes Up Again Sarah: I was really here with our buddy for all this philosophical debate — everything I think he’s saying, I get it, I’m with him. I didn’t like these last four pages with the circle not closing at all, just opening in a new place. Tell the truth, Stephen. Tell the truth. Laura: You mean when we turn to the actual epilogue with Randall Flagg? Sarah: Yes. I didn’t like it. He just wakes up in a new place gathering new people. I didn’t like it. Laura: I did like it. Sarah: Ugh. Laura: Because it felt, again, really true to me. Evil never dies. Sarah: Okay, but we went through this many pages. Can’t we get a nice clean ending? Look how many pages. So many pages. Laura: Okay, so if you put aside what might have felt itchy about Randall Flagg popping up in the Amazon among Indigenous people — Sarah: Yeah, there’s a little bit of itchiness there. Laura: So let’s name that and put it aside. I do think the fact that they fall to their knees and start worshiping who they think has come to save them — this is obviously so sarcastic and awful — but it felt true to me. There’s always going to be, throughout history, time, and region, someone claiming that they alone can save you. Sarah: Yes. You’re right. Cult leaders, people who will lead you astray — all those points he’s making, I thought it was very well done. And he’s not particularly long-winded. He managed to do it in a few pages. Laura: At least it wasn’t long. Sarah: I do kind of have a beef. We run into this a lot in politics, where I feel like the conversation, or the policy goal, is “we’re going to get to a place where nobody’s violent or nobody has bad parents.” That’s probably not going to happen, guys. That’s utopia. It doesn’t exist. We’re always going to be humans — I guess until the robots take over — but we’re always going to have evil or selfishness or greed or violence. We’re not

  5. SLOW READ: The Stand (Chapters 74 - 78) from Slow Read: OUTLANDER, opens in a new tab

    Jun 8, 202652 min

    Welcome to SLOW READ , where we tackle the books you’ve always wanted to read at a pace you can handle. Hosted by Sarah Stewart Holland and Laura Tremaine We are currently reading The Stand by Stephen King (unabridged version) You can find our full Reading Schedule here Join the SLOW READ community on Substack for bonus episodes, book club meetings, and Side Quests with Sarah & Laura REMINDER: Our final book club meeting discussing The Stand will be THURSDAY, JUNE 11 at 6pm PT / 8pm CT / 9pm ET and we’ll be announcing our next SLOW READ! You don’t want to miss it. Mentioned in this episode: * The Shining by Stephen King * Station Eleven by Emily St. John Mandel * The Crocodile Hunter * “Have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas” (”…if the fates allow”) * Noah Kahan, “Maine” * Steel Magnolias The Stand, or The Walk? Laura: How are you feeling? Sarah: Well, it’s giving Sopranos . You know how in The Sopranos it was the penultimate episode that usually contained the most action? I feel like that show set up that structure — although apparently not, because The Stand has been around a lot longer. The main action, especially a majority of the violence, the falling out between Randall Flagg and members of the Free Zone, the nuclear bomb — all of that happened in our last section. So now we’re getting that real finale. We’re caring for the characters we really loved. We’re seeing where they ended up. We’re tying up some loose ends. Laura: I felt like these last chapters post-nuclear-bomb were so arduous. I felt like King is personally trying to remind us that this whole thing is about the journey and not the destination, which is such an annoying message. I was just like, we are still walking . It should have been called The Walk , not The Stand . Honestly, the whole book is just about journeying. Sarah: Well, I will say this. It’s not standing still, that’s for sure. But there’s a moment near the end where Stu says they’ll have to stand a watch for him. So it really felt like this conclusion of the book was more a philosophy: it’s not that you have to walk forever, but that you do have to stand watch. Maybe the stand wasn’t some sort of high-noon final battle between good and evil, which is what I expected when I started the book. It’s more like standing watch — standing watch for our worst instincts, standing watch for the ways in which humans can perpetuate great cruelty and harm on each other. We’re standing sentry, keeping an eye out. And even though I’m an Enneagram One and I love a black-and-white conclusion, I thought this was truer, wiser. I really liked it. Laura: It also seems to be saying that nothing is ever really over. It might be over for you individually, if you come to the end of your story, but life just keeps on keeping on. I have always quibbled a teeny tiny bit with how we spend these last chapters with just Stu and Tom — and even primarily Stu. We’re in Stu’s mind mostly. It’s no longer an ensemble cast. We started all the way back in Arnette, Texas, at the gas station — Stu is our first point man — and then we also end with so much Stu. I love Stu as a character. It’s just, oh, he wasn’t the one I was the most attached to. How did you feel about Stu being the final stand? Sarah: I loved it. I thought it wasn’t just Stu — it was the combination of Stu, Tom, and Kojak, who I believe is the real hero of this novel. I really liked the way King put the strengths and weaknesses of these three creatures together. It didn’t feel arduous to me. I was excited to see the ways in which they were stripped away and rebuilt. I liked that Nick kept appearing. I liked that we were worried about Franny. And I liked the changing threat — that we went from the heat of the desert and the nuclear fallout to this incredible winter hellscape. And Tom is such a great addition to every scene he’s in. The way they were facing very openly “we might not make it” felt like real learning, as opposed to how people were orienting themselves when Captain Trips first started wreaking havoc. Kojak, the Real Hero Laura: Let’s do a chapter breakdown, because if you’re a regular Stephen King reader, you recognize in this section in particular that he brings out his favorites — which is to say dogs, cars. He loves a car explanation. Sarah: I did feel like there was a little too much detail about what type of car you need to get started, the manual and the automatic. I was like, buddy. Laura: No, this is one of his things. Dogs, cars, ghosts in dreams, recurring themes, and of course abandoned hotels, even if they’re just the Holiday Inn. These pop up in so many of Stephen King’s stories. It’s such a King universe that we’re in. There’s no mistaking what we’re reading. Sarah: How do you feel about Kojak just being such a convenient hero? Kojak can do everything. He can hunt, he can bring the blankets up from the washout, he can go find Tom in the snow. Kojak is a dog of all trades. Laura: Here’s my question, because you’re the Stephen King expert. Does he often use dogs the same way he uses children or people of different abilities — to say, well, they have different skills because they are different? Sarah: Yes. And so that’s what that felt like to me. This is not a run-of-the-mill dog. It’s a special dog. Laura: In the same way that he uses children, there’s an innocence to animals, dogs in particular, that feels like they’re tapped into a god, a universe, a different plane. If you’re a dog lover, you don’t even necessarily deny that. That’s why it’s a convenient tool to use a dog. Sarah: I just want to say, though, that it’s a special dog — because if it was my dog, I would have to eat her by the fire. She would be of absolutely no use. She’s currently snoring underneath my chair. She would not be able to bring me a rabbit or firewood or much else. Laura: Same. Sarah: I’ve never owned that type of dog, but I’ve known dogs like that — super capable, very smart, communicative. I read recently that domesticated dogs have existed longer than agriculture. So I think it could happen. Laura: Definitely could happen. If you’ve ever watched a working dog — a herding dog, certain hunting dogs — they are very capable. I like Kojak. More Kojak. I’m here for it. It didn’t bother me, but also I’m a dog lover. I wonder, if you’re not an animal person, if you’re like, come on with the dog. We’ll have to hear from our community about that. Chapter 74: Tom Shows Up Laura: In Chapter 74, Stu is still broken-legged, starving, and starting to get sick. He heave-hoes himself up out of the washout when he hears the boom and needs to see with his own eyes what’s going on. To me, this is the arduous part — not the plot points. Do we need two pages of him crawling up? Sarah: I didn’t think we needed that part. I get it, he needed to get up there. I was just so happy that once he got up there, Tom showed up. Sarah: Okay, but here’s the immediate thing I thought. You have read this book before. You knew this was going to happen. And still you had all those complaints about them sending Tom. Laura: My complaints about why they sent Tom are separate from Tom ending up being the savior. They sent Tom because Stephen King needed him to save Stu. I still think they took advantage of someone. And here’s the plot weakness: why does he approach Stu when he was very clearly instructed during the hypnosis to stay away from people? Laura: I think King’s implication is that they have to go the same way because they have to take tunnels — unless they’re going to crawl up and down the Rockies. So everybody’s taking the same path because they have to cross through these tunnels. Laura: I don’t mind a plot point of convenience. I get it, they need to be all on the same road. It just needs to make sense. And I like this ending because I love Tom — he’s one of my favorite characters. I just don’t want Tom to be taken advantage of in the first place. Sarah: I feel like this is Stephen King saying he’s not taken advantage of. Look how incredibly capable he is. He is a hero. I love it when Stu says, “You saved my life,” and “You don’t owe me a Christmas present? I wouldn’t be here anymore for you.” Sarah: I felt like Stu waited a month to say that. You’re just saying that now? Anyway, Tom shows back up and Stu is happy to see him, but in the same way as, is this the best helper I’m going to get? Everyone is hesitant on Tom until he shows his capabilities — like Nick with the tornado. Laura: I’ll tell you what drove me nuts about this whole section. Why isn’t Stu asking Tom more questions? He doesn’t ask him a single thing about Vegas. Sarah: Because he’s about to die, Laura. He’s on death’s door. Laura: I don’t mean in his delirium. We’re talking about a man who’s going to throw an impromptu Christmas. He is well enough at points to be like, so Tom, what was happening in Vegas? Did you get us any intel? Literally nothing. Maybe it’s just such a man thing — the man asked no questions. My husband wouldn’t ask Tom a dadgum thing. Sarah: I thought perhaps he was waiting to gather the whole story when there would be more people around, in the Free Zone, so it could be a community interrogation — so Tom doesn’t have to go through it more than once, and so there are other witnesses. I’m projecting a lot, but that was my assumption. I do think Tom is helpful in the same way Kojak is helpful — now suddenly there’s an able-bodied person who can forage in the cars to get medicine, find sleeping bags. That was a huge relief. Sarah: The hand of God. Tom was the hand of God, just like the hand of God touched the bomb. I really felt like Tom was this essential component that you can’t argue showed up out of anything but almost grand design. Laura: Did you have to google the word travois ? Sarah: I did. A visual really helped, because even though Tom is brawny, he’s going to drag this man for eight miles up the hill. There are absolutely arduous components of this — climbing out of the washout, the dragging of Stu. The Hand of God and That New Sears Battery Sarah: Definitely getting the car and getting the car started. Here’s my question: was the car left for them? Are we supposed to know who left it? I couldn’t tell. I’m like, should I recognize this person on the key chain? Laura: No. I think Stu is sort of understanding — not an “everything happens for a reason” kind of thing, deeper and more spiritual than that — like, somebody drove this car. Why would you have pulled over and abandoned it in the middle of nowhere? He’s ruminating on what the hand of God really means, because the other cars they came upon were either not stick shifts, or didn’t have gas or oil, or had flat tires. And then they finally come upon the one that’s not perfect — it’s old and dirty — but it’s perfect enough. Got that new Sears battery in it. That’s all that matters. Laura: I did like the reminder. The first car they come upon, the skeletal woman in the flowered muumuu kind of falls out of it comically. But we do need the occasional reminder that there are dead people everywhere. Sarah: Everywhere. Laura: They’re a little bit immune to how weird and gross that is, but we as the reader need to be reminded. Sarah: Especially later, when he’s digging in the snow and realizes they’re on top of the traffic jam — a river of dead people below them. Chapter 75: Fever Dreams and Vitamin C Sarah: What I really liked, moving into Chapter 75 where he’s really sick and delirious and having all these dreams: after the whole book where the dream was real — you were dreaming about Mother Abigail, she was talking to you, telling you what to do, Nick was telling Tom what to do — it became more amorphous. They weren’t full-on predictions anymore. With Randall Flagg gone, even if not dead, there’s almost space in the dream world for unpredictability again. Laura: I see what you’re saying. I also liked that Stu was waffling between, is this an anxiety dream, or is it my intuition pushing me forward? Because if he hadn’t been having those dreams, they might have just hunkered down for the winter — which probably would have had a better chance of survival. Sarah: But the dreams were driving him forward, which is what we’ve talked about the entire book. Those people headed to Nebraska early on for no reason they understood. To end on that same note — I liked the symmetry. He says at one point, “Not all dreams come true, but too many of them had come true during the last half year.” They’re returning to a baseline, but it’s a new baseline, because everything is different, including your relationship to your own dreams. Laura: And listen, I would have stayed at the hotel. It was really cozy. I did love the little side quest about why movies are important and TV isn’t good enough, VCRs aren’t good enough. He keeps it a projector — it’s more cinematic that way. I read recently that Chinese carmakers are putting projectors in the headlights so you can have a drive-in movie wherever you go. How about that, Stephen King? Sarah: We have a drive-in theater where I live and it is fantastic. So I thought this vignette was silly, but I get it. He’s right. It is better that way. Laura: I felt like the scene where Nick appears in the dream to Tom — where Tom seems to be sleepwalking, almost in the hypnosis of Nick appearing, and wakes up at the pharmacy with the bottles. Who set the bottles out? Was Nick using him in his sleep? That felt so reminiscent of The Shining , where it’s ambiguous whether ghost-dream Nick put the bottles there or whether Tom collected them in his sleep. Sarah: It doesn’t necessarily matter — it’s all supernatural. Nick is using his own story of having the infected leg back in Arkansas to teach Tom, so Tom can understand how serious this is and help Stu get better. I am glad that Stephen King is on board with my preferred treatment, which is vitamin C tablets. Get that boy some vitamin C ASAP. Also antibiotics, but I’m a vitamin C acolyte. I believe in it. Laura: But also, why you gotta have Stu have a penicillin allergy all of a sudden? Sarah: He just wants you to understand, Laura, on a fundamental level: you are never safe. Nobody picks up a Stephen King book to relax. You might get a reprieve, but you do not get to relax. A Sprinkle of Cozy Laura: So he gets better enough for them to trudge on. I liked this part where they’re in a town and can go looking in people’s homes for what they need — big heavy coats. There’s an interesting subtext that the population has been wiped out, and yet there’s just so much stuff. Sarah: I always think about those scenes in Station Eleven where they’d forage through houses, and it didn’t take long before there was less of use, especially food-wise. I would think books would be of incredibly high value, but maybe you don’t have a lot of time to sit around and read. Laura: I liked the little detail that this town had more stuff because it just had weed — people came for the summer to get high — while another town had actual helpful snowmobiles. He gets a really good one, but then misses an embankment and crashes it. My question is: is snow burned down your throat real? They fell off the snowmobile, their mouths filled with snow, and their throats were burning. Does that happen? Sarah: I don’t know about the burning part, but you can drown in snow. So I think it’s a way of drowning, sort of. You could easily die like that. Laura: I am the least qualified in the room to talk about snow. If you live in cold climates, please tell us if this is a real thing. Sarah: Now, the scene where they have a little Christmas. First of all, I love a Christmas. I love a Christmas moment at any and all times of year. And you got some grief — that Stu is missing everyone terribly, wishing they were there. Laura: I made a note that finally we are having some grief, because I have not understood the lack of grief in this entire book. Sarah: There’s no better time to look back and realize everything that’s changed. Let us not forget “if the fates allow,” the best Christmas lyric, that we all had to clean up because it made us too uncomfortable. He should have sung that, not “The First Noel.” Laura: Listen, I sang it out loud. I’m reading the whole thing — I’ve read every single word of this book out loud now. When I got to that part, I sang it. And depending on your mood, the little Christmas scene with Stu and Tom could read as cheesy, but I literally got a lump in my throat singing it out loud. Sarah: I didn’t have to sing it and I got a little verklempt. I appreciated that we finally acknowledged some grief when he thinks about his friends in Texas — because he has said he doesn’t miss Texas. He pulls out his old keys; he’s kept his key ring through all of this, his key to his Dodge back in Texas, and that makes him finally feel a little something. And then later, after they get back to Boulder, he’s reminiscing about how they would have called him Silent Stu in his Texas days — a quiet observer — but now all he wants to do is talk and share this story. There are multiple moments in this section where we are finally getting the grief and nostalgia I’ve craved. In Defense of Wolves Laura: Don’t worry, everybody, because if the grief, nostalgia, and Christmas spirit was a little much for you, he immediately pivots back to wolves, Randall Flagg still being alive, scary tunnels. He just can’t help himself. Don’t get too cozy. Sarah: I will give you a sprinkle of cozy, a mere sprinkle, and then we’re going to talk about how the wolves are still his — which I feel is unfair to wolves. They do not need further discrimination, further tainting by this idea that they’re evil animals. I feel very strongly about coyotes and wolves and the way they’ve been mistreated in our fiction. In the same way I don’t feel sorry for snakes being stand-ins for Satan — I hate snakes — but it’s not their fault. They didn’t write that. Until I started watching The Crocodile Hunter in my twenties, I thought all snakes were venomous, and they are not. That’s how badly we portray these poor species that do not care about our narrative arcs. Laura: Speaking of animals, why was Tom dreaming about an elephant? Sarah: Oh, because that’s his hypnosis signal. One of his hypnosis signals. Laura: We get a little hypnotized Tom. He says Flagg never dies — he’s in the wolves’ laws, the crows, the rattlesnakes, the shadow of the owl at midnight, the scorpion at high noon. “He roosts upside down with the bat. He’s blind like them. Will he be back?” Tom didn’t answer. What do you think that scene was about? Sarah: I think it’s to remind us it’s still there — that they’re close, but they’re not there. It’s finished, but not all the way. It’s never over. Laura: It’s also a way for the characters to know that. Stu might have been well within his rights to think that when the nuclear bomb went off, it’s all over. Tom being the messenger for “no, no, he’s still here” is the way they can know that. Just a Bomb? Laura: From a storytelling point of view, this is why I found it arduous. Once the big thing has happened — Vegas has blown up, that’s the final stand — then I just want the book to wrap up. And I’m like, well, I’ve got a hundred more pages. Sarah: What are you talking about? That final scene is so short. This is my husband’s beef — he read along with us and then zoomed ahead. He said: thousands of pages, and all we get is the hand of God touching a nuclear bomb and then it’s over. He wanted a war, a battle. Laura: I’m a little bit with your husband. It’s just a bomb. That’s always been a huge criticism of this story — if you go look at The Stand on Reddit, that’s a lot of people’s feelings. Sarah: First of all, no, we didn’t want a war. I did not want hundreds of pages of three steps forward, two steps back — I’ve read enough Civil War history. But I think it’s because of the cover, the most famous one, with two people duking it out. The way we sum up this b

  6. SLOW READ: The Stand (Chapters 72 - 73) from Slow Read: OUTLANDER, opens in a new tab

    Jun 1, 20261 hr 1 min

    Welcome to SLOW READ , where we tackle the books you’ve always wanted to read at a pace you can handle. Hosted by Sarah Stewart Holland and Laura Tremaine We are currently reading The Stand by Stephen King (unabridged version) You can find our full Reading Schedule here Join the SLOW READ community on Substack for bonus episodes, book club meetings, and Side Quests with Sarah & Laura Mentioned in this episode: * Tribe: On Homecoming and Belonging by Sebastian Junger * 1984 by George Orwell * Paradise Lost by John Milton * Carrie by Stephen King We Stood Sarah: We have been reading Stephen King’s epic The Stand , and I think we’ve come to the part where we stood. Did we stand? Laura: I think we’re still standing. Sarah: Are we standing? Laura: I think we stood. I think we did it. We are wobbling in our woo! Sarah: We would love for you to join us for our final book club meetings for The Stand . There’s obviously going to be a lot to say as we wrap up this epic novel. All of those are coming up in June. You need to check our Substack for details of our book club meetings, our final episodes, and maybe some announcements for what we’re doing next. All of that is going to be on Substack. You can join us there at slowreadbookclub.com and we’re going to have side quest conversations for you. Tomorrow our side quest will be on summer reading and summer plans. We can’t wait to talk about that with you. Laura: Yep. If you join us at the Slow Read Substack, you will get all of our side quests that we’ve been covering through this time. And they have been wide ranging, friends. Sarah: They really have. Sometimes they go along with the book. Sometimes they don’t. Laura: They don’t. But they are excellent conversations with Sarah and I, only for our Substack members. Over on Slow Read, go to slowreadbookclub.com for all of that and more. Sarah: And more. “Is That It?” — First Reactions to the Ending Sarah: We’re going to talk about chapter 72 and 73, and I deserve an award for not texting you the second I finished the section. It was hard. If I had finished this section before we saw each other in person for the first time in 12 years, I wouldn’t have been able to resist. I didn’t really plan to not read it until after, but I’m glad it worked out that way or I would not have been able to keep my mouth shut. Laura: Because you would have wanted to talk about it. Sarah: It’s so talkable. We stood. Of course I want to talk about it. I’m curious what you think reading it for the first time. Did you feel like dun dun dun ? Did you feel the music swell in your head? Laura: Yeah, I definitely did. I wanted to just bare minimum text the wide-eyed emoji, but I didn’t — again, because I deserve an award. And my husband, who had been doing a good job kind of keeping pace with us, sped ahead and finished the book, so he’s been saying some cryptic stuff. It got me all keyed up. But yeah, it kind of snuck up on me, but not really. By the time you get to chapter 73, by the time you’re in Larry’s head, you’re like, okay, we’re here, we’re gonna stand. But then it’s over kind of quickly, and so you’re just like, what just happened? Sarah: I know. That’s what I kind of wanted to ask slow readers — if you’re like, “is that it?” Nicholas was definitely that reaction. Those were the cryptic comments he was making. It was very much, “Is that it, Vang?” Laura: Is that how you felt when you read it the first time? Sarah: Definitely. I was kind of just reading, bopping along, and didn’t realize that was it. I mean, there’s still a little bit more to go, but I feel like it’s a lesson in — it’s in the journey, not the destination. Laura: Yes, but I like the destination. Okay, now we’re getting too close to chapter 73. Let’s back up. Let’s do chapter 72. Chapter 72: The Walk and the Question of Fate Laura: So, chapter 72, we pick back up with our traveling party — Stu, Larry, Glenn, Ralph, and Kojak, the true star of the traveling party — as they continue their grueling walk across the United States. They’re averaging like… I really appreciated the mileage chart. I thought that was very helpful, as a person who travels a lot and plans itineraries. Sarah: I was with them in their analysis around the campfire of like, why are we doing it this way? They know why they’re doing it. Mother Abigail told them: walk with just the clothes on your back. You can’t take food. You can’t take packs. You have to survive this hundreds — 400-mile walk, or whatever it is, 500-mile walk. But I sort of was with them when they’re like, we know why we’re doing this, but why are we doing this? And like, can we cheat a little bit? Laura: I really liked this conversation they’re having about why are we doing this at the beginning of chapter 72, and we get to your theory that you’ve brought up over and over again. They’re having a conversation mainly about the wear and tear on their bodies at first, and then Glenn says: “And 50 years of confirmed agnosticism, it seems to be my fate to follow an old black woman’s God into the jaws of death. If that’s my fate, then that’s my fate. End of story. But I’d rather walk than ride, and when you get right down to it, walking takes longer — consequently I live longer by a few days anyway.” So I thought, here we are, here’s your theme. Is it just fate? Is this story just one long journey of fate? Sarah: Well, I have been talking about this for six months. But I don’t know that that is a direct correlation to them having to do it bare, you know? No food, nothing. Now, I mean, they really talk about how fasting clears the mind. I liked all that. And there’s been a walking theme as much as there’s been a fate theme through this book. Remember? Stu walked out — he walked off his fear of the hospital. Trashcan Man walked himself into delirium. Nadine’s walking. Everybody’s walking all the time. Walk, walk, walk, walk, walk. So it does feel like a sort of preparation for the mind, body, and spirit, if you will, for what’s to come. But it also feels like an unnecessary burden to have to figure out your survival. Like they’re eating chips out of people’s cars with dead people. Laura: I’m into it. Sarah: I’m into it. Laura: Because there is a grounding that happens when you are viscerally aware of your own body and its survival. These men would not have had the bravery necessary in chapter 73 if they’d just taken a car. Sarah: No doubt in my mind. Laura: Because they had to know what they’re made of. Sarah: You’ve got to know what you’re made of. You’ve got to know how far you can push your body, how far you can push your mind. And really, I think this physical experience strips away that dichotomy. You know, the closest analogy I can find in my own life is labor. I had three nine-pound babies with not a drop of drugs. I gave birth to two at home — and sort of knowing that I had to get myself through it, like me and my body and a midwife. I’m not a free birther, please don’t message me. But it’s exactly what they describe. It’s so clarifying in a way that’s not intellectual, that’s not, “I’m walking through these steps.” You do something like that, and that dichotomy of my mind, my body — it just goes away. It’s like people when they talk about running marathons, or extreme marathoners, like pushing your body but really yourself, all of you, to the brink. In this way, I think it prepares you to do some really hard shit. Laura: And these guys, they all know it. They’re on the way to do some really hard shit. Sarah: Yeah. And there’s lots of metaphors or references. I like your birth metaphor, but then there’s biblical stuff throughout, even more so in chapter 73. So there’s walking in the wilderness, there’s people taking pilgrimages. I mean, it feels like a human experience, kind of like what you’re describing — we put ourselves through this. Laura: At the end of the day, they had to put the steps in front of them. They had to make the miles. They had to get over aches and pains and hunger. They were instructed, but then they chose. You know what I’m saying? Glenn Is 57 (And the Dialogue Gets a Little Stilted) Sarah: Before we get too far into this chapter, can we talk about this long conversation about how old Glenn is, and then it’s revealed that he’s 57? What the hell, guys? Laura: I know. My husband’s older than that. Jeff is older than that. Oh my God, they’re just talking — the way they’re talking about his arthritis, I’m like, poor Glenn must be like late 60s, early 70s. 57. Steven, my dog, that’s not that old. Sarah: It might have been a little bit older in the 70s, though, in fairness. I will also say, because I’m reading the whole thing aloud, that this was the first time in the whole book where their conversations — mostly in chapter 72 — I struggled with reading aloud. It was the most stilted. It felt the least flowy. It felt the most sort of like… Laura: Preachy. Sarah: Yeah. And like bookish, as opposed to — there was not a natural cadence to these characters we’ve been with. Because I’ve read all of these characters, I’ve read them aloud for a thousand pages now. And in these exchanges — and I don’t know if that’s purposeful or not — I just was like, the dialogue here is a little weird. It felt a little more like clunky book writing, as opposed to in the past. Especially Glenn, who I love so much, one of my favorite characters in the whole thing. He’s been very flowy throughout, and this was a weird one to read aloud. I wondered how that came across in either the audio or if you were reading it in print, if anyone else noticed that. Laura: I mean, a little bit. I’ve had a stronger reaction to other sections where the dialogue feels like just Stephen King has some things he wants to get off his chest. Which, you know what? It’s your book, buddy. Go for it. But I know what you mean. I kind of went back and forth, being like, I love how this is working out. I love that they’re encountering the Wolfman — whose name I can’t remember in real life — the kid. Sarah: The kid. Laura: Where you’re like, oh, well, we know what happened to him now. And I think the way that affected them, and kind of freaked them out, was really smart. Like, he’s trying to pick up some pieces here as he’s getting them closer and closer to Vegas. And some of the conversations — the conversations about the casting away of things being symbolic, like “when you cast away things, you’re casting away the self-related others that are symbolically related to those things” — Sarah: Yeah, nobody talks like that. That’s what I mean, it was weird. Now, I do appreciate, like you’re saying, him tying up some threads. They come across the kid, they come across Harold Lauder. They don’t seem particularly shocked, although by this point they know that Harold and Nadine are who blew up the committee meeting. But then they also find his journal, and they read his final note. Remember Harold wrote that final note that we talked about, that was really kind of well done in terms of the finality of Harold’s character in life? So now knowing that these guys have read it… you know, because sometimes you’re like, well, will anyone ever know? Who do you write this letter for? Now they know. So yeah, there were some storytelling ends that Stephen King is bringing together, and I think he’s doing a good job in a pretty tight chapter — picking up those pieces and also showing how those moments, where they’re seeing Harold, encountering the kid’s body, feeling Randall Flagg’s presence… I bought the way that he allowed them to both be afraid — really afraid, there’s still a lot to be afraid of — but also let them see that he’s not God. It’s a complex strategy he’s got going on here, but it’s not failsafe. There are weak points. And I thought the way he kind of put that all together for them, while also building them up — he’s doing a lot in this chapter, and I think for the most part he sticks the landing. He’s showing you that they’re getting stronger, that they’re getting clear. He’s showing you that they are picking up puzzle pieces about Randall Flagg. He’s showing you that they’re still afraid. Of course they’re still afraid. And how close they’ve gotten to each other, and learned from each other. I just think he did a lot here, and he did it pretty tightly. Male Friendship, Shared Purpose, and Tribe Laura: I agree. This is also a commentary on male friendship, which actually a lot of Stephen King’s work goes back to friendship. And in this case it’s just guys, but they show a lot of affection for one another, a lot of respect for one another. And I think about that when you think of the average Stephen King fan — and I’m making a gross generalization here — but I think the average Stephen King fan is male and maybe on the younger side. And I like the affectionate friendship threads, the leaning on each other. It’s like the opposite of toxic masculinity that he’s showing here, a long time ago, almost 50 years ago when it first came out. I like that, because horror doesn’t always do that. Sarah: Yeah. I think it’s really lovely, and I think it gets to something with male friendships too, because they’re walking side by side and they have a mission. I think that’s important for all human beings. I think about Sebastian Junger’s book Tribe all the time, talking about how after the Blitz in London people would be like, “I kind of miss it,” because they had a mission, they had a purpose, they were fighting something together — men and women. But I think particularly for men, I see this with my boys. When there’s something for them to do and achieve and face together — you hear people talk about this even with people with PTSD, horrific experiences inside the military, they still talk about with a great deal of appreciation this sense of shared purpose they had with their fellow soldiers. And that’s what these guys are. They’re soldiers on the way to a mission. Laura: Yeah, I feel like it gives men an expression of that when they’re on a mission, versus just in day-to-day life. They don’t have maybe that same camaraderie, that shared purpose. I don’t want to say trauma bonding is a good thing, because no one wants the trauma part. They just want the bonding. Sarah: Yeah, but it gives people something. I don’t even know if it’s trauma bonding. I think there’s just something evolutionarily inside all of us, because we spent millions of years in pursuit of survival together. What kind of leisure time did we have? We were feeding ourselves. We were moving. We were outrunning the weather. We were outrunning predators. That is the majority of the experience of the human brain and the human psyche — it’s a tribal experience. I mean, that book starts with the people who would get kidnapped by the Indians, and they’d go to rescue them and they’d be like, “No, thank you. We would like to stay. Thank you so much.” And I think King kind of gets at this over the course of the novel, when everything upends and you have to be really focused on your survival. He personifies it post-pandemic and really heightens that experience by bringing Randall Flagg into it. We’re not just trying to figure out what we’re going to do post-pandemic — now we have a threat, and there’s not that many of us there to meet it, in a way that can put everybody in a place where they are not only willing to work together but make sacrifices. Laura: The ultimate sacrifices. Stu’s Fall and “Go On Without Me” Sarah: The ultimate sacrifice. We have an accident. They are navigating a steep, treacherous dry riverbed to a washout — which I just did on my spring break trip in New Mexico. And it is scary and hard. I would just like to say, and this was just for funsies in a national park. So I was reading this part like, oh, be careful, guys, be careful, guys. Laura: But Stu slips and falls. It’s really bad. He’s falling and he hears his leg snap in two places. And Stephen King has spent a thousand pages telling us: if you’re injured, you’re out of luck. Sarah: So not great. It’s not great, Bob. And it’s gonna happen to Stu — our sort of beloved, I guess I wouldn’t say main character, but kind of. I mean, he’s definitely the foundation upon which everybody sort of rests a lot of the time. Laura: Nick was like the brain, Stu was like the steady strength, and Larry’s like the heart. They’re like — hey, that’s it — Nick is the Tin Man, Stu is the Lion. Do I have these? No. Stu would be the Scarecrow, Larry would be the Lion. Sarah: I like this, I think I did a good thing there. It’s a nice wink that Stephen King does — they’ve all been so worried about Glenn getting up the hill, like all the things, nobody’s worried about Stu. Old 57-year-old Glenn, he makes it up. But the strength, like you said, is the one that falls. Which happens throughout the book. Mother Abigail, supposed to be the ultimate good, God-given strength character — she kicks a bucket. Laura: And then Nick. Nick too. Sarah: So what do you think he’s trying to say with all these “you’re depending on this person a little too much”? Laura: Maybe. Or just like, the ones of us that we think are the strongest are as vulnerable as everyone else. Sarah: Well, I think that’s it. And I think he’s saying, you don’t need a savior. It comes from the numbers. It comes from the community. It comes from everybody willing to step up — not just depending on one person. Depending on one person, to me, is what he is warning dramatically against with Randall Flagg, right? You people have sacrificed everything, including your own ethics, on the idea that he’s gonna save you and he’s gonna protect you because he’s scary. It’s almost — is he making an anti-fascist, anti-populist argument here? I don’t know, maybe. Laura: Well, he’s definitely making — back to your point about a tribal argument — for sure. There’s real differences. I think it’s interesting how he weaves the differences and the sameness between the Free Zone and the Vegas people. He’ll make the point, like, we’re all the same, we’re all just people, people make choices, nobody is all good or all evil. He’ll sort of make that point, and then he’ll make a point like — yeah, no, there are some differences, actually. JK, some of us suck. Some of us are bad. Larry’s Redemption: “I’m a Nice Guy Now” Laura: But this whole section is so relevant. Yeah, they cut bait quick. Sarah: They do. Laura: Larry’s like, no, we’ll get a car. And they’re like, nope, that’s not the instructions. We’ve got to leave him. And Stu’s like, you’ve got to leave me, and you’ve got to leave me right now. And Larry doesn’t like it. He fights it pretty hard. Because I thought this was really great where he was like, no, I’ve spent this whole journey trying to stop becoming a person who ditches, and now you’re asking me to ditch. Sarah: And I think that’s so smart of Stephen King to say, it’s not about just reversing yourself. It’s about becoming wiser, and that’s not an easy rule to follow. It doesn’t mean you’re a better person because you never ditch. It’s that you’ll be a better person because you have your priorities straight and you know what you’re working towards — not about you, or how you want to seem, or what kind of person you want everybody to perceive you to be. It’s about real wisdom, which often requires deep sacrifice, especially in a crisis. Laura: It’s always the moment where you have to do the thing you thought the character had spent the whole book trying not to do. Sarah: I know. And I do feel like he gets there — not just in the fact that he has to leave Stu, but he gets there even spiritually and in alignment, when he has the dream and he’s sort of able to say to his mom, his dead mom, but kind of spiritually, “I am a nice guy. I figured it out. I got there.” You really see that of the four of them in these two chapters — you see it the most with Larry. We get sort of the redemption that you always want from a character, even though it’s only happening

  7. Join Laura for STEPHEN KING SUMMER 2026! from Slow Read: OUTLANDER, opens in a new tab

    May 28, 20267 min

    The 6th annual Stephen King Summer Book Club kicks off next week and I want you to be a part of it! Stephen King Summer is part of Laura’s Secret Stuff Substack and when you sign up for it, you’ll get the Stephen King Summer Book Club + all her other Secret Stuff content AND the full Stephen King Summer archives. JOIN STEPHEN KING SUMMER For Stephen King Summer 2026, we’re reading: HOLLY The Life of Chuck CUJO and we’ll do watch alongs each month in addition to our zoom book club meetings. I would love to see some Slow Readers over on Secret Stuff this summer! This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit slowread.substack.com/subscribe

  8. SLOW READ: The Stand (Chapters 65 - 71) from Slow Read: OUTLANDER, opens in a new tab

    May 18, 202657 min

    Welcome to SLOW READ , where we tackle the books you’ve always wanted to read at a pace you can handle. Hosted by Sarah Stewart Holland and Laura Tremaine We are currently reading The Stand by Stephen King (unabridged version) You can find our full Reading Schedule here Join the SLOW READ community on Substack for bonus episodes, book club meetings, and Side Quests with Sarah & Laura Mentioned in this episode: * Michael Pollan on the Ezra Klein Show * Rosemary’s Baby (1968 film) * The Sopranos The Announcement Before We Begin Laura: Hello, I’m Laura Tremaine. Sarah: And I’m Sarah Stewart Holland. Laura: This is Slow Read, where we tackle the books you’ve always wanted to read at a pace you can handle. And we are in the final chapters of The Stand by Stephen King. Sarah: If you have been reading along with us since January, lordy, things are finally happening. And if you are binging and catching up with us, well, welcome. Laura: There is a lot to discuss, including whether or not Randall Flagg is a bride’s dream come true. Sarah: He is not. Laura: Spoiler for the whole episode. He is not. Sarah: Now, we would love for you to join us for our last couple of book club meetings for The Stand . Our May meeting is next week. And then we’ll have a big final meeting in June to process the end of The Stand and our whole slow reading experience together. You will want to be there for these meetings because they’re going to be very satisfying to discuss this novel after being with these characters for six months — and each other for that matter. And we’ll be revealing what our next Slow Read is going to be. It’s a big one. It’s a big announcement. Laura: These book club meetings are for our Substack paying members only. And when you join us over there at the Slow Read Substack, you will get not only our book club Zooms with me and Sarah, but you’ll also get a host of other goodies, like all of our Side Quests where we share our personal stories about our dreams, death, parenthood, love triangles. Don’t you want to hear us talk about those things that are tangentially related to The Stand that we have been discussing for the last five, six months? Join us over on slowreadbookclub.com. That’s on Substack. The Balance of Good and Evil (Before We Even Get to Chapter 65) Laura: Okay, Sarah. Chapters 65 through 71. Wow. Sarah: It’s weird because Stephen King has spent the whole book setting up how powerful Randall Flagg is. And then the closer they get, he’s starting to poke holes in that power — which felt like a lot of what this section was. But it hasn’t really lessened my trepidation for our boys as they get closer to Vegas. You know what I mean? Laura: A lot of things I think are happening. He is poking holes in how all-powerful he is, but it feels like sort of the yin and yang to what he also did with Mother Abagail. Sarah: Yeah. Laura: So there’s a real balancing happening in this part of the book, which for me was a little jarring — to go from all of these hundreds of pages spending in the Free Zone with these characters that we love and how they’re setting up their community and all this, and then now to spend the last couple sections in Vegas. I’m like, this is a decidedly different vibe. And I agree with you. It doesn’t make him any less scary. Sarah: But that’s because we know from life experience — not to mention our own literary tastes — that just because he’s not all-powerful doesn’t make him any less terrifying. It’s almost he’s almost more terrifying now that he’s feeling a little desperate. Laura: Right, because he’s backed into a corner. People backed into a corner are dangerous, for sure. Sarah: There’s a lot that happened in this section that sort of brought up so many questions that we have been teetering on the edge of in terms of: what is good and evil? What is all-powerfulness? Who is Mother Abagail and Randall Flagg, like — are they, if they’re not exactly God and the devil, are they angels, demons? And there’s just a lot of questions about those characters, but then also about our community characters in terms of like, nobody is all bad or all good. Laura: He feels all bad to me, but the bad is complicated. Well, he does. He might be all bad — but I guess I meant the community people as they’re starting to have doubts. Sarah: Yeah, I mean, I think that’s what opens up the most interesting moments, especially with Lloyd and Nadine and everyone not operating out of a place of pure fear. Because the holes that King pokes in Randall Flagg’s power break the spell just enough that people in Vegas can start to assess their own decision-making. In the same way that Mother Abagail disappearing freed people up to take leadership roles and make some decisions in the Free Zone — it’s a very similar situation, I think. Laura: Yeah, that’s what I was feeling in the balance of it all. When Mother Abagail goes on her walk to the woods, it’s kind of disappointing, but you still have this human nature thing of like, all right, we’ll buck up, we got to come together and do it in her absence. But when we start to see the failings or the humanness of Randall Flagg — “disappointing” is not a word that covers it. It feels like terrifying. Like, oh no. Because we know men like this who start to lose their grip on power — if it slips even a little bit, they get very erratic and dangerous. Sarah: Well, and the reasoning of the people around him — they’re like, oh no. I did so many things, I made so many decisions, based on the premise that he is protecting us. These people have made some moral and ethical sacrifices on the premise that he was gonna keep them safe. And he couldn’t even keep them safe from Trashcan Man. But I’m skipping ahead — let’s start with chapter 65. Chapter 65: Randall Flagg in the Desert Laura: Chapter 65 opens with Randall Flagg out in the desert. He’s just cooking a rabbit and thinking. This is, I think, not the first time we’re in Randall Flagg’s head, but it’s the first time this whole section where we’re getting a bit more of a fuller picture of how he thinks. And it is substantially more human than we’ve experienced him. Sarah: He’s frustrated with himself and his powers. It’s almost like he has also taken his powers for granted. He cannot see who the third spy is. He cannot figure that out. He’s baffled that Harold Lauder attempted to betray him in the end by shooting at Nadine. He’s having trouble levitating, which is this — Laura: Oh, my God. Sarah: Well, considering what happens to poor Nadine, I don’t think so. Laura: He comes through in the end, as the case may be. Sarah: Oh, my God. I was so freaked out at the beginning of this chapter — how he would look at the wolves and they would fight. We’re going through a lot of the diminishment of his powers, but King is still like, don’t forget this dude is scary. He would just look at the wolves around him and they would start to bite each other and fight each other, and I thought, oh, that’s just such creepy dark imagery. That he is just like violence personified and a mere glance can bring it out in these creatures. I was very freaked out by that. Laura: Yeah, he’s so creepy in this part. But to me it was giving more demon than devil. Sarah: Yeah, and I thought it was so interesting how he talked about how he couldn’t remember his life or experiences before the super flu. He was no longer strictly a man if he had ever been one. He was like an onion slowly peeling away one layer at a time — only it was the trappings of humanity that seemed to be peeling away. Organized reflection, memory, possibly even free will, if there ever had been such a thing. He can only remember the events since the super flu. He was losing himself is how it’s described. So to me that’s so interesting. That feels like something that would happen as his power grew — but maybe there was something in his power and connection and ability to control other humans that was really linked to his own human experiences. Laura: Well, and he also says — this is skipping ahead, but it’s relevant — he says later in this section that there might be other versions of him. What if there was one in China, what if there was one in Russia? He’s kind of assuming there are other versions of him, but that’s something to deal with in ten years is how he thinks about it. But as this whole story has been set up with Mother Abagail representing the good and Randall Flagg representing the bad — now that Mother Abagail has died, it’s interesting that it’s not then just like evil reigns. Because the evil is faltering. The evil is faltering in the face of her death. Characters throughout this entire section are starting to mention: this all changed when she died . When that power — it’s like they keep each other in check. There is a natural order of things, and when there is one to balance the other, that’s what keeps it in check. Now that one has died, instead of evil becoming total dominance, it’s become chaos and confusion. Sarah: She must have known that. She must have had a sense that that was going to happen. I think there is a theme here, beginning with Nadine and continuing, that this isn’t going to end the way everybody expected it to. Nadine thought she knew what was going to happen when she got to him, that she was going to have this ecstasy. Instead, it was horrific. Nadine and the Desert Laura: I underlined the whole thing — because I think it’s one long sentence. He battered into her invader destroyer and the cold blood gushed down her thighs and then he was in her all the way up to her womb and the moon was in her eyes cold and silver — and it just goes. It’s like a paragraph. The sentence just keeps going and going and going describing that. It’s wild. Sarah: So after he cooks the rabbit and has his philosophical thoughts or whatever, cut to Nadine on her Vespa with her white hair — very visual, very kind of cool image in a way — driving to the desert. The Vespa ends up dying. She’s totally dehydrated and delusional, sort of. And she turns around and he’s sitting there on his car. And she knew he was going to be there. To me, the image of her turning around and him sitting there was like, you know, the hot guy, the cool guy who sits on the hood of the car looking — I don’t know if that’s a 50s image, like from Grease , but it really sort of comes all the way through into present time — the hot cool guy sitting on the hood of their car. And you almost expect her to be grateful to see him. She’s been waiting for him since her own college days. Laura: She’s walking in the desert. She’s delirious. She’s dehydrated. I also made a note here about the walking. He is known throughout King canon as the Walkin’ Dude. He is the Walkin’ Dude. And yet in this book, people just walk. They have to walk. They walk in ways that annoy me — instead of using easier means of transportation. Remember Trashcan Man walked until he was delirious and dehydrated into Vegas? The four men coming over from the Free Zone, they’re walking, even though there are other ways to do it. There is something about walking in this story. I don’t know if it’s supposed to be an equal playing field, like we all have to walk. I don’t know if it’s supposed to be a reference to pilgrimages or journeys — the Camino de Santiago, things like that. I just am like, we return to walking always. And that is obviously a thing that we’re supposed to pick up on. Sarah: Well, I was just listening to Michael Pollan on the Ezra Klein Show about his new book about consciousness. He talked about all the brain science around walking and how it makes you more creative. It’s such an embodied experience that it really connects all the different pieces of your consciousness together. That’s definitely my experience walking — it’s where I feel clearest. But I think it’s interesting that in this book there’s not a consistent conclusion about walking. Sometimes people walk and it helps them, and some people walk and it pushes them to the brink and they make a bad alliance — like Trashcan Man, and Nadine here. She walked straight into insanity with this encounter she’s been waiting for for decades. Sarah: Yeah, I don’t know what it is. But maybe that’s the point. When all else fails, in a post-pandemic world, when all else falls away — it’s walking. We revert to walking. That’s our most primal thing. Before agriculture, we were wandering tribesmen. That is fundamental to who we are for sure. Anyway — she turns around, sees him at the car, and it should be this grand — reunion isn’t the right word — grand meeting. And it just isn’t. It’s gross. She’s repulsed. She calls him an ageless pimple. Sarah: So gross. An ageless pimple finally brought to a head and about to spew for some noisome — How do you say that word? Lauren: You know what, I was reading this out loud and I got to that word and I was like, what is that word? Sarah: We can leave this in the edit. Nobody knows how to say it. Noisome fluid. Some sweetness long since curdled. That’s disgusting. Laura: When I was making some notes about this scene, the first thing I wrote was that he rapes her. And then I was rethinking — this is just me thinking out loud, nobody come for me — I was like, this was always the plan. This has been her plan since pre-pandemic. They were going to come together and have a union in this way. She has saved herself for this person. So at first I was like, is that rape? And then I reread the scene and I was like, oh no, this is rape. She is screaming. She’s trying to get away. Sarah: It doesn’t matter. It is weird though — she had so many points to turn around. At so many points she understood consciously that he was dangerous, that this was a place from which she could never return. Nadine — of all the characters — Lloyd makes a certain amount of sense to me, Trashcan Man makes a certain amount of sense to me, even Harold. But Nadine, I’m like, I don’t get it. You didn’t want anybody to die. And then you turn all the way. You had Joe/Leo. Except for that moment with Larry when she’s like, please, please, please help me — there are just so many moments where I’m like, you knew how bad this was going to get. Your subconscious bubbled up into your conscious thought many times, like: no, abort, this is a bad idea. Laura: I don’t know if she’s meant to be like a sacrificial lamb, or if she’s meant to be, as he calls it, an incubator. Sarah: The implication to me is like his child could not be conceived willingly. She had to be taken this way and sort of put into the land of insanity for his child to be born or whatever. That to me was the subtle implication of the whole thing. Laura: Well, she is one of the most complicated characters in that there are glimpses of her being good throughout the whole novel. So why is she saving herself for this sort of ultimate evil? And then she doubts herself right up until she meets him. We also have these unusual ideas about what she was doing with Harold — not completely consummating, but doing everything but. And I got the impression she didn’t hate that. Maybe she was just doing that to manipulate Harold, but you kind of get the implication that she likes it. There’s that whole scene where she sort of wants them to go all the way and she has to stop herself. So she’s enjoying these sexual acts with Harold, but then when it comes to this act she’s been waiting for all this time, it’s just so horrible and violent and so — Rosemary’s Baby. Laura: Yes! Which by the way came out in 1968. That had to have been in his mind. Sarah: Well, what also happens in the midst of this is that Randall Flagg feels somebody pass by. He also understands that the men from the Free Zone are coming for him. So he hasn’t lost the eye completely — he gets these senses that somebody’s passing by. It’s a full moon, so we’re all putting together the pieces of who that somebody might be. That’ll be confirmed in the next chapter — chapter 66. But he’s still, the holes are showing. I loved when he got back to Vegas with Nadine — he saw the questioning in everybody’s eyes. So he knows everybody knows things aren’t working out the way he planned. But there’s still a lot of power here. Laura: And I think he’s trying to hide the slippage. Like, he’s trying to act like he’s still all-knowing. He definitely does not want people to know that he is, quote-unquote, losing himself. Sarah: But that’s what’s so interesting about this chapter — you’re in his head, so you know what he knows, including that somebody passed by. It’s complicated. Laura: Also — how relevant is this to our current world? Just desperate to cover up lapses in brain functioning? Sarah: Whatever could you be referencing, Laura? Sarah: Well, also, people backed in a corner are dangerous. That’s hyper relevant on many, many, many stages. Laura: Look, I feel like I could say this about our past two presidents — our current president and our past president — that there is a misstep and then a desperation to show that there was not an age-related mishap. When there’s a slip and then they double down. Yeah. Chapter 66: Lloyd Shows Up Sarah: And I think in chapter 66, we start spending a lot of time with Lloyd. That’s where I thought Lloyd was one of the most interesting characters in this whole chapter — the way he was kind of processing Randall Flagg’s slips and processing his own choices to begin with. I thought that was one of the most interesting themes through this section. Lloyd really showed up. He showed up and he showed out in this section, and I kind of dug it. Laura: Listen, I have much to say about Lloyd. Except to say — how far has Lloyd come from his shootout with Polk? Sarah: He even says that. That’s one of my favorite parts of the chapter: he got better. It’s like, it’s giving Larry. It’s giving Stu. There were people on both sides of this battle who, being chosen and stepping up and finding some leadership, really changed them. And I think Lloyd’s one of those people. So we get to chapter 66. Lloyd’s back in Vegas and he’s gotten word that Trashcan Man — apparently not always the easiest of allies or tools to keep in your control. Go figure. Who would have guessed? Laura: I mean, Lloyd isn’t just that he’s been chosen — he’s become a leader. Are we all on our own path? I’ve said this throughout the whole book, because I think a huge theme of this book is your path is your path. I think that’s what we’re exploring a little bit with Nadine also. Even though she doesn’t want to fulfill this thing she’s been on a path to fulfill the whole time, I don’t know how much choice she has in the matter by the time she meets Flagg in the desert. But we’re all on our own dedicated path. We have our roles, like it or not. Sarah: That’s why I don’t think “your path is your path” fits this quite so well — because I think there are so many people in this book who the path changed. Lloyd is different now. He was in a place of desperation and he threw in with Flagg, but that has changed him. And I think he could be a very different kind of henchman than Stephen King portrays. If you’re a Sopranos fan — it’s the difference between like Paulie and Silvio. There’s a kind of blind adherence, like you just follow the boss. And then there’s a more conciliatory approach. He even says, like, who would have become a diplomat — who would use that word to describe old Lloyd when he was hanging out with Poke? So it’s kind of changed him. His assessment — so first he learns that Trashcan Man has booby-trapped a truck. Spoiler alert: it gets worse from there. Then Julie Lowry comes and tells him about Nick Andros and Tom Cullen. And so he’s starting to put some pieces together. And watching him put these pieces together and decide what it means for him, what it means for the community, what it means for Randall Flagg — it’s not a level of complex decision-making or analysis that I would have predicted Lloyd able to do. Laura: Well, no. T

  9. SLOW READ: The Stand (Chapters 61 - 64) from Slow Read: OUTLANDER, opens in a new tab

    May 11, 202646 min

    Welcome to SLOW READ , where we tackle the books you’ve always wanted to read at a pace you can handle. Hosted by Sarah Stewart Holland and Laura Tremaine We are currently reading The Stand by Stephen King (unabridged version) You can find our full Reading Schedule here Join the SLOW READ community on Substack for bonus episodes, book club meetings, and Side Quests with Sarah & Laura If you prefer to read instead of listen, below is a cleaned up transcript of the episode as well as links to all the books and Substacks we mentioned in this episode…and several fun bonus links and videos! Mentioned in this episode: * The Lord of the Rings by J.R.R. Tolkien * The Tune of Things: Is Consciousness God? (Christian Wilman in Harper’s, 2025) * Moby Dick by Herman Melville * The Scarlet Letter by Nathaniel Hawthorne * Paradise Lost by John Milton * “Top of the World” by The Chicks (Official Video) * Stand By Me (1986 film) — IMDb The Writing in This Section Sarah: Laura, after a very long time in the free zone, we are back with Randall Flagg and his crew, which have been varying levels of infiltrated by the committee spies. How did you feel about this section? Laura: I thought these particular chapters were some of the best written of the whole entire book. I have two standout sections that I consider the best in terms of incredible sentences and just the craft of it — this is one of them. Not a ton of wild imagination necessarily, but the sentences in this section, I was like, oh, that’s so well written. How he looped back several different things, and then the section many hundreds of pages ago with Glenn Bateman — that one felt really well written too, really poetic. But this section feels different. Like he was in a flow state, Mr. King, when he did this part. Sarah: I totally agree. I thought it was really engaging. And I also want to say — in this section as a whole, King makes a ton of literary references. He references Edgar Allan Poe, he references Lord of the Rings . I looked up the law book that Judge Ferris is reading, the one King mentions multiple times, and that’s a real book — it’s literally about racial social justice. I looked at it and was like, okay, he is doing some things. King is doing some things. This is pre-Black Lives Matter as a movement, but obviously these conversations were being had. We’re coming out of the 60s, back in the 70s when this was first written — it makes sense. Laura: And back to the writing style changing — I feel like that’s also part of the fact that we’re now in Vegas, and we haven’t been there for hundreds and hundreds of pages, and the writing is just different. It almost feels like these little sections — Judge Ferris, Dana, and then Harold — could almost be novellas with just a little more structure put in. They’re so well done. But it’s a really different tone from the time we’ve been spending in the free zone, which is a little folksy, a little quote-unquote normal novel stuff. This is really different, and that feels intentional. The Vegas parts have a different flavor. And I also like that he’s making the connection that not everyone in Vegas is evil. People are people. It’s not black and white. Chapter 61: Poor Judge Ferris Sarah: Well, let’s start with chapter 61, because poor Judge Ferris doesn’t actually make it to Vegas. Laura: God bless him. Bless his heart. Sarah: There’s a lot going on in this chapter — the plot happens, but also King is pulling together a lot of things. So we find Judge Ferris making his cross-country trip, and we know that Randall Flagg has sent patrols to stop him, to kill him — but please, please, please protect his head, because I’m going to send it back to the free zone and freak them all the way out. Some very specific instructions. At first I’m like, why are we taking this beloved character and sending him directly to his death? But there are two moments where I start to see the pieces coming together. The first is Judge Ferris is in a hotel room and a crow taps on his window. And Judge Ferris realizes this crow is Randall Flagg. He pulls a gun — and what I thought the most affecting part was, the crow slash Randall Flagg kind of panics. Oh no, if he shoots me, that’s it. Luckily for the crow slash Randall Flagg, the safety’s on. But Stephen King is giving us this insight to realize he is not immortal. He’s very powerful, but he can take on these other forms, and that means he’s vulnerable the way those forms are vulnerable. Which I thought was really interesting. Laura: Well, I also thought it was interesting because we haven’t encountered much supernaturalness for many hundreds of pages. It’s been kind of practical for a while. Sarah: What are you talking about? Are you forgetting the drive-in scene where he took over the speakers and was speaking to Nadine? Laura: Yes, but it’s all Randall Flagg–based. The percentage of supernaturalness in this story is on the lower side than I think most people might expect from Stephen King. This has been more of a practical, post-apocalyptic novel. Sarah: We’ve just spent a lot of time in committee meetings and town meetings. Even when Mother Abigail’s healing Franny, it is a moment among a lot of secretarial work. Laura: Yeah. I was like, bring it, Crow. I was ready for something like this to happen. Sarah: But there’s also — not just that the crow gives us insight into Flagg’s vulnerabilities — the whole time I was thinking, why are you so worried about him? Why are you so paranoid about Judge Ferris making it all the way to Vegas? You know he’s a spy, you hunt him out immediately. There is sort of a “thou dost protest too much” situation. Why are you sending parties all over the United States to stop this one guy? Laura: Don’t you think this is the first real glimpse we have that Randall Flagg is scared? Sarah: Yes. Exactly. I think that’s what this whole section is about — he is paranoid, he is not all-powerful. For one thing, he has to depend on animals to be in a lot of places at once, which is a vulnerability we’re learning. And then he has to depend on these dum-dums like Bobby Terry — what a name — to institute his orders, and they’re ding-dongs who can’t do it. The one instruction was: don’t shoot him in the head. And Bobby Terry kills Judge Ferris so dramatically and terribly that he’s unidentifiable. So even if they sent the head back to the free zone, they’d be like, who dis, we don’t know. Laura: I feel like there are parallels here — not just to our current moment of a wannabe all-powerful dictator, but to past moments too. There’s a lot of bravado in that type of person, but there’s an underlying fear. And also, the people surrounding them doing their bidding are statistically often dum-dums. Sarah: Well, that’s definitely Dana’s observation in the next chapter — that there are more ding-dongs in Vegas than there are in the Free Zone. Laura: Yeah, but they work harder. Sarah: They work harder. Then Bobby Terry screws up, and Randall Flagg transforms into some — I couldn’t quite put it together. Beast, man, crow? Laura: All I know is there are teeth involved. That part I picked up on. There were teeth, and he died in a very gruesome manner. I wasn’t sure — maybe weasel-y, animal-y? Sarah: Did you have to get a map out and be like, wait, the sentries are in Oregon? How do we get from the Rockies to Vegas? Laura: I was so confused. Sarah: He’s going up and around, obviously. Listen, I’m a big national parks person, so my baseline geography of the mountain ranges and the middle west to far west is probably a little better than most. Laura: It must be, because I literally was like, Oregon, where are we? What’s going on? I just think everybody — including Randall Flagg, because apparently he materializes like a ghost — is moving around awful quick in this story without airplanes or helicopters, and sometimes just on bicycles. Sarah: Okay, I didn’t want to nitpick this because I complained earlier in the book about why they were all using bikes. But now that we are into cars, like Judge Ferris doing all the driving, I do have a nitpick of — can you just stop at the empty gas stations and get gas? Laura: I mean, yes, I guess. Maybe. But it must be a big deal, because poor old Larry is still out there remembering the fact that he could have lost his fingers getting gas and that Harold had such a better way of doing it. Sarah: And also, I am living in 2026, but they did address it — he got a key from the empty front desk and just let himself into a room. Laura: I’m assuming it’s a physical key, because now everything would be digital. This is the 70s, where they had physical keys. You’d need electricity to program the key cards. Sarah: I did think that would be a different thing if this type of super flu took out everybody in 2026. The digital dependency we have now would add a layer of complication. Laura: Alright, Judge Ferris. You’re the best. R.I.P. Next chapter. Chapter 62: Dana Juergens, Absolute Badass Sarah: Dana Juergens. What a badass. Laura: What a badass. What a badass. Why has he been keeping Dana Juergens from us this whole time? I’m kind of angry. Sarah: Did your book have an illustration of her? Laura: Yeah, but she looks — it’s a weird illustration. It’s not how I picture Dana. She looks like a man. And I just don’t think that would be Lloyd’s type, because that’s who she’s sleeping with. I was picturing her as curvy and— Sarah: I love where he writes that she always thought women looked best on their backs. Like, are you saying that, Stephen King, or is she saying that? Laura: I feel like you’re just sharing your thoughts, dear sir. Sarah: I did like the Vegas of it all — she’s in a round bed with a round mirror. That tracks. So she’s sleeping with Lloyd, gathering all kinds of information, like the fact that they’re putting together weapon systems out there. I thought the part about Trashcan Man was so creepy — Lloyd is like, he’s so smart, he’s as strange as the big guy himself, and how he just disappears and sniffs out weapons all across the country. Laura: Isn’t it funny that Lloyd, who was a common criminal in pre-pandemic life, is interpreting Trashcan Man’s abilities as genius? I’m not disputing that it is a level of genius, but we have experienced Trashcan Man differently as the reader. I think it puts some things together though — that chaotic, vulnerable internal dialogue we’ve seen from him, paired with the prioritization Randall Flagg clearly places on having him there. And Trashcan Man is working under a totally different set of rules — he can come and go. Whereas the rest of Vegas has these really defined work assignments. Dana’s been there ten days and she’s assigned to a crew, they work nine to five. It’s very serious and structured. Sarah: Kind of like it or not, what Dana is doing — manipulating Lloyd through their relationship — is part of the women’s stereotype that some people critique King for. But she is doing so much more. She’s gathering intel way beyond just that relationship. She’s building relationships, she’s working, she’s putting pieces together. And the way she’s so thoughtful and smart even to the very end — when Flagg tells Lloyd to wait, she was like, I knew immediately that wasn’t what was going to happen because he would have jumped the second you said go. Like, she’s so sharp about the motivations of everybody around her. And what she gives us is all this color and texture around the fact that not everybody there is a monster. She talks about one guy and says something like, the odd thing is, he sounds really genuinely sorry — too bad he’s also so genuinely scared. She’s adding so much nuance. It’s not just a bunch of Trashcan Mans out there. There are regular people who are just terrified of Randall Flagg. Laura: It’s like giving Voldemort the whole chapter. They won’t talk about him, they won’t say his name. He was “the great there, not there.” His presence is lurking even when he’s not in the room. Sarah: Weren’t you fascinated by her friendship with Jenny? Laura: I was. And I also thought that was actually, if we’re going to talk about the way he writes women — if she’s manipulating Lloyd, she’s also trying to find a bestie. She’s really friend-crushing on Jenny. She likes her and doesn’t understand why Jenny would have been drawn to Vegas in the first place, but she knows she can’t really ask her without showing her cards. Sarah: Well, that’s because Dana is a badass and is not motivated by fear at all. That little pep talk she gives herself — “my name is Dana Roberta Juergens and I’m afraid, but I’ve been afraid before. All he can take from me is what I would have to give up someday, anyhow — my life. I will not let him break me down. I will not let him make me less than I am. If I can possibly help, but I want to die well, and I’m going to have what I want.” That is not the motivation of people terrified out of their minds. That is a completely different orientation to the world. Dana’s a stoic, I think. Laura: That speech is so good. But I do think King is also trying to show us why people end up on the quote-unquote bad side. It’s not because they’re evil or want to torture people. It can be because they’re scared. It can be because, as he’s alluded to in the past, they’re techie — so they’re excited to work on the airplanes and get the power grid going. And some of the good people in Vegas are out there loving on little Denny, right? He’s trying to show that they love this child. They want what’s best for this child. It’s complicated. Sarah: I really hooked on how Dana described Flagg as “glamorous” at one point — especially when we find out Julie Lawry is in Vegas in the next chapter. Some people are drawn to that. Jenny kind of articulates it: I know what I’m getting. I know he’s in control. I might not like it and I’m scared of it, but I know somebody knows what’s going on and is figuring it out. And there was some of that in the free zone with the worship of Mother Abigail too. Laura: When you get these little short lines, these small tangents and backstories to characters who are inconsequential to the main plot, you are understanding the layers of why people do what they do — or why they’re numb to their own actions and end up in these situations. That’s what makes this book so epic to me. Even to the guys who killed Judge Ferris — we get a few nuggets of backstory to understand how scared they are, how bored they are out there. It gives the story so much richness. Sarah: And we’re getting complex portrayals not just of everyone in Vegas, but of Flagg himself — who gets bested by Dana. She figures out immediately that he’s playing her, that he’s smiling. The theme of this book, by the way, is that smiling is creepy. Does Stephen King smile? Laura: I think maybe not, based on what I’m picking up from this novel. Sarah: So Randall Flagg is smiling at her, being like, listen, babe, we’ve got no reason to — we can both live beside each other. Why are y’all sending spies? I don’t want to hurt anybody. It’s so creepy. Laura: But she says it was goddamn persuasive. And hypnotizing. There is an element — even without the supernatural part, it can be persuasive. We know people like this who really make us falter. But he is also employing his voodoo, his hypnosis, and she has to keep fighting it. Sarah: Who the other spy is — I saw Tom Cullen at the top of the cherry picker while she was changing streetlights, and I was afraid Tom was just going to be like, “Hey, it’s my friend Dana!” and blow her cover. That’s why they show up — as the transcript says — at four in the morning, “the hour of the secret police.” Loved that line. And then she realizes pretty quickly, because she’s a badass, what information Flagg is actually trying to get from her. Her mind keeps going back to Tom, and she’s worried he can read her mind, so she’s trying not to let him get inside her head. Laura: Sarah sent an article last month that was actually about consciousness — I think Stephen King would really like this article. We’ll put it in the show notes. But one of the things it also discusses is the historical precedent of religious figures levitating. I did not know enough about big-C church history to realize, when we first see Randall Flagg levitating, that this is a reference to saints who reportedly levitated — who would fast themselves from a religious point of view and that would give them powers, like levitation. There’s historical documentation of this. I didn’t fully understand that reference when it first appeared. Sarah: I just think he is doing such a complex dance. Flagg is powerful — everybody’s terrified of him, he made one guy go crazy just by looking at him, he can become a predator anywhere in the world. But he’s not all-powerful. He’s not immortal. I loved it at the end when Lloyd says, “I think he’s around somewhere. I think he’s around waiting for something to happen. I don’t know what.” Even his acolytes in Vegas are seeing the chinks in the armor, just as we the reader are picking up on it. Laura: And I think there has become a bit of an equality — which we didn’t get in the beginning — between Randall Flagg and Mother Abigail. My initial impression was that Mother Abigail, as the one with a direct connection to God, would be in the stronger position. But we see all the ways in which she is vulnerable. And then the same with Randall Flagg. Both of them are emissaries. They are not God or not-God themselves. Chapter 63: Julie Lawry, You Suck Sarah: Next up in chapter 63 — ugh. If Julie Lawry ends up getting Tom Cullen killed, I’ma be so mad. Laura: You know what’s funny? I saw a comment from our slow readers — if y’all aren’t in the comments over on Substack, please go see. People say the most interesting, thoughtful things. We’re having great conversations over there. But someone said a few chapters back, “I’m so glad to be done with Julie.” And I was like... we’re not done with Julie. Sarah: Denny, this little boy who apparently has a rotating cast of mothers, is at the park with his newest mother Angelina, and she’s sitting next to this woman who’s going on and on about her obnoxious life and sex — and we should have known from the second she mentioned sex four or five times that it was Julie Lawry. Because Tom Cullen comes through the park too, the child loves Tom Cullen, Julie Lawry realizes it’s Tom, and is Cheshire Cat grinning at the thought of blowing his cover. It’s a very short chapter, that’s all we know, but this is such a big reveal. Remember — right before this chapter, someone notes the moon’s almost full. So I’m like, oh, maybe it’ll just be in time — Tom, get out of here before Julie gets with somebody and puts this all together. Fingers crossed. Laura: Although I feel like when Angelina tells Julie that Tom Cullen got booted out of the free zone — that’s actually a kind of decent cover story. And we know why they believed it: because Flagg can’t read Tom Cullen’s mind. He can’t give them the same intel he gave Harold and Nadine. But also — this is amazing storytelling. She was always going to show back up. That’s definitely where she was going to end up. Sarah: She sucks. She just does. Chapter 64: Harold Comes to Rest Sarah: Chapter 64. Oh, Harold. How do you feel? Laura: I felt bad for him. That’s rough. That’s a rough way to die. I was picturing that Ali Wong TV show where they end up in the desert and injured in the exact situation Harold is in — it looks brutal. You are thirsty, you are hallucinating. It’s not fun. Sarah: So Harold and Nadine are fleeing to Vegas, and Harold wipes out on an oil slick — which he now thinks, after many hours suffering alone in the desert, was probably Randall Flagg. Because where did the oil come from? It’s been months. He suffers multiple leg breaks, he’s lying there, he tries to crawl back up to Nadine, and she refuses to help him and leaves him to die. He tries to shoot h

  10. SLOW READ: The Stand (Chapters 56 - 60) from Slow Read: OUTLANDER, opens in a new tab

    Apr 27, 20261 hr 12 min

    Welcome to SLOW READ , where we tackle the books you’ve always wanted to read at a pace you can handle. Hosted by Sarah Stewart Holland and Laura Tremaine We are currently reading The Stand by Stephen King (unabridged version) You can find our full Reading Schedule here Join the SLOW READ community on Substack for bonus episodes, book club meetings, and Side Quests with Sarah & Laura ______ Mentioned in this episode: * Giants in the Earth by Ole Edvart Rølvaag * The Handmaid’s Tale by Margaret Atwood * How to Change Your Mind by Michael Pollan * Contagion (film, 2011) Living Inside the Book Laura: And after a few hundred pages of peaceful community building, some stuff really happens in this section finally. Sarah: I’d say so. I found myself traveling recently to Vegas of all places. And I was driving and I looked up at the moon and it was like fully half. And I’m like, oh, we’re not to the full moon for Tom Cullen. As if I have to wait for the full moon in my life for him to come back. I’m like real in it. I noticed every mention of Boulder. I noticed every mention when I was walking around Vegas. It feels like almost at the pace it’s happening. I’m a little stressed and I’m just in it. The anticipation of what’s going to happen next, especially after this section, is very, very high. Laura: I am having a similar experience by doing this so slowly. I’m reading it so differently than I would read any other novel, which changes your relationship to the character. Of course it’s a reread for me. Where if you’re mildly irritated by a character, you’re just reading so fast that you don’t really sit with those emotions. You’re like, well, that’s sort of annoying, and you just keep it moving because you’re propelled by the plot or by finishing or whatever. By doing it slowly, it really changes the way I think about the characters because, like you said, we’re kind of in it real time, like they’re friends. In the past, when I didn’t have much sympathy for Larry Underwood because he just seemed very narcissistic, on this read, doing it slowly, I’m sort of seeing the fullness of his character differently—and having a lot of sympathy for him until we get to this section and he wore me slick. Sarah: This is always my experience with slow reads. I read War and Peace last year and I just felt like I lived about 20 percent of my life in Russia all year long. When you do a slow read, you also live a little bit in the book. You’re not hopping in and out. You’re not speeding through. You’re just existing there and soaking up all the slow changes and the atmosphere and the annoying people and the people you like and everybody’s choices. That’s why I like it so much. Laura: Because when you read quickly, you get the high level of what an author is doing with a character. You understand if they’re meant to be manipulative or the hero. But when you go slowly, you just feel like you know them. You can sort of think about this book when you’re driving around town doing your errands, like you would think about people you know in real life. It’s just really a different experience, but I’m loving that part. Sarah: Yeah, it’s the best. I love hanging with characters like that. Even when they’re all dying. Even when they’re all dying. Laura: Which brings us to the bummer of this section. Chapter 56: Babies, Bombs, and Bad News Laura: Chapter 56, we start out — are the babies dying? This is rough. I feel like this theme is going to hit the mothers among us. The beginning of this chapter, Ralph stops Stu and tells him that a new group is coming in to join the Free Zone. There’s about 40 of them. Wonderful news. There’s a doctor among them. But not so great news is that one of them, Mrs. Wentworth, was pregnant with twins. She delivered on the road as they were walking. And both of her twins die under mysterious circumstances. Everyone’s mind immediately goes to: did the babies breathe air and immediately get the super flu? Sarah: That doesn’t make sense virology-wise, because I’m an amateur virologist now. It would not hang out that long with no host for months and months in the hot summer sun. Laura: But you don’t think the immune people might carry it, but they’re immune to it? Sarah: I mean, I guess, but it has to have something to live off of. There are real virologists listening right now being like, hey, this is why you’re an amateur. Laura: But I wonder if — was there something to what they were trying to say about because the babies were conceived before the flu hit? Is there something then, or if their biological dad had it, does that make a difference? Sarah: Yeah, that seems to be their theory. The smaller story of Mrs. Wentworth is so much like a story in a book I read for Well-Read Mom called Giants in the Earth , which is about Swedish pioneers in like Minnesota, 1800s. This woman along the way loses a child and she kind of loses her mind a little bit, doesn’t want anybody to have the bodies. It really, really reminded me of that story. The idea that if you were traveling to what you perceived as safety with your children or while pregnant and then to lose one of them — I think it’s just a really unique psychological trauma. And with this, the whole conversation got me thinking about with the “no more babies” — this is what I always say about Handmaid’s Tale . Like, people are like, it would never get that bad. I’m like, I don’t think you understand how quickly people would go crazy if there were no babies. I 100% believe people would lose their ever-loving minds and would be able to look past or accept any manner of horror and abuses if they thought it would get them babies. Laura: Well, and it makes King’s choice to have Franny be pregnant such a stroke of genius to this particular story. It really came together in this section because it raises the stakes. Not just Franny’s pregnancy, but like all of humanity’s pregnancy. And it just makes it all more emotional. I’m a little worried — she hasn’t felt the baby move but one time. I keep thinking that too, but she’s not due till January and it’s August. And you don’t feel them as early with your first baby. Sarah: I lost a pregnancy at 20 weeks and then got pregnant way too soon afterwards with Felix. And just that obsession — like all-consuming obsession with feeling the baby move and making sure everything is okay. I remember my doctor being like, come in anytime, anytime. And Felix — he was such a jerk. Anytime they would do an ultrasound, he’d be asleep. I’d be like, move, you jerk. Don’t you understand my stress level? And the doctor’s like, no, he doesn’t. And he doesn’t care. Laura: With your first one, you really don’t know. Eventually it becomes unmistakable that the baby is moving. But there are so many twinges and little flutters, and you want it so badly to feel it that you sometimes will it to happen. Franny being pregnant is really becoming an important part of this story. And story-wise, it also really matters that Stu is not the biological dad. There’s a lot happening here. Sarah: That feels... Mary and Joseph. Laura: Biblical, yes. This whole book has so many biblical things. Well, and we find out later in this section that Nadine’s going to get impregnated by the dark man, which sounds unpleasant to me, personally. Sarah: Cold. Ew. Nadine, Leo, and the Question of Loyalty Laura: So at the beginning of Chapter 56, Nadine is back in her original house, packing up. And she doesn’t even realize that in the corner, Leo — formerly known as Joe — her little savage companion, is sitting in the corner in his underpants. Are we supposed to love him or what? Because I’m creeped out by him. Sarah: I mean, Stephen King plays around a lot with powerful, psychic kids. And I don’t think they’re supposed to be deeply comforting. Because there is something about when it’s coming from someone who fundamentally doesn’t understand the world yet and isn’t mature enough to have a prefrontal cortex, it just hits different. It reminds me of Michael Pollan’s book How to Change Your Mind — he talks about what happened in the ‘60s and why people got so freaked out by psychedelics. In traditional cultures, when you’re expanding your consciousness, it’s like your guide is old. But in the ‘60s it was teenagers, and everyone was like, whoa, everything’s upside down, this is no good. That’s what Leo reminds me of. I’m interested in what he has to say, but it’s in a container that feels like it’s not capable of containing it. Laura: Well, and also it’s interesting that Nadine has a real moment of self-awareness here where she realized she preferred him as Joe, when he was nonverbal and violent and she was the one keeping him in check. Once he meets Mother Abigail and becomes Leo, remembers his name, starts speaking — he chooses to be in a more traditional situation with Larry and Lucy more often and didn’t have as much attachment to Nadine. She discards him, which she realizes about herself. And it’s just telling you a lot about Nadine. She keeps trying to distract herself from what her mission is. She is being called to the dark man and she keeps trying to find reasons not to go. She’s trying to self-sabotage, but she stays on the path ultimately. Sarah: What confuses me is that Leo has this advanced perception of what’s going on. He has some sort of psychic connection. He understood that Mother Abigail was going to make it across the river. So why is he drawn to Nadine? He won’t enter the house with Harold, but he’s so sad Nadine is gone. I’m like, dude, either you understand who’s on the light or the dark or you don’t. Laura: I know. You can’t even argue that it’s because she’s wishy-washy about it all, because so is Harold. Back and forth they kind of go. And I don’t know why Leo has this relationship with Nadine. Sarah: You’re right. It doesn’t really make any sense. I do like that Harold gets so mean to her in this chapter. Like he’s just over her. I think that is good and accurate and interesting — if a relationship is built only on everything but. Laura: A lot of things are happening there. They’re both realizing that they’re about to have to leave the Free Zone and they both have complicated feelings about it. Which is what makes this book better than just everybody in Vegas is bad, everybody in the Free Zone is good. A lot of humanity is going to fall somewhere in the middle. Nadine and Harold are doing some exceptionally odd things, but they’re still having some sadness and regret. They’re sort of attached to the Free Zone despite their own mission. They’re not just one-dimensional evil people. Sarah: Yeah, I mean, I think Harold still loves Franny. Shows you the knife’s edge of love and hate that he’s planning to kill her. But I think he still kind of feels connected to her in some way. It’s also revealed in Chapter 56 that Harold is building a bomb. Spies, Consent, and Tom Cullen’s Mission Laura: We find out Dana is a lesbian. Sarah: Could you blame her after the time in the harem? That might put you off men. Laura: I know, but before that — Sue gives a little backstory to Dana. She had a real brute of a husband back in the day and then just realized, you know what, maybe I like girls. But it’s funny — not like funny haha, because I’m not insulting anyone here — but why in the world would Stu be just shocked that Dana is a lesbian? He’s really bothered by this. Sarah: I bought it even in the ‘90s. I think people were still — and also he was living in teeny tiny Arnett, Texas. How many lesbians do you think there are in Arnett, Texas? Laura: Not that many. Laura: But then they all go to set Tom off on his mission. And listen, I’m sorry. I find this cruel. I do. Sarah: I’m just too interested in what’s going to happen to be wrapped up in the ethics of it. Is there some ableist assumptions in seeing it as cruel? You’re assuming that he’s not up for it. What Nick is arguing, and what I buy to a certain extent, is that he is uniquely suited for this. Not ill-equipped — uniquely suited. Sarah: So it’s not necessarily... Now, is there some consent issues? I feel like he feels coerced.Absolutely. But I mean, I think you could also argue that hypnosis is not mind control, right? It’s a little bit in a gray area. Laura: Except you’re potentially sending him to his own death. It’s not like they’re coercing him to be the local PE teacher. Sarah: Tom has — he loves his house. He loves his whole situation. He is not in the mood for this. But you have to think about what Stephen King is telling you in the scenes way back in the beginning with the tornado. When push comes to shove, he has instincts and capacity that others do not, and can save lives. I can see the case they’re making. I’m not saying I would do it. I’m just saying I don’t think they’re evil and completely cruel to do it. I understand how they got there. Laura: I can see objectively how they got there, but it does feel like they’re taking advantage of someone who is pretty incapable of saying no to them. That said — he also can’t understand his own capacity, and they can. Chapter 57: Destiny, Free Will, and the Drive-In Sarah: We both underlined “this is a job for a weasel, not a lion.” I underlined that so much. It’s an interesting quote because you would usually think the opposite — except who are the good guys and who are the bad guys here? The weasels are supposed to be Flagg and his people. We’ve had literal weasel scenes where it’s Flagg. Now suddenly the good guys are the weasels. Because it’s a David and Goliath situation. They’re not going to battle him strength to strength, obviously. Laura: David and Goliath. The ones who do consent well — the judge, Dana — they both seemed like they are fulfilling their destiny, which is the whole book to me. The whole book is asking these questions of destiny, fate, our path, our soul’s mission. Every single character is walking through that in all their different ways. Sarah: Don’t you feel like that happens in real life all the time? Those hard moments where something intercedes and really changes the direction? Laura: I think life is more of a soft merge than a hard right. Almost always. Sarah: Well, I think things happen daily that are nudging us. Like last night I dreamed about a person I hadn’t thought of in years. And I was like, oh, should I reach out to them? I used the term “the Holy Spirit at work” all the time — because something happens or I bring up something and someone’s reading the same book. To me, that is the connective energetic exchange that leads us in directions. But in this book it’s dialed up to like 15. This is not a small child reading your thoughts and telling you to talk to somebody. Laura: If that happened to me, I’d be freaked all the way out. Sarah: Definitely. And may I remind you — in a couple of chapters — literal pushes. Literal “get out of the house” pushes. Laura: That’s what I think the book is doing for us, though. Like, that’s why I read fiction. It’s not because I anticipate a little Mowgli character telling me to go have a certain conversation. It’s because I feel like, oh gosh, this happens in life. You can’t even deny your own path, even if you want to, even if you try. Sarah: I like to think I’m more in control of my path than that. The choice to move home was my choice. Nobody was pushing me to do that. My husband didn’t want to do that. It was me taking the reins and saying, no, I want to go this direction. Laura: Because that was your path. Sarah: Yeah, I mean, maybe. I didn’t think it was at the time. I wanted a certain life, and so I chose a path that would get me to the life I wanted. It’s like a balance. And I think that’s kind of what he’s playing with — we’re dealing with psychic children, and also, can everybody go turn all the appliances off, please? So the place doesn’t burn to the ground. I just like that real balance of pragmatic and psychic going on through all these chapters. Laura: Then we get my favorite scene. Nadine is tasked by Harold with leaving the bomb in the closet at Ralph’s house — that’s where they’re going to have the committee meeting. She breaks into the house, leaves it in the closet. She keeps thinking, should I go in and take that out? Should I dismantle this bomb? But then I love this scene where she is sort of transported by — the dark man enters her. Like possesses her. Sarah: And he was cold. Which is scary because until then he’s been sort of warm and loving to her. She’s drawn to him. He’s attractive. But now suddenly he’s cold. He sort of possesses her, drives her Vespa as her, to the drive-in movie theater. Laura: You like this scene because you clearly don’t go to drive-in movie theaters, because now I’m going to freak out next time I go to our drive-in movie theater. Sarah: I’ve never been to a drive-in movie theater. Laura: What? It’s so fun. It’s the best. Sarah: Well, this scene is so Stephen King. It is so cinematic. It’s obviously an empty drive-in movie theater. And all of the speakers — all of the speakers in the parking spots — fall down onto the ground and start emitting a message. Randall Flagg’s voice. And there’s no power yet when this happens. So it’s just so cinematic. This is my favorite kind of horror. And I got chills. The speaker is the dark man being like, Nadine, Nadine. Talking to her. He communicates with Nadine so differently than anyone else. It’s very dramatic. Even before all this, when she was in college. He is communicating with her in a totally different way. I don’t know if that’s because she won’t hear him otherwise, or because she’s meant for such an important mission that he has to get through to her. But he’s also scaring her. Laura: Wild. Especially the singing at the end. A creepy song really is the cherry on the sundae for me. I thought when he starts singing “I’ll Be Seeing You” — the weirdest. And she is fighting it, but she really can’t, because he’s like half-occupied her body. And then her hair goes totally white. Sarah: Totally white. Wild. So when she goes back and tells Harold — he is so cruel to her. He’s like done with Nadine. D-O-N-E. Laura: Not quite yet. When he sees her white hair, he’s a little freaked out and gets a little hesitant. Like, I don’t know that we should be doing this. And she’s like, it’s too late. Emotions at war on Harold’s face. Anger, horror, shame. Little by little, they drained away. And then like some terrible corpse coming up from deep water, a frozen grin resurfaced on Harold’s face. Sarah: They are back and forth playing with who is hesitating. Maybe we shouldn’t do this. And then the other one is like, it’s too late. That’s something they both said several times. And you kind of want to be like, no, ding-dongs, it’s never too late to do the right thing. The Twins Motif and Twin Flames Laura: Another thing I want to mention — it keeps coming up in this section — from the beginning with Mrs. Wentworth, but then multiple times things are mentioned about twins. Not just her twins, but I circled a few different references to twins. Which made me think immediately — hashtag Taylor Swift — it made me think of twin flames. Sarah: Well, the drive-in is called Welcome to the Holiday Twin. Laura: That’s one of the things I circled. Twins in all kinds of traditions, mythology, even current traditions — twins and twin flames represent a conjoined connection, a soul connection, a mirror. And it’s different than a soulmate because it can also be a dark and a light. It can be like a mirror. And I feel like he’s playing with that sort of balancing — new way, old way, the choices we make, destiny. There’s definitely this balance beam that feels like it’s constantly happening within the story. Chapter 58: The Bomb, the Committee Meeting, and RIP Nick Sarah: Chapter 58, Stu reads Harold’s ledger and they’re like, oh, no. Laura: But they don’t know exactly. They don’t know he’s going to bomb the committee meeting. They go to the damn committe

  11. SLOW READ: The Stand (Chapters 52 - 55) from Slow Read: OUTLANDER, opens in a new tab

    Apr 20, 202656 min

    Welcome to SLOW READ , where we tackle the books you’ve always wanted to read at a pace you can handle. Hosted by Sarah Stewart Holland and Laura Tremaine We are currently reading The Stand by Stephen King (unabridged version) You can find our full Reading Schedule here Join the SLOW READ community on Substack for bonus episodes, book club meetings, and Side Quests with Sarah & Laura If you prefer to read instead of listen, below is a cleaned up transcript of the episode as well as links to all the books and Substacks we mentioned in this episode…and several fun bonus links and videos! Mentioned in this episode: * The Stand by Stephen King * Cujo by Stephen King * Kojak (CBS, 1973–1978, starring Telly Savalas) * The Message (Bible in contemporary language) * Erin Hicks Moon’s Substack * Homeward Bound: The Incredible Journey (the 90s movie with the two dogs and the cat) Welcome to Slow Read: The Stand. We are your hosts Sarah Stewart Holland and Laura Tremaine. This is episode [N] of Slow Read: The Stand. If you prefer to read instead of listen, below is a cleaned up transcript of the episode as well as links to all the books and Substacks we mentioned in this episode…and several fun bonus links and videos! Mentioned in this episode: * The Stand by Stephen King * Cujo by Stephen King * Kojak (CBS, 1973–1978, starring Telly Savalas) * The Message (Bible in contemporary language) * Erin Hicks Moon’s Substack * Homeward Bound: The Incredible Journey (the 90s movie with the two dogs and the cat) Chapter 52 - Mother Abagail’s Crisis Sarah: We are now deep into Stephen King’s The Stand . Laura: Deep. Sarah: Deep. And this week we’re talking about chapters 52 through 55 and all the ridiculous things it contains. Do you like what I did there with “ridiculous things”? Laura: Oh yes. God. Killing it. Laura: All right — we are now in the heat of August and the chessboard is being set. We spent all our time in this section in the Free Zone, where society is forming, spies are aligning and alighting on their missions. We are burying bodies, having elections, thinking about law enforcement. But first, we start in Chapter 52, where our Free Zone fearless leader is actually a not-so-fearless leader. We start with Mother Abagail, who seems to be having a bit of a spiritual crisis. What did you think of this section as a whole? Because I was reading it thinking — is this a horror book? Is this a literary book? What are we doing? Sarah: I got a little bored when I was writing up the summary and kind of getting ready for this episode. A lot of things happened that I thought were interesting as I was reviewing it. But while reading it, I kept putting it off. I think I was just a little — I’m ready for something to happen. And I’m also terrified one of these people I like is going to get killed. So I’m both ready for something to happen and dreading it. Laura: Well, what was interesting is that we are deep into this book. This is the final third, maybe even the final quarter. And this felt like a lot of world-building. We are world-building 800 pages in, which is interesting as a writer and a craft storyteller, but as a reader it definitely changes the pace. Also, because I’m reading every word of this book aloud, I stop and underline or make little notes when I get to interesting things I want to talk about. And this section, more than any section we have read thus far, I made the least amount of notes. Almost no notes or underlines until Chapter 55 — the last chapter we’re going to talk about today. And then I had several, all kind of coming from the same source, which is Judge Ferris. But in general, this hundred-page section — it was not a nothing burger because there are a lot of important things that sort of happen here, but nothing super notable or memorable to me. Sarah: Yeah. I would be interested in how much this got changed between the 70s version and the 90s version. It was too much logistics for me. Though I mean — this first section in Chapter 52 with Mother Abagail, where she’s really battling it out, I thought was incredible. I’m always struck by Stephen King’s knowledge of the Bible. I underlined: Acts was the last book in the Bible where doctrine was backed up by miracle. And I was like, wow, that sounds true. Did I double-check it? I didn’t. But it sounded true. Laura: So much religion. There’s always a lot of religion in this book. And it’s really humming in the background in this section, because what we get from this first moment is that she is struggling Sarah: — she feels like she’s battling pride, and she also learns that it was not God who saved her from the weasels. It was Randall Flagg who called the weasels off. I thought that was really scary. She kind of feels like God has gone silent, so she pieces out. And that changes the dynamics of so much within the Free Zone, because she’s not there as their guidance. Laura: Did this change the way you think about her? Sarah: No, because I felt like this was very true to who we knew she was — someone very centrally focused on her relationship with God, consistently hesitant, even afraid, of what she’s been called to do. The way she was battling with this, and seeing the way they kept leaning on her and leaning on her, which was building her pride and changing the way they were thinking about themselves — it rang really true to me. What about you? Laura: Well, it’s very Jesus-y to take to the wilderness and pray about it. I thought it did change things for me a little, because it can read as abandonment — of your post. Maybe not the initial day she leaves, but as the week to ten days goes on and she’s still gone. I mean, I guess you can also see it as a fulfillment of her role. She got everyone here. That was her main part in this history, and now she’s going to peace out. But as she’s wrangling with her pride and who really called off the weasels and going into that mind swirl — I didn’t totally believe her. Whereas in the past, every inner monologue we got from Mother Abagail, you believed her. You had a lot of trust in her discernment and her connection to God or the universe. In this section we’re meant to follow her mind swirl as she tries to get right with God, but because that has wavered, it made me waver in her. And not to jump ahead, but as time goes on and she’s still not there and they come to the conclusion of like, we’re running this society without her — I also felt sort of the same way. Sarah: Well, and I think that’s the point. They were becoming too dependent on her and it was affecting her. It is one thing to be locked in through a process of discernment when you’re by yourself. You know, it’s super easy to discern when my kids aren’t here. But once you have hundreds of thousands of people all looking at you like, what should we do? Should we bury the body? Should we form a law enforcement agency? Should we be in charge? Do you want to be our president and veto everything? I can see how that would disrupt the signal, if you will. The idea that this is about her and God — this is not about her being the leader of this community. So she has to go and get back to that. And the fallout is big within the community, but largely positive, I felt like. Sarah: I mean, from the moment this happens, you have so many people who want to go searching for her and save her, and they have to debate — should we go search for her? She left of her own accord, but she’s an old woman. And I think it was very interesting that in the face of all this debate, it became an opening for Harold to assert some leadership and build some goodwill with Stu and Ralph, and go look for her. Laura: Except that, for the democracy of it all, you’ve removed your main check and balance. If you take away the person who has the veto power — she’s not in charge of everything, but she had that — someone has abdicated the throne here. Sarah: No, that’s exactly it. You live in America in 2026. The temptation, when you have one person, to continue to consolidate power within that one person and make it easy on the rest of us who don’t have to go through the messy work of democracy — it’s oh so very tempting. The check is the people. The check is the other people on the committee — who are voting in concert right now, but that might not always be true. Sarah: What we’ve seen over the last several years, several decades in America, is it’s just so easy to organize around, to just be like, well, we’re really just dealing with the one person in charge. Laura: Our actual real-life America in 2026 moment in time is what has this top of mind for me — why it felt more prominent as a theme than maybe when I’ve read this in the past. I agree with what you’re saying theoretically, but I also feel like with Mother Abagail — she wasn’t trying to rule the whole thing, she was just a check, a balance, a veto power, because she does have a connection to the above. I mean, she wasn’t wanting it, but they wanted her to. And I don’t necessarily think that’s a bad thing. I hear what you’re saying about the power belonging with the people, but they haven’t established enough of a hierarchy or structure to check one another. Sarah: We’re getting to the town meeting. Laura: I know, but what I’m just trying to underline is that it does change the way I think about her character. It does, for me. Harold, Franny, and the Return of Kojak Sarah: They do decide to go search for her. There is a search party — Stu, Ralph, Harold. Harold goes on a real journey over the course of this section, and it starts here when they’re out in the middle of nowhere and he brings a gun and thinks about just killing Stu and Ralph right there. He’s a little bit disarmed by Stu’s kindness, but he’s still giving in to the dark impulses. He’s thinking constantly about his ledger — which could be some sort of psychic connection, because at the very moment he’s thinking about it on the search party, Franny’s breaking into his house to see if she can find confirmation that he, in fact, read her journal. She breaks into his basement and goes up into his living room, at which point Nadine Cross knocks on the door. I just want to say — I hate scenes like this. I hate every moment in a horror movie where you’re sneaking around in the dark and you just know somebody. I’d rather just a chase scene. I’d rather a murder scene. I hate the tension of them. Laura: I think Harold just plain chickened out on shooting Stu. He’s still a literal teenager. He’s even though he has now physically changed — he’s fit, lost his acne, looking different — in his mind he’s still this scared, nerdy, pimply kid who cannot shoot someone in the woods. I think he just plain chickened out, which — good. We’re all the better for it. Franny breaking into his house — again, not totally sure how consistent this is with her character and what we know about preggos. Sarah: I was going to say, pregnant people are not looking to bring on a lot of risk. Though you could argue that hormonally it might make you do something crazy. But there is a lot of this — leaving an imprint in the store, with her shoe in the dust, because he gets home and realizes the door is open and sees the imprint. The way he was kind of trying to stalk her shoes at several points in the story — I was like, okay, we get it. I just think all of this, the thumbprint, the shoe print, is fitting together a little too neatly for me. Laura: Yeah, this is the part of the story that is the most sort of bookish. We talked about this on the last episode Sarah: — he would never write something like this now. He’s a much better writer. Laura: The finding the smudge in her diary, and then her piecing it all together. This just seems very far-fetched. You know, this is a side note, but I am finding it very fascinating how people chose the houses that they chose. Harold’s house is far out, on the edge of town, dark, wood-paneled, shades drawn, door locked. For some reason I don’t totally understand, Franny and Stu have chosen some kind of an apartment. Tom Cullen’s house — to jump to the end of the section — they describe as really zany. They’re choosing their places of dwelling, and it’s just kind of interesting. Sarah: Oh, it would be so fun to go into town and be like, where do I want to live? I can live anywhere. Laura: Right! Why would you choose the random condo? Sarah: Okay, the last section of this chapter is big. It is the Return of Kojak. Now, you tell me things reappear — I just want to confirm, this is not the Kojak from Kojak the novel. Laura: Are you talking about Cujo ? Sarah: Oh, Cujo! I thought it was Kojak. Laura: No, Kojak is a dog name. I think that is a famous dog name. I think there was a 70s, 80s TV detective named Kojak. Sarah: I think that’s like a popular dog name at the time. Sarah: Well, Kojak is a crime drama TV show. Telly Savalas. It aired on CBS from 1973 to 1978 — so again, super relevant when the book came out, and in the 90s people were like, what? But now that Kojak has made his hero’s journey from being abandoned by Glenn Bateman up in New England, following him to Nebraska, getting attacked by wolves, hiding out and recovering under Mother Abagail’s porch, and making it all the way to Boulder — maybe I will name my next dog Kojak. Because damn, brother, what a journey. Laura: I know. If you’re a dog lover, this is kind of a heartbreaking part. Sarah: Well, it’s the 90s movie. What is it with the two dogs and the cat? ( Homeward Bound: The Incredible Journey !) I watched it with my kids. It actually holds up pretty well. I also skipped the part that we start here with Glenn Bateman, where he’s musing about the passage of the age of rationalism. At the end of all this rationalism is a mass grave. And he says now we’ve moved into dark magic. And this is my favorite part — when he’s talking about Randall Flagg, he says: Maybe he’s just the last magician of rational thought, gathering the tools of technology against us. And I wrote — sounds like Elon Musk, no? Laura: Yes, yes. Right? Little Jeff Bezos? Sarah: There’s also a bit of foreshadowing when we’re talking about Kojak — did you catch it? Laura: Yeah, he lives another sixteen years after Glenn Bateman. Sarah: Yep. Also — was this dog a puppy, or is this dog supernatural? That’s a long time for a dog to live. Chapter 53 - The Town Meeting Sarah: Chapter 53, we’re to the town meeting. This was one of my favorite parts in this entire section. Laura: It doesn’t surprise me. Sarah: Not even just the meeting — this moment. Stu gets up here to start the meeting and the people cannot stop clapping. And Larry is watching all this. And he says: We’re applauding ourselves, Larry thought. We’re applauding the fact that we’re here alive together. Maybe we’re saying hello to the group of selfie-in. That’s so good. I loved it so much. Laura: I thought that was really emotional. It reminded me of in Los Angeles the week of 9/11 — there was a thing at the Hollywood Bowl, which is the big outdoor amphitheater, and they played the national anthem, patriotic songs. This was the Friday after 9/11. And it was very much like what’s being described here, where people just stood and cheered and clapped and cried. I mean, so magnify that situation with what this would be — so much even more so. But if you’ve ever been to a church service where something like this is sort of happening, where there is this collective noise-making that’s really emotional and bonding at the same time. Sarah: Well, and they do all those things — they adopt the Constitution, the Declaration of Independence, Franny leads them in singing the national anthem. But then, because this is Stephen King — we get Larry being like, yeah, but America’s gone. America was gone. We can do all this all we want. But America was gone. I thought that was very intense. Laura: Isn’t it interesting what Larry’s doing in this section? First of all, we’re so invested in Larry in the first half of the book. We know so much of his backstory. We’re following him on the journey from New York to Boulder. Larry is a big part of The Stand . And now his relationship to the story and to the reader, I feel like has shifted a little. In the beginning where we’re getting to know Larry and he’s like a budding celebrity and he’s not a nice guy — we’re reading him kind of like a character. Well, now suddenly he seems as relatable as anyone else. He’s almost a stand-in for the reader in some ways. He’s having some skepticism. He’s observing the ad hoc committee. And we’re sort of seeing that observance for us — like every other section when you’re in it with Stu and Ralph and Glenn, you’re in it with them. And Larry is a little bit on the outside of the circle looking in. Sarah: I like his growth. I like that you hear his internal debate. Because he’s even right up until the official vote like, oh my God, should I really be on this committee? I can just say I don’t want to do it. But Harold doesn’t give him a chance, because Harold raises up and nominates them as a block — Stu, Fran, Nick, Glenn, Ralph, Larry, and Susan — to become permanent Free Zone committee members. This wound that he nurses, the same committee he was excluded from. And Stu sort of recognizes what a power move this is — to shut down any sort of debate and be the one whose great idea it is to put them all on the permanent committee. And it passes. Laura: Do you feel like this is how this would really go down? Sarah: No. People love to debate. They’re so excited to be voting again — you think they’re just going to be like, okay? I mean, maybe, because he does say they spent hours and hours on Mother Abagail’s sudden disappearance. So maybe they were so concerned with her that they’d just speed past this part. That makes a little sense to me. And then they get this great moment with Judge Ferris, where they discuss her leaving and the Bible verses she wrote on the back of her note. Here, I thought this would be helpful — Erin Hicks Moon, who I know you know as well, has really converted me to the Message, which is the Bible in contemporary language. [LINK] So I looked up these two verses in contemporary language. The first, Proverbs 11:1-3: Without good direction, people lose their way. God hates cheating in the marketplace. He loves it when business is above board. The stuck-up fall flat on their faces, but down-to-earth people stand firm. The integrity of the honest keeps them on track. The deviousness of crooks brings them to ruin. And then Proverbs 21:28-31: A lying witness is unconvincing. A person who speaks truth is respected. Unscrupulous people fake it a lot. Honest people are sure of their steps. Nothing clever, nothing conceived, nothing contrived can get the better of God. Do your best. Prepare for the worst. Then trust God to bring victory. Laura: That is some relevant language to what we’re facing here in the Free Zone. That’s much better than the old King James language he was using. I’ve got you, Mother Abagail. I’ve got what you’re laying down. I liked the chess-move piece of Harold just nominating the slate and having it go through — he gets to look like the hero even though he’s not even on the slate. My whole hesitation with this section, though, including that scene, is that Harold is a teenager. Sarah: Right. Like, you buy Judge Ferris leading them through the scripture discussion. You buy that they would applaud Stu. But Harold — listen, we know Larry followed Harold’s son, but he was probably not the only one. Especially since they left signs in Nebraska where everybody was being drawn to Mother Abagail first. So maybe there’s this idea of people knowing him. Yeah, he’s a teenager, but he has this reputation or perception of a little bit more than that. Laura: And maybe it’s because you and I both have teenage boys in our home and I’m just trying to imagine them leading a group of 800. Sarah: My oldest — he could lead people now. He’s

  12. SLOW READ: The Stand (Chapters 49 - 51) from Slow Read: OUTLANDER, opens in a new tab

    Apr 6, 202659 min

    Welcome to SLOW READ , where we tackle the books you’ve always wanted to read at a pace you can handle. Hosted by Sarah Stewart Holland and Laura Tremaine We are currently reading The Stand by Stephen King (unabridged version) You can find our full Reading Schedule here Join the SLOW READ community on Substack for bonus episodes, book club meetings, and Side Quests with Sarah & Laura _____ Mentioned in this episode: Careless People by Sarah Wynn-Williams Set This House on Fire by William Styron In His Steps by Charles Monroe Sheldon This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit slowread.substack.com/subscribe

  13. SLOW READ: The Stand (Chapters 46 - 48) from Slow Read: OUTLANDER, opens in a new tab

    Mar 30, 202659 min

    Welcome to SLOW READ , where we tackle the books you’ve always wanted to read at a pace you can handle. Hosted by Sarah Stewart Holland and Laura Tremaine We are currently reading The Stand by Stephen King (unabridged version) You can find our full Reading Schedule here Join our SLOW READ community on Substack for bonus episodes, book club meetings, and Side Quests with Sarah & Laura _____ This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit slowread.substack.com/subscribe

  14. SLOW READ: The Stand (Chapter 45 - Mother Abagail) from Slow Read: OUTLANDER, opens in a new tab

    Mar 16, 202649 min

    Welcome to SLOW READ , where we tackle the books you’ve always wanted to read at a pace you can handle. Hosted by Sarah Stewart Holland and Laura Tremaine We are currently reading The Stand by Stephen King (unabridged version) You can find our full Reading Schedule here Join the SLOW READ community on Substack for bonus episodes, book club meetings, and Side Quests with Sarah & Laura ___ If you prefer to read instead of listen, below is a cleaned up transcript of the episodes as well as links to all the books and Substacks we mentioned in this episode…and several fun bonus links and videos! Mentioned in this episode: The Shack by William P. Young Two Old Women: An Alaska Legend of Betrayal, Courage and Survival by Velma Wallis The Correspondent by Virginia Evans ___ Sarah: I might cry recording this chapter. Laura: Why? Sarah: Because I loved it so much. I cried reading it. I just loved it. Laura: Well, this is why we dedicated a whole episode to just this chapter. Sarah: That was very wise of us. And by us, I mean you. Seminal Moments and 500 Pages of Lead-up Sarah: We separated this chapter out because it is such a seminal moment in The Stand . Oh, my gosh. I love her. Do you? Laura: Yes. She is like a literary icon. Sarah: I am obsessed. I loved every word of this chapter—okay, that’s not true, there were a couple words I didn’t love—but she feels so real. I struggle to say “character” because I just want to say “woman.” Laura: This is the first time in the book where we finally get to know more about her. She’s kind of only showed up in dreams so far. Finally, we’re seeing that the pandemic isn’t the villain, really. Campion isn’t the villain. We’re starting to get what people mean when they say The Stand is a story about the battle of good and evil. Sarah: Let’s start where the chapter starts: Mother Abagail at her house in Nebraska, playing her guitar on the porch. We’re starting to find out her theology. On the first page, she says, “God brought down a harsh judgment on the human race.” What’s so striking is that she has such acceptance and calm about what has happened. Laura: And you found it peaceful as opposed to detached? Sarah: English doesn’t even have the right words for this, because “detachment” has a negative connotation. But it is an acceptance of what you can control and what you cannot. I thought that was just emanating from her. 108 Years of Perspective Laura: In this round of reading, I did notice a complete lack of grief. She realizes everybody is dead—her grandkids were checking on her, but she hadn’t seen them since February. Sarah: Listen, in my mid-40s, sometimes I don’t have energy for big emotions. When I’m 108? My grandmother is about to turn 90, and I grew up with a bevy of great-grandparents. I have spent time with 100-year-olds, and this rang completely accurate to me. When you get to the point where death would be a relief, it changes everything. Laura: I did think there was a lot of attention paid to her bodily functions. We really talk about her going to the bathroom, her prunes... Sarah: Because you’re so grounded in your body! Think about how visceral labor is, or when you have a cold. It occupies so much of your capacity. By the time you’re 108, are you kidding me? It takes so much of your time just to move your body and manage it. Laura: It makes her very human, whereas Randall Flagg is jumping around in time. We’re not out here talking about Randall Flagg having to go to the bathroom. It makes them unequal. The “Magical Negro” and the Nebraska Grange Laura: Did you have thoughts about her portrayal of being an old Black woman? There’s the “magical Negro” idea that comes up in any deep dive into King’s work. Sarah: It felt like she’s magical because of her faith and her age, and not her race. Her race was a part of her, but not the “magical component” of her identity to me. Her dad was a pioneer—the first farmer allowed into the Nebraska Grange , which I had to look up. Laura: I looked it up too! It was like a social union that worked to get legislation in favor of farmers. Sarah: Right. So she came from hardy, pioneering leadership roots. My only quibbles: one, the “sexy” talk. I’ve kicked it with centenarians, and I’m not sure that’s language they would have used. Secondly, she would not have been a Republican. Hell no. Laura: That is an interesting choice. I don’t know if that was a way to bridge some divide he was making. Sarah: No Black person—okay, not zero, but the Black populace of America was widely devoted to FDR . The idea that she would have thought he was a communist? Dude, you did not do your history research here. Farmers loved FDR too. Her party identification was completely unnecessary. The Weasels and the Eye Sarah: I have to mention the scene where she walks to the neighbor’s and the pack of weasels show up. I don’t like that part. Did you think it was literal? Laura: King does this in several stories—your biggest fears come to you. She was bitten by a weasel as a child, so they showed up in a pack. What I liked was her inner dialogue. She thinks, “I’m gonna have to give them this chicken,” but then she just tries the power of her word. She cries, “Get out!” and they draw back. Sarah: But in that moment where she’s in communication with a higher power, she’s also opened up to Randall Flagg. She sees him as this big red eye watching her. Reluctant Leaders and the “Best Year” Sarah: Then the guests arrive. I thought it would be Nick, but it’s Ralph, and a little girl, and Olivia and June. I said, “Who are these ladies?” I’m a little gun-shy because of old Julie Lawry. Laura: I love that we meet Ralph Brentner. He’s the only one who has decided cars are the way to be! I’ve been waiting for this. He’s driving a tow truck with a good CB radio. Laura: And we see Nick wrestling with why he is the leader. Everyone else can speak; he requires an interpreter. Sarah: But you want a reluctant leader! Reluctance is like giving George Washington. You don’t want someone who’s itching to be in charge. Both Mother Abagail and Nick are reluctant because they know the cost. She says, “We’re not all going to make it.” Laura: She says the Dark Man is the purest evil, but he ain’t Satan. He too answers to God. Sarah: I just love her honesty. She says her only answer to “Why?” is “Where were you when I made the world?” I’m crying again. I love that she’s not Randall Flagg; she doesn’t have a concrete understanding. She just has faith. Foreshadowing and affirmations Laura: I also hitched on the conversation about sex. She looks at the young girls and their birth control pills and says they’ll never know the thrill of not knowing if you created life. Sarah: I think she’s sending out flares about what life is like on the other side of this as you’re rebuilding without modern conveniences. My favorite line—and I can’t believe a 27-year-old dude wrote this—is: “A warm night like this... it made her remember her girlhood again. With all its strange fits and starts, its heat, its gorgeous vulnerability as it stood on the edge of the mystery. Oh, she had been a girl.” Laura: My favorite is her affirmation: “I’m Abagail Fremantle Trotz. I play well and I sing well. I do not know these things because anyone told me.” I love her so much. Sarah: Next week, we are discussing Chapters 46 through 48 . The second half is action-packed. Laura: We’re going to go talk about the “best years of our lives” in the side quest. We’ll see you on the other side. Sarah: See you on the other side. This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit slowread.substack.com/subscribe

  15. SLOW READ: The Stand (Chapters 43 - 44) from Slow Read: OUTLANDER, opens in a new tab

    Mar 9, 202649 min

    Welcome to SLOW READ , where we tackle the books you’ve always wanted to read at a pace you can handle. Hosted by Sarah Stewart Holland and Laura Tremaine We are currently reading The Stand by Stephen King (unabridged version) You can find our full Reading Schedule here Join the SLOW READ community on Substack for bonus episodes, book club meetings, and Side Quests with Sarah & Laura If you prefer to read instead of listen, below is a cleaned up transcript of the episodes as well as links to all the books and Substacks we mentioned in this episode…and several fun bonus links and videos! ___ Sarah: We are currently reading Stephen King’s The Stand . Today, we’re diving into Chapters 43 and 44 . Society has fully collapsed, new groups are forming, and it’s time to answer the age-old question: What is more dangerous—a tornado or a woman scorned? Laura: I really relished the tornado scene because it happened in Oklahoma—my home state! My tiny little hometown, Ardmore , actually gets a mention when King is rattling off empty towns. Though, to be fair, he says it burned to the ground. Sarah: Before we get to the weather, a quick reminder: our third book club meeting is next week, March 18th . We are at the halfway point! If you want the full experience—the Zooms, my Spotify playlist of every song mentioned in the book, and our rewatch of the 1994 film Outbreak . Chapter 43: Nick, Tom, and the Oklahoma Sky Sarah: We start with Nick Andros meeting Tom Cullen on the Oklahoma-Kansas border. We think we’re encountering a dead body, but it’s just a very, very drunk Tom passed out in the road. Laura: I wonder how King decides whose backstory you get. With Lucy Swan, he says her pandemic story is like everybody else’s—awful. But we meet Tom right when Nick does. King has said in On Writing that he’s often meeting the characters as we are. Sarah: There’s an urgency now. I underlined this: “Dreams were only dreams, but he did feel an inner urge to hurry... a subconscious command.” Everyone is feeling it. They’re dreaming of Mother Abagail in Nebraska or the Dark Man in the corn. Sarah: I’m struck by how quickly society regresses to a total fear of infection. You cannot have an accident. There’s no one to save you. It’s a vulnerability we don’t usually deal with. Laura: How did you feel about Tom Cullen? In 2026, the repeated use of the “R-word” is shocking and offensive. Nick uses it clinically, but when Julie Lawry says it, Nick slaps her across the face. So much slapping in the 70s! Sarah: Nick has a sixth sense about people; he understands he should look out for Tom. But then King puts them in the pitch black with corpses in a storm shelter! Laura: As an Oklahoman who has lived through tornadoes, they don’t just drop out of the sky like that. But I loved the line about the animal instinct of sensing a radical drop in air pressure. Sarah: They both feel the presence of the Dark Man in that shelter. I think he shows up where there is the most fear. It’s like the monsters in It or a Boggart in Harry Potter —he manifests as your dread. Laura: Then they meet Julie Lawry. She has a “hard, mirthless shine.” She asks Nick for sex almost immediately. I don’t know if it’s because I’m a 40-something mom, but I’m not just going to be on a CVS floor with a stranger! But I buy it more because she was the pursuer. She’s scary—I envision Sydney Sweeney in The White Lotus . Chapter 44: Larry, Nadine, and “The Before” Sarah: We start with Larry. He’s sun-poisoned and dehydrated. In the last section, Stu talked about walking as healing, but for Larry, walking is depleting. He’s having an identity crisis. He lost Rita, and his inner monologue is a constant refrain: “I ain’t no nice guy.” Sarah: He encounters Nadine Cross and Joe . I do not like Joe. I know he’s a child, but he’s creepy. King keeps calling him “Chinese-eyed” and talking about his skin—it hit me as a little weird. Laura: I was picturing him as Mowgli —skinny and in his underwear—but Mowgli is sweet. Joe is feral. He has a butcher knife as a comfort item. Sarah: Larry wakes up and sees their footprints in the dewy grass. King goes out of his way to say Larry isn’t a detective; anyone could see them! But Larry’s senses are heightened because there’s no TV or cell phones. He’s moving away from grief and toward survival. Sarah: I was worried Larry would be drawn to the dark side. When Mother Abagail shows up in his dream and he listens to her, I was so happy! Nadine, on the other hand, screams at Mother Abagail in the dream. Laura: I desperately need to know your thoughts on Nadine. She’s a 37-year-old virgin. I pictured her like a pretty black-haired princess, like Vanessa in The Little Mermaid . Sarah: I was picturing her way more hippie! What interested me was how they keep talking about “before.” It reminds me of when my child was diagnosed with Type 1 Diabetes. You have those hard breaks where you don’t even remember what life was like before. Laura: Larry doesn’t even tell them he was famous! He doesn’t even play “Can You Dig Your Man?” around the campfire. It’s very equalizing. Sarah: Mother Abagail tells them to come to Nebraska so they can get to Colorado. The Rockies are a natural barrier. But Larry gives in to Nadine and they go to Stovington first, where they see Franny and Stu’s message. Everyone is dead. We’re going to Nebraska, and Nadine faints. The Blue and Lonely Section of Hell Sarah: I have an addendum. I liked King’s use of the word pissant . I just read Kurt Vonnegut’s Cat’s Cradle , which defines a pissant as someone who thinks he’s so damn smart he can never keep his mouth shut. Laura: I like that definition. It’s a good word. Sarah: We have to end on this quote from Chapter 44. It’s part of Larry’s story: “No one can tell you what goes on in between the person you were and the person you become. No one can chart that blue and lonely section of hell. There are no maps of the change. You just come out the other side or you don’t.” Laura: It’s good. And it’s true. We’ll see you on the other side. This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit slowread.substack.com/subscribe

  16. SLOW READ: The Stand (Chapters 35 - 42) from Slow Read: OUTLANDER, opens in a new tab

    Feb 23, 20261 hr 5 min

    Welcome to SLOW READ , where we tackle the books you’ve always wanted to read at a pace you can handle. Hosted by Sarah Stewart Holland and Laura Tremaine We are currently reading The Stand by Stephen King (unabridged version) You can find our full Reading Schedule here Join the SLOW READ community on Substack for bonus episodes, book club meetings, and Side Quests with Sarah & Laura ___ If you prefer to read instead of listen, below is a cleaned up transcript of the episodes as well as links to all the books and Substacks we mentioned in this episode…and several fun bonus links and videos! Mentioned in this episode: Lord of the Rings by Tolkein Carrie by Stephen King Knives Out Wake Up Dead Man (movie) Blazing Eye Sees All: Love Has Won, False Prophets, and the Fever Dream of the American New Age by Leah Sottile The Green Mile by Stephen King Shawshank Redemption by Stephen King ___ Laura: This is Slow Read , where we tackle the books you’ve always wanted to read at a pace you can handle. We are already about a third into The Stand by Stephen King. And today we’re going to be talking about chapters 35 through 42, which will bring us to the end of book one. And things are starting to come together or fall apart. I’m not sure which one. Initial Impressions: The Lincoln Tunnel and Mother Abagail Laura: Okay, Sarah, chapters 35 through 42, the end of book one. In this section, we get the infamous Lincoln Tunnel scene. We meet Mother Abagail for the first time, sort of. And to me, it feels like the threads of this story that we’ve been reading for 400 pages are finally starting to come together. What do you think? Sarah: Well, I understand why that scene is infamous, because it was bananas. Bananas. Bananas. Oh, my Lord. I just was like, dude, there are other ways to exit the city. What are you doing? So that was very intense, even as a person who doesn’t get scared usually with text on a page. Very intense. Sarah: And I was ready for Mother Abagail to show up. I know enough to know about her a little bit. I knew she was like the Randall Flagg—the hero to his villain, sort of. So I was like, okay, I’ve spent some time with Randall. When is the light going to show up in the face of all this darkness? So I was really excited for her to show up. Sarah: And there is a little more grotesqueness than I expected. I don’t know why. Because I think when you hear about Stephen King and you hear “scary,” you think maybe just violence primarily. And so the gore and strong aversion I feel reading some of it... it hasn’t caught me in total surprise, but I guess it was a little unexpected. But it’s not taking me out. I’m fine. I’m not having nightmares. Laura: That’s interesting though, that when you think of Stephen King, you think the scariness is going to be violent. I think most people think of monsters. Sarah: Yeah, like the monster, the violent dad in The Shining . Oh right, I see what you’re saying. As opposed to like Pennywise the clown. But Pennywise is still—I mean, I don’t know if I’ve read it or seen the movies—I’m assuming he actually kills people. Laura: Yes. Okay, so there you go. Violence. I hear what you’re saying. I think I’m less afraid of the actual violent act as I am the anticipation of it happening. Whether that’s a monster or a psychologically damaged person or both. That fear factor is what’s super scary to me. Sarah: I will say this: I continue to be so impressed. I think one of our commenters, Michelle, talked about how good Stephen King is at articulating the emotions, particularly articulating fear and fear responses and terror and the way you shut down and shock. Man, he’s just so good at it. And it’s probably because he sees the universe of threat so much bigger and wider than I do. His galaxy of fear is so wide. Chapter 35: Larry Underwood and the Smell of New York Laura: Is the story itself what you expected? Sarah: Well, we’re going to get into it. Because the timeline was never what I expected. From the beginning, I’ve said, like, I just never thought it was going to be such a short timeline. This happens in, like, a couple of weeks. That’s the part that’s been the most unexpected to me. Laura: Okay, well, then let’s get right into it. So, all right. Chapter 35. It opens with Rita and Larry playing house in her apartment like nothing’s going on. Larry’s inner monologue is like: everything seems to be fine except for the smell. The city is starting to smell. Sarah: Yeah. And again, because of this timeline, so many things are coming to my attention that I had not thought of even living through a pandemic. You’re like walking into the rooms and they’re like decomposed corpses and you’re just like looking at bones or whatever. And you just don’t think about, like, well, they had to get to that point. And this is the summer in New York City. And if everybody dies, oh, it’s just so bad. I can’t fathom. Because part of me was like, why wouldn’t you just stay in New York City? You’d get the hell out because it would smell. Of course you would. Laura: I want to circle back to this because obviously this section that we’re talking about today is kind of when they all start to be on the move. And I guess I have questions about that because I don’t know that that’s what I would do. Now, all these side sort of side character vignettes that we’re getting, not everybody is on the move. Some people are just staying put in their houses. And I feel like that would be me. Sarah: Maybe you want to find other people, I guess, if you’re alone. I think that’s what he does a good job of articulating over the section, like the quiet. You don’t realize like, oh, I really do. Even if it’s as annoying as someone like Rita, you just want somebody. You’ll stick with Harold? Fine. It’s somebody. We’re social creatures. It’d be like, you know, so many people just immediately in solitary confinement. Laura: What is interesting about how Stephen King is playing that out is he’s not hitting us over the head with that logic necessarily. He’s sort of just letting it be a human reaction for why they’re all on the move. Sarah: Well, here since I just complimented him, here is my critique: this is what’s wearing me out. I really struggle with how he describes time. So the beginning of this chapter, Larry’s like, he remembers meeting her in the park. Well, yeah, I hope you remember it. It was like two days ago. He says that a lot as if they’ve been together for months. He writes about some of these relationships as if they’ve been hanging out for months. And I’m like, what? They just met. Critiquing the Women: Rita and Franny Laura: I have a critique here in this section of—well, it’s kind of a big picture critique, actually. But first, let me start by saying in this section where they’re hanging out in Rita’s apartment in this chapter, I think we’re getting the first hints that maybe Rita was abused or something. She’s very afraid of him. Not afraid of him in, like, a stranger way. Afraid of him in, like, a man-woman dynamic way where she really doesn’t want to disappoint him. She eats the eggs like an abused woman. Now, we know from Larry’s kind of inner monologue that he ain’t a nice guy. But it’s not like he’s hit her or anything that we can see. Sarah: Maybe this is generational. She’s older. Yeah, I think it’s—listen, I have just decided to, in my mind, ignore any attempts he has made to move this timeline to the nineties and just keep it in the seventies where it was originally written. To me, this is all taking place in the seventies. And to me, that makes a lot of sense for a woman of her age in the seventies. And like Franny’s attitudes make a lot of sense for a woman of her age in the seventies. Laura: Yeah, that was my point. The women characters, and so far there are very few of them that we’re getting to know on a deep level. Really, Rita and Franny. That’s it. Well, I’m just not loving the way he’s writing women. Some of them feel a little bit more caricature-y to me than the men do. And I don’t love that. There’s just some like fantasy of a woman, like the short description of Rita being like very sexually in charge. Like I was like, really, is this necessary? Sarah: At the end of the day, a book that is as plot-heavy as this book is, it’s just going to lose something character-wise. It’s just hard. It’s really, really hard to do, I think, to have this many moving parts. Laura: Well, I was just infuriated about Rita starting on their walk to nowhere in silk pants and strappy sandals. And I’m like, she’s not dumb. This woman’s supposed to be older, she wouldn’t do that unless she literally has no data that you cannot walk in those. Sarah: A New Yorker, like even a New Yorker with a driver, is not planning to walk to New Jersey in her Valentinos or whatever. She’s just not. No. It made me mad because it diminished Rita. I know no New York woman—not the same woman who’s gonna walk into a dark Lincoln Tunnel, I can tell you that much. The Lincoln Tunnel Scene Laura: Okay, tell me your impressions of the Lincoln Tunnel sitch. Again, first of all, there are other ways to exit the city! The Brooklyn Bridge, for example. I did look it up. It is 1.5 miles long. And to walk that in the pitch black, oh, hell no. I kept this line: “The solid darkness provided the perfect theater screen on which the mind could play out its fantasies. Or nightmares.” I was like, no, no, no, no, no. I wouldn’t do it. Sarah: Well, also just like get a flashlight. Word. You went to stores. Everything’s available to you. That was such a gaping hole in the story because it’s not the medieval times. Like you need more than your Bic lighter. Laura: I guess now that I’m trying to be fair about it, maybe Larry Underwood with his Bic lighter is the equivalent of Rita in her sandals. Like this is just unbelievable. It makes for a good story, but it’s not real. And also think about this: Of all those cars, none of them’s lights were still on? Sarah: It was really scary. And just—well, I loved that he also used the term “terror locked mind,” which I thought was like such an incredible phrase. Because, yeah, you just, your mind locked, you locked down. Laura: It’s one of the more infamous scenes, I feel like, in the book is this Lincoln Tunnel. They’re in that tunnel for a while. He almost kills her. He comes across the family, the Jewish family who had clearly been shot by the stationed military there who were meant to shoot people trying to escape. There’s so much. Have you ever had to run in the dark? Sarah: Not in adulthood. When I was a teenager, we had an abandoned hospital in my town. And it was freaky. There were like autopsy tables and medical records on the ground. It was terrifying. And we were in there one time and a police officer shouted, “Get back here!” All my friends took off running and I was like, nope, if it’s a killer, I’ll just die. I’m not running. And I literally just stopped. I was the only one who didn’t get in trouble because I did not run. True story. Sarah: I thought it was so interesting how much of this section we talked about traffic jams. Humanity’s last traffic jam was quite a dilly. That was such a funny way to put it, but I’d never thought about it. I’d be like, oh yeah, of course. Laura: The car thing, including in the tunnel, but just all the cars, it’s very cinematic. Like that is one of the things that you can really picture that everyone has a reference point for is this kind of traffic jam. You know, and it’s what everybody sort of fears in a way. Chapter 36: Harold, Franny, and the Realities of Pregnancy Sarah: Chapter 36. Harold and Franny. I thought this was so, so sweet where he talks about like, “I didn’t think I cared that they died... I got fooled. I miss them more and more every day.” Poor sweet Harold. Also, I think this is a fairly accurate portrayal of grief. Pregnant Franny has decided she’s got to go find the only other living being in their town, which is Harold. Laura: The visual of Harold in his swim trunks run mowing is almost as cinematic as the Lincoln Tunnel. Laura: Well, Harold’s 17 and he doesn’t have much emotional EQ. He does not. But we’re getting a lot of his backstory here. We’ve had a lot of Franny’s backstory, and with Harold, this is where we’re sort of learning that he felt like he was the black sheep in his family. We’re getting sort of a little more understanding of where his obnoxious personality might have stemmed from. Sarah: But he’s really smart, actually. He has all this nerdy science knowledge. He’s also the one that comes up with the plan that is not a bad plan to try to walk to Stovington where he knows there’s a CDC situation. He has sort of like a logistical brain. Laura: Look, I’m not going to get into, like, a total male-female binary, but I’ll tell you right now, when it says in this section that this was the first time that Franny has thought about who was going to deliver her baby, I call bullshit. What are you talking about? No pregnant woman would have not thought of that for multiple weeks. Sarah: Well, she’s 19. The timeline is so short. And she wasn’t even sure she was going to keep it like a week ago. I can almost buy that your timeline just gets closer and closer to your life. Oh, right, nine months I’m going to have a baby. Wonder what that’s going to be like. Laura: The second I peed on that stick, I was like, how’s this thing going to get out? I thought about it constantly. Fear and Human Nature Laura: Did you notice in this whole section how many rape references there were? Apparently it only takes two weeks for every man to either become a wild, untamed rapist or for every man to be worried about a wild, untamed rapist. I mean, it just, it was everyone’s first thought. Sarah: I think his thesis is that what prevents the breakdown of civilization is this is gonna be one of the first things. If that structure breaks down, then you have these instincts. I mean, I think we can safely assume here that Stephen King is pretty pessimistic on human nature. He believes that humans are capable of terrible, terrible things. Chapter 37: Glenn Bateman Sarah: Let’s get to Glenn Bateman. I just loved him. I thought he was a trip. I understand why Stu meets up with Glenn Bateman, then leaves him and is like, boy, I’m lonely, and goes with Harold and Franny. I’m like, you should stick with Glenn. He’s a good hang. Sarah: I don’t know if I was in Los Angeles and I needed to walk somewhere, where would I go? I would probably start walking towards Fort Campbell. I would walk towards a military installation. Laura: Well, wait. So we’re still in Chapter 37 where Stu has met up with Glenn Bateman, who is a sociology professor. He also serves from a story point of view as a guide, like in The Hero’s Journey. He is explaining to Stu a little bit about society. Sarah: Well, and he’s like throwing up some red flags. Like, I think the future of babies in utero is very uncertain. I will be stealing the toast: “May we have happy days, satisfied minds, and little or no low back pain.” It’s so funny. Laura: Bateman talks a lot about religion. He says: “It’s during the last three decades of any given century that your religious maniacs arise with facts and figures showing that Armageddon is finally at hand.” This is an interesting thing to note because this is as close to Armageddon as human history has experienced. In every, every Stephen King story I’ve ever read, there is an aspect of religion. He is constantly examining how extreme religion has affected society. It’s going to come up over and over again. You can already see with Randall Flagg that there’s clearly like devil imagery. Chapter 38: The Second Epidemic (No Great Loss) Sarah: Chapter 38. The second epidemic. Poor Sam Tauber. That was the saddest thing. I hadn’t even thought about a little kid being abandoned like that. Laura: The second epidemic is survivors who were immune to Captain Trips, but they end up dying anyway of natural causes. I hadn’t really thought about like, oh, yeah, in the immediate aftermath, like people will just have accidents. And the theme was like: “no great loss.” I thought that was so, so interesting, that sort of narrative and the repetition of that particular phrase. Laura: This is my favorite type of King writing. My favorite, favorite, favorite. Just like the pop, pop, pops all over. Just the little vignettes. He gives them a full name, a tiny bit of backstory where you know enough about their backstory to kind of be invested. Sarah: Does he sit around and keep a running list of all the absolute worst ways to die? I think he does. I think this is why I love it so much. It feels fun. It feels creative. And that’s one of the reasons I like horror as a genre. His mind is deep and wide, yo. Chapter 39: Lloyd and the Man with Red Eyes Sarah: Chapter 39. Lloyd is starving and miserable in his stupid jail cell and he’s eating a rat. He’s trying to eat the guy in the neighboring cell. Laura: I don’t care about cannibalism! That is annoying to me. I really didn’t. The unnerving part to me is him singing “Camp Town Races” over and over again. Sarah: I made a note of that, too, because I think that this is fascinating as a writer that Stephen King gives us these refrains. In this one, it’s just “do-da, do-da.” That is artistic writing. He’s really, really good at putting you in the person’s head and making you understand quickly that they are coming unhinged. Laura: Anyway, Randall Flagg shows up. Even someone as depraved as Lloyd, when Randall Flagg shows up, he says, “If you’re real, you’re the devil.” Sarah: He goes to prisons. It’s kind of a brilliant move, honestly. Villains know where to find their team. What did you think about the fact that there were astrological signs on his belt buckle? Laura: To me it felt like a wink to the occult. Lloyd felt terror but also “the pleasure of being chosen.” It made me think of the history of cult leaders. Cult leaders are the people who will say: “No, you’re not crazy. You’re chosen. I hear you.” Chapter 40: Nick Andrus and Mother Abagail Laura: Chapter 40. Get out of Arkansas, Nick! Which he does. Nick now has an infection in his leg, which he sort of cures himself. And then we meet Mother Abagail, iconic literary figure. Through Nick’s dreams. This is the first time that we’ve seen a dream that wasn’t about Randall Flagg or that wasn’t like super scary. Sarah: Randall shows up first and says, “fall on your knees and worship me.” That’s like the devil to Jesus in the desert. But then there’s Mother Abagail. I heard my grandfather’s voice in my head when I was reading the hymn she was singing. Laura: Did it strike you in any kind of way that she was Black? Sarah: Yeah, I mean, I guess it’s giving a little bit the “magical Negro” thesis from Spike Lee and others who talked about that. Laura: King is one of the primary criticism receivers of the magical Negro concept—the idea that you can’t just have a powerful Black character, they have to have magical powers and they are going to save mostly white people. This is something that famously comes up in The Green Mile . Chapter 41: Larry and Rita’s Ending Sarah: Chapter 41. Bye-bye, Rita. We hardly knew you. God, I loved Larry Underwood just singing the national anthem naked. That was so funny. But then we get the horror of Rita drowning in her own vomit. She made it through the Lincoln Tunnel and then you had her die of a drug overdose. Do you think she OD’d on purpose or do you think she just choked on her vomit? Laura: I feel like it’s ambiguous, honestly. I was very upset with him for not burying her. He ain’t a nice guy. But he’s immediately affected by the silence. He shouts back: “Come back. Whoever you are. I don’t care. Come back.” It adds to the creepiness factor that now you’re sleeping alone in the park, but you’re not really alone. Chapter 42: A Jar of Cookies Sarah: Last chapter in book one. I really like Stu.

  17. {PREVIEW} REPLAY: The Stand Book Club Meeting (Chapters 1 - 15) from Slow Read: OUTLANDER, opens in a new tab

    Feb 16, 202641 min

    One of the best parts of slow reading a book together is talking about it! Each month our SLOW READ community is gathering on zoom for a book club meeting to discuss The Stand. This episode is a preview of our first SLOW READ Book Club meeting from a few weeks ago where we’re discussing The Stand Chapters 1 - 15. No spoilers here! Each discussion will only be covering the chapters we’ve read so far in the book. Sarah and Laura lead the discussion with your fellow Slow Readers and it’s so fun to hear YOUR takes on this epic novel. SLOW READ Book Club meetings are for our paid community! Members get all our Side Quests, bonus material, and our monthly meetings. Each book club meeting is recorded and you can watch or listen to the REPLAY if you aren’t able to attend live. JOIN SLOW READ Our next SLOW READ Book Club meeting will be this Thursday, February 19 at 6pm PT / 9pm ET . We’ll be discussing The Stand through Chapter 34. See our full SLOW READ Book Club meeting schedule HERE Hope to see you there! This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit slowread.substack.com/subscribe

  18. SLOW READ: The Stand (Chapters 26 - 34) from Slow Read: OUTLANDER, opens in a new tab

    Feb 9, 20261 hr 6 min

    Welcome to SLOW READ , where we tackle the books you’ve always wanted to read at a pace you can handle. Hosted by Sarah Stewart Holland and Laura Tremaine We are currently reading The Stand by Stephen King (unabridged version) You can find our full Reading Schedule here Join the SLOW READ community on Substack for bonus episodes, book club meetings, and Side Quests with Sarah & Laura ____ If you prefer to read instead of listen, below is a cleaned up transcript of the episodes as well as links to all the books and Substacks we mentioned in this episode…and several fun bonus links and videos! Mentioned in this episode: The Road by Cormac McCarthy Station Eleven by Emily St. John Mandel Water World Watership Down by Richard Adams One Battle After Another Creation Lake by Rachel Kushner Friday Black by Nana Kwame Adjei-Brenyah Chain Gang All Stars by Nana Kwame Adjei-Brenyah In Cold Blood by Truman Capote Monsters A Fan’s Dilemma by Claire Dederer ____ Sarah: Hello, I am Sarah Stewart-Holland. Laura: And I’m Laura Tremaine. Welcome to Slow Read , where we tackle the books you’ve always wanted to read at a pace you can handle. We are currently reading The Stand by Stephen King, and today we’re going to talk about Chapters 26 through 34 . Sarah: Things are getting real gruesome as society fully collapses. We’re going to talk about that and the maggots and the swelling and the “bonbons” of bodies. And hopefully get to all that before we go “tharn.” Did I say that right? Laura: I think you did say that right. Can I just say, first of all, this section has probably one of the worst scenes in the whole book. It’s short, but it’s awful. And as I was reading this section, all I could think was: I’m really worried that I told all the readers that this book isn’t very scary. Sarah: Well, it’s not scary. It’s just gross. Laura: I really thought, damn, we should have given people a warning last week. I don’t want to say this section is inconsequential, but by the time we get to the end of the book, this won’t be what stands out. This is like a bridge section from all the setup. Chapter 26: The Media and the Military Sarah: Chapter 26 is quite a doozy. It really is like... let’s go around the country and show you the collapse of American society. First shout out to the great state of Kentucky, my home state. There is, in fact, no “University of Kentucky Louisville.” That’s just the University of Louisville. But I was excited either way. Laura: Can I just tell you that I am still reading every word aloud. I was reading this one aloud in bed and Jeff, my husband, came to bed and listened. And he was like, “This is scary.” Sarah: What I found so interesting is we start in Kentucky, we go to Boston, Los Angeles, Missouri, New York City, Des Moines. And there’s a real focus on colleges and media. It’s either protests at college campuses or media defying this military shutdown of information. Laura: He talks about how the Kent State protesters get mowed down. Stephen King being of the age and generation that he is, that is a callback to one of the biggest events of his young adulthood. He almost reenacts it in a way. I actually just got chills because I think that was very purposefully placed. Sarah: I just thought it was so interesting that he was almost hyper-focused on media. Like the Los Angeles Times distributing about 10,000 copies. But actually, as I say this, the flow of information makes sense because we’re on this compressed timeline. We’re not to the part where people are truly out of food. We’re not to the part where the electricity has shut down. The media would fall apart first. So now I’ve talked myself into that this is a brilliant move. Laura: We’re definitely not to people running out of food because almost everybody’s dying. They don’t even have a chance to run out of food. Sarah: I also really liked what Harold tells us later—that Mother Nature doesn’t work this way. The way that everyone’s dying and it’s happening so quickly means that something else is at play here. This isn’t just something that occurred in nature. Laura: Can I just share my naivete right here? I just don’t immediately default to “government conspiracy trying to kill us all.” I don’t. Sarah: Yeah, I don’t either. I absolutely think that people underestimate the power of the federal government to exert its will. But that power comes from size. And size means secret keeping is incredibly difficult. No one can keep a secret. Literally no one. Chapter 27: Larry and the “Rancid Bonbons” Sarah: Chapter 27, Larry Underwood in New York City. Everybody’s dead in New York City, which means there’s just a lot of bodies. This whole section was really... I mean, he’s walking around the city encountering rotten corpses. It’s really, really gross. Laura: Well, and it’s very cinematic. Setting that scene in New York City makes it so we can all picture what the streets would be like completely empty and with dead bodies everywhere. Sarah: This was the “rancid bonbon” chapter with Larry where I was like, I didn’t need that. I could have gone my whole life without hearing a dead body described as a rancid bonbon. Laura: What did you think about when Larry and Rita go to a steakhouse and cook a dinner? Sarah: I mean, we’re saying there’s plenty of food, but is there plenty of food people know how to prepare? I don’t know what else you do. In those initial shocks, it’s so surreal. You do kind of cling to whatever normal, pleasurable experience you can find. Laura: What did you think about Rita as a character? Sarah: I was fascinated. I couldn’t quite... was this Rita’s Yankee Stadium moment? Did she go to Cartier and just go to town? Laura: I picture Rita as a Real Housewife of New York City. Like she’s done a lot to her face. She’s dripping in diamonds. And like the opposite of Stu, she has no skills to survive. Sarah: I’m intrigued by their partnership and where they’re going to go. Franny and Harold Laura: Let me tell you what partnership I’m much less invested in. And that is Franny and Harold. Harold was weirding me all the way out. Sarah: I’m surprised you’re mentioning them as a partnership. Did you just get that vibe right away? Laura: I just mean like they’re the only ones left there. And Harold was weirding me out. I got some red flags. Sarah: Good instincts. Imagine, because we all have these people at every stage of our life where you’re like, If there’s only two of us left on this planet... For Franny, it’s her friend’s little brother. The worst. If it was these assholes who I’m stuck in Paducah with post-pandemic, I’m going to be mad. I’m just telling you, the survivors are skewing... not great. Not a great cross-section of humanity. Sarah: But do you really think that the survivors would be like the ultimate hero pinnacle of society people? Laura: It does feel like there should be like one or two more “normals.” Sarah: Stu is normal. Franny’s normal. That’s all I’ve got, Laura. Laura: I don’t think Larry is un-normal in the same way. He’s just so selfish. It feels like his weaknesses are going to be very easily exploitable, which is my concern as we get further into this chapter, because there seems to be one person in particular ready and willing to manipulate and exploit. Chapter 28/29: Stu Goes “Tharn” Sarah: Back to our normies. Stu is back in Stovington, Vermont. He’s still at the disease control center. Everybody’s dying. And he’s worried like, they’re either going to kill me or I’m going to get trapped in here and starve to death , which is a truly terrible way to die. Laura: This is where we get “going tharn.” He talks a lot about Watership Down and the rabbits and going tharn. I loved the sentence: “Going tharn, a good word for a bad state of mind.” It’s sort of frozen in the headlines. And he doesn’t freeze. John Phipps: Don’t Panic. Don’t Go Tharn, Either. Sarah: But then, oh my God, he gets stuck in this damn hospital. I felt like he ran around that hospital for 25 pages. I was like, Just get out of here. And then as he’s finally in the stairwell, someone grabs his ankle. Laura: This is an imagery tie-in to It . Even if you haven’t read it, you know the clown coming out of the sewer. My dog has an irrational fear of storm drains. She will pull your ass all the way across the other side of the street not to walk in front of a storm drain. So this is just cellular. Sarah: And he has to kill Dr. Elder to get him out of his way. Here’s what’s interesting to me: this idea that people’s dying pursuit would be violence. That in these final moments of a human life, someone would try to take some people out with them. That is not my experience of humanity. Laura: But I think Dr. Elder, for example, that wasn’t his primitive source coming out. He was under orders to kill Stu. But he’s dying. He’s literally delirious. Sarah: I think the closest equivalent is like a natural disaster. And people’s instinct in a natural disaster is to help people. I’ve seen it. Laura: Okay, but what if it’s not about violence? What if it’s about a denial of what’s actually happening? It’s a clinging to the status quo. If I can follow my role as a military member, then that will protect me in a way. I definitely buy that. Sarah: So Stu gets away. He gets out. He doesn’t go tharn. Chapter 30: Arnett Laura: We go back to Arnett, Texas. This is a very short chapter. But because there’s nothing there, it’s dead. The town is silent and dead. Chapter 31: Randall Flagg and the Network Sarah: Okay, buckle up. Now we’re to Chapter 31 with the dark man, the walking man, the faceless man, Randall Flagg. We start this chapter with a minor character named Christopher Bradenton. Laura: Bradenton appeared in Chapter 23. He was a conductor on one of the underground railway systems by which fugitives moved. Randall Flagg exploits this network. Sarah: This was giving One Battle After Another the new film. Laura: The premise is that there is this network out there that continues to exist where people are in this secret communication with each other. I thought that was really interesting to place Randall Flagg within that. It’s not ideologically driven. It’s just exploiting the secretness of these networks. Sarah: Bradenton is delirious. So Randall Flagg—or Richard Fry—shows up. He’s sitting on his chest trying to get the keys to a car. And I’m like, dude, I thought the last chapter we established you could fly. Why do you need a car? And why do you give a shit if you have the papers? Everybody’s dead. Laura: We are going to play with throughout the story of: Is Randall Flagg man or monster? Is Randall Flagg man or devil? When he is acting as a man, I don’t know that Randall Flagg totally knows. He’s going to do some things like need the car that are very human. And then he’s going to do other things where you’re like, That’s not human. Chapter 32: Lloyd in Prison Laura: Here’s what we do know. Poor Lloyd is about to starve to death in prison. Oh, poor Lloyd and his hamburger fingers. Sarah: I was like, did you have a plan? You thought, I’m going to hamburger my fingers to get this bedpost. And then he got the bedpost and he had no plan at all. Laura: No, he just uses it to bang on the bars. Well, he’s smart enough to sock away a dead rat to eat later. He did save some food. Sarah: I used to think the worst way to die would be to be crushed by a crowd. But this might be a close second. I’ve watched a single documentary about a crowd crush experience at a sporting event, and it haunts me. But being stuck in a prison with rotting bodies and no food... pretty close second. Chapter 33: Nick and the Bully Laura: Then we go back to Arkansas with Nick. Back to my concerns about would a dying bully stumble out of the woods, delirious and sick, and be like, You know what I’m going to do with my last dying 10% of energy? I’m going to beat the shit out of Nick Andros. I don’t know, man. Sarah: It felt very bookie. Like, of course the villain is going to stumble back. It was giving zombie. Laura: I also quibble with the idea that Nick Andros, who cannot hear, doesn’t feel when someone enters a room behind him. Every person with hearing problems that I’ve ever known, their senses are very differently abled. So the fact that Nick doesn’t hear him bust in... unrealistic. Sarah: I thought you were going to say you quibble with the fact that Nick Andros is sitting around reading Jane Eyre . Laura: My answer to the side quest of what would you do when everyone’s dead is not sit around and read the classics. Because guys, it’s going to get to a point where shit’s going to fall apart. You’re going to have nothing but books left. Save it for then, friends. Be watching your DVDs before the electricity plants go down. Chapter 34: Trash Can Man Laura: Final chapter, Trash Can Man. Donald Merwin Elbert. First of all, with a name like that, why wouldn’t you be burning shit down? Sarah: Baby Donald had a rough start. This is a sad story. His father kills his siblings. His mother escapes. The father is killed by the sheriff... who his mother then marries. I literally wrote “Oh my God” beside that part. Laura: And the poor sheriff, I had a lot of sympathy for him. He was like, This boy is not right. We need to get him some help. Sarah: He burned a church. He burned some lady’s pension check. And he gets electroshock therapy treatment. I really liked the way he articulated how tenuously he was gripping onto normality. He’s like, I had it. I had a grasp on it and I just couldn’t quite hold it. Laura: It’s obviously setting us up to see what’s going to happen with Trash Can Man next. He is also enacting our theme of the side quest: What would you do if you were alone and could do anything? He has been dying his whole life to go blow up those big gas silos. And so he’s like, I’m going to go do it. Here’s my chance. Chance of a lifetime. Sarah: I thought this was so powerful. He sees a bug stuck in gasoline and he says: “It was a world that deserved to burn.” And then a little bit later, he said: “There was a whole country ripe for burning under the summer sun.” The TV Station Laura: We didn’t talk about the scene that I find to be one of the scariest in the whole entire book. Sarah: The one in the local TV station where the men have lined up the other men and are shooting them on camera? Laura: Yes. It was so disturbing. The scene itself is awful. And then we get to see it through Franny’s eyes when she turns on the TV. There were so many things happening—race stuff, history stuff, tribal stuff. It was purposely being televised. Sarah: I think there’s something about the televised aspect and the complete detachment from any law and order. It was very much giving “inmates running the asylum.” It felt like a horror short story. It felt like Friday Black or Chain Gang All-Stars . I was really disturbed by that scene. Why Read Horror? Laura: I think now might be a good time for a little pep talk about why we read horror. Sarah: I need a pep talk. Laura: We read horror because it lets your mind and imagination play out some things that sort of already always linger back there. Some part of us, we’re all scared of the monster under our bed. And horror gives us a playground for that. Sarah: I think true crime is scarier than horror. In Cold Blood really shook me. Laura: I think true crime is playing around with the presence of violence, whereas I feel like horror is playing around with the presence of death. And to me, that’s different. Facing the reality that we will all turn to ashes and dust can be freeing in a way. Sarah: Well, and to just pep talk anyone on The Stand in particular... I do want to say without any spoilers that the book is about to get a lot more relational. No more rancid bonbons. Laura: Please tell me there’s no more rancid bonbons. Sarah: I’m not going to promise that to you! But we’re about to move to: Okay, everyone’s dead. Now what happens? And what happens is going to be pretty relational. Next Week: We are reading Chapters 35 through 42 . It is 96 pages. We can do it! Up Next: The Side Quest Head over to the paid subscriber section where we are discussing what we would do if the city was suddenly empty . See you on the other side. This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit slowread.substack.com/subscribe

  19. OUTBREAK (1995) and The Stand from Slow Read: OUTLANDER, opens in a new tab

    Feb 2, 202627 min

    Movies & Shows Mentioned in This Episode * The Net (1995) - Sandra Bullock vs. the Internet. * Tin Cup (1996) - Rene Russo and Kevin Costner rom-com. * Jerry Maguire (1996) - Cuba Gooding Jr.’s breakout role. * Buffy the Vampire Slayer (1992) - The movie with Donald Sutherland as the Watcher. * American Beauty (1999) - Kevin Spacey. * The Usual Suspects (1995) - Kevin Spacey. * House of Cards (2013–2018) - Kevin Spacey (TV Series). * Ocean’s Eleven (2001) - George Clooney. * Up in the Air (2009) - George Clooney firing people. * The NeverEnding Story (1984) - Directed by Wolfgang Petersen. * Air Force One (1997) - Directed by Wolfgang Petersen. * The Perfect Storm (2000) - Directed by Wolfgang Petersen. * Troy (2004) - Directed by Wolfgang Petersen. * In the Line of Fire (1993) - Directed by Wolfgang Petersen. * Jurassic Park (1993) - Referenced for the “hot scientist” vibe. * Contagion (2011) - The more realistic pandemic movie (up next!). * Station Eleven (2021) - The TV series adaptation (and book). Sarah: Hello, this is Sarah Stewart-Holland. Laura: I’m Laura Tremaine. Welcome to Slow Read , where we tackle the books you’ve always wanted to read at a pace you can handle. Sarah: Today is a little bonus episode. When we started, the movie Outbreak came up because I was sort of obsessed with it at the time. And we said we’re going to rewatch Outbreak and talk about it. So that’s what we’re going to do today. Laura: I mean, I have lots to say. I would like you to know that my first note is: Kevin Spacey. Ew. That’s the first thing I wrote. Sarah: My first note is: That type of monkey is not actually from Africa. Laura: Well, listen, we’re playing real fast and loose because my second thing was the witch doctor. We start in Africa several years ago and we’re rolling with some real deep stereotypes here. Sarah: Yeah, I just don’t feel like this kind of movie would get made today. Not the overall plot of a pandemic, but the African stuff was way “other.” There were overly wise Africans, overly uncivilized Africans. It was just a total racial component that was not a flattering portrayal. Even the fact that we’re just saying “Africa.” They’re in Zaire, but it just was not great. Laura: It was the 90s. It was a different time. The Insane 90s Cast Sarah: Should we back up and explain that Outbreak , first of all, has an insane cast? This was, I mean, I was obsessed with this movie. Laura: I loved it at the time. I also liked The Net . Remember that one with Sandra Bullock where the Internet’s coming for her? I think there was something about movies that were speaking to this interplay of politics and culture and government and things that could happen through the lens of that. Sarah: But yeah, it has a superstar cast. Dustin Hoffman is the lead. Rene Russo. I loved Rene Russo back in the day. Laura: She’s stunningly gorgeous. You didn’t watch Tin Cup with her and Kevin Costner? You must go back and watch it. They are so good together. She had a real moment in the 90s. Sarah: But, you know, what happens with every era... you go back in the 80s and the men are still existing and making movies like Harrison Ford. But could you name a single woman who was the lead in any of the Indiana Jones movies? No, because none of them have careers anymore. Especially if they were beautiful. If you are beautiful, it’s really hard for people to stay on board with you when that part of you goes. Laura: So you have Rene Russo, Morgan Freeman, Donald Sutherland, a little baby Patrick Dempsey. Sarah: He’s so young. And listen, Cuba Gooding Jr. This was the year before Jerry Maguire . Laura: That tracks for me. He’s good in this. Jerry Maguire was his breakout, but he’s a pretty major part of Outbreak . Sarah: Why is Donald Sutherland always the bad guy? Why don’t they ever let this poor man be the good guy? Laura: It’s his face. His face is scary. And also he has a gravelly voice. Now, he is the good guy in another one of my 1990s favorites that I recently showed to my children: Buffy the Vampire Slayer , the movie with Kristy Swanson. Sarah: But he is excellent. Dustin Hoffman is excellent. But do you buy Dustin Hoffman in this particular role? I do not buy that you would ever be in the military, Dustin Hoffman. Laura: Well, I did see that they had originally tried to cast Harrison Ford and a bunch of more traditional leading men. But the director ended up really liking casting Dustin Hoffman because he thought it gave it complexity. It sort of had a Jurassic Park feel of like, they were supposed to be nerdy scientists who just happened to be hot. Sarah: Except for then again, Kevin Spacey shows up. My husband Jeff and I watched it together, and we both came to the conclusion of: Problematic, awful, terrible, no justification. Kevin Spacey is a brilliant actor, but he kind of overacts a little bit in this. He chews up some of that dialogue. Like, why is he such a smartass? Laura: It’s such a bummer that someone so brilliant is a bad person. Think of all of the problematic, brilliant artists. This comes up all the time. Can you support the art and not the artist? Sarah: See, this is why when they’re not bad people and they’re also talented, my devotion knows no end. Like George Clooney. Or Julia Roberts. By all accounts, Tom Hanks is a nice guy. I just think there is a delineation between being very, very good and genius level. I know you’re not going to sit here and tell me that Kevin Spacey is a genius and George Clooney isn’t. Laura: No, George Clooney is looks and marketability. That’s not genius. Sarah: Oh, I disagree. We are getting far afield. Back to the virus with 100% mortality, Laura. The Virus & The Director Laura: 100% mortality. I think this is really important to mention because the director of Outbreak is Wolfgang Petersen. Before we started it, my husband asked if this was Steven Spielberg. I looked it up—Wolfgang Petersen directed The NeverEnding Story , Air Force One , The Perfect Storm , Troy , In the Line of Fire . These are good 90s mid-range action movies. Sarah: I liked it when it was real-world action. It didn’t have to be intergalactic action in order to get made. Laura: Okay, we have 100% mortality. This virus would never spread, even through a monkey—especially a monkey that’s not actually from Africa. It really bothered my animal-loving family. They literally could do nothing but focus on the fact that these monkeys are Central American monkeys. Sarah: Even in the 90s, that was a pretty gross error. Now that we’re all amateur virologists because of COVID, we know that. Although there is a moment where Morgan Freeman says, “If the mortality is that high, anybody will die before they spread it.” So there was an acknowledgement of that. But there was also the part where the monkey was carrying both an airborne version and not an airborne version. Laura: Speaking of weird choices, I thought it was very weird to leave the President of the United States out of it entirely. We don’t even see his face. We only see a cabinet meeting. Why no actual President? Sarah: Maybe they spent all their money on the generals. I felt like you could have made Donald Sutherland the President and have the exact same role. The Scary Scenes vs. Reality Laura: The scenes I definitely remember from being obsessed with it in the 90s... I remember the aquarium scene where the guy in the pet shop gets it and falls over onto the bank of aquariums. Sarah: Was that upsetting for your husband? Laura: No, because we read on IMDb ahead of time that they used fake plastic fish. And then I definitely remember the scene where he looks in the camera and says: “They all got it in a movie theater.” I remember being in the theater and everybody being like, Oh my God. Sarah: Well, to tie it closer to The Stand , the scene where it’s being spread... in both The Stand and in our lived experience in 2020, that scene probably didn’t give me the shivers in the 90s. I would have been like, Oh, this is anthropologically interesting. But now you’re like, Oh no, they’re all coughing on each other. Don’t do it. Laura: Before I pressed play, I had mixed it up slightly with the movie Contagion . In the early scenes of Contagion , them all being in bars and hanging out and spreading it without knowing... that is scarier to me than the portrayal of them all getting it in Outbreak . Sarah: I did like the scene where the little boy is about to take his cookie and the mom says no. Listen to your mothers about their germs! Laura: Did you think about how funny it is that they have these giant windshield headpieces where you can see their entire faces the whole time? Clearly someone was like, “We’re going to have to design movie-worthy protective gear so we can see the famous faces we paid for.” Sarah: I thought the scene where the mom has to leave her family was really sad. When she says, “You can’t hug me,” I’m like, It’s too late. They already have it. Laura: I thought it was kind of a commentary on scientists being dum-dums. One scientist chops his fingers off in the centrifuge. Dustin Hoffman doesn’t notice there’s a rip in his suit. Kevin Spacey snags his suit. Morgan Freeman has the cure and keeps it to himself. Sarah: The anti-Fauci crowd would have lots to work with in Outbreak . Laura: Also, when Donald Sutherland says, “Be compassionate, but be compassionate globally,” I was like, oof. That’s a real trolley problem. Can you kill just the child to save the world? The Ending & What’s Next Laura: Let’s talk about the ending because it’s truly crazy. It’s such an anticlimactic ending. They save the town, he comes to Rene Russo’s bedside, they make a little joke, and then the movie’s over. Sarah: She gets better. They’ve made her look healthier. But then it’s just like... okay. It’s just everything’s okay. Laura: Also, why do all the bombs have parachutes? I don’t think bombs have parachutes in real life. Sarah: Let me tell you how much I do not know about bombs. A universe. But mainly it just made me think... I really want to watch Contagion again. Laura: Contagion came out in 2011. No wonder that’s what most of us pictured in 2020. I think we should watch that one next. Sarah: I’m into it. All right. We’re watching Contagion next. Except honestly, I do have to say after I watched Outbreak , I genuinely thought it was decent from a plot storytelling perspective. But there’s nothing interesting about watching a virus spread anymore. It’s just... all of it feels different now. Laura: I think Station Eleven , the TV show, is better than the book. You think the scary part is the virus spreading, but it really is all that happens after that that’s so interesting. Sarah: True of The Stand , true of Contagion , certainly true of Station Eleven . That’s where the interesting stuff starts to happen. And Outbreak is so focused on preventing that, that you miss some of the most interesting interpersonal, societal stuff. Laura: In Outbreak , I did not feel a creative vibe. I felt like, This is a bummer. Because now we know. Sarah: So we saved you guys. Don’t rewatch it. Just listen to this conversation. Or if you rewatched it, we would like to hear if you think our takes are hot or not. Laura: Thanks for joining us for another bonus episode of Slow Read . We will be back in your ears next week with Chapters 26 through 34. This is a public episode. 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  20. SLOW READ: The Stand (Chapters 16 - 25) from Slow Read: OUTLANDER, opens in a new tab

    Jan 26, 20261 hr 12 min

    Welcome to SLOW READ , where we tackle the books you’ve always wanted to read at a pace you can handle. Hosted by Sarah Stewart Holland and Laura Tremaine We are currently reading The Stand by Stephen King (unabridged version) You can find our full Reading Schedule here Join the SLOW READ community on Substack for bonus episodes, book club meetings, and Side Quests with Sarah & Laura ____ Mentioned in this episode: The Wire The Sopranos American Revolution by Ken Burns The City We Became by MK Jamison Stephen King books mentioned: Mr Mercedes Billy Summers If you prefer to read instead of listen, below is a cleaned up transcript of the episodes as well as links to all the books and Substacks we mentioned in this episode…and several fun bonus links and videos! ____ Laura: Today we’re talking about Chapters 16 through 25, where the Captain Tripp’s super flu pandemic rages on. Two gangsters have a shootout in a gas station in Arizona, and our deaf-mute character, Nick Andros, basically becomes the sheriff in Arkansas. Sarah: The sheriff of nobody. Laura: And Larry Underwood takes care of his sick mom in New York City. And then we finally get a little more backstory to the origins and architects of this virus and of Project Blue. Sarah: Shit’s getting dark. I don’t know how to say it any other way. Laura: Do you think so? Because I felt like this section, with the exception of one chapter which is one of my favorites, felt a little slow to me. Sarah: What are you talking about? We got so many villains! We got some real murderous, scary people showing up. It feels like things are starting to fall apart. This is going to be fertile ground for dark people, dark energy, dark acts. I was kind of ready for people to start dying in bigger numbers... and now that it’s started, I’m like: Oh, no . Chapter 16: Poke, Lloyd, and the Crime Spree Laura: Chapter 16. Sarah: This section comes in hot. Laura: We meet Poke and Lloyd. These are two criminals. Sarah: I need to say this first off: In my head, I pronounced it “Poke” like a poke bowl the whole time. Laura: I know. It’s because I’m from Oklahoma, so I was like, yeah. To poke around, to be a poke... that’s definitely a rural nickname. Sarah: No, a poke is like a cowboy. Like “Go Pokes.” See, look at these regional differences. Meanwhile, I’m pronouncing it like I live in California and eat poke bowls all the time. Anyway, they kill a bunch of people really fast. They killed six people in the last six days. Laura: He calls it “pokerizing,” meaning he’s killing them, which is pretty intense. Not as bad as “gobble,” but it’s up there. Sarah: These dudes have gotten out of prison. I understand that they need money, but the immediate killing left and right... I’m like, how did you think this was going to go? The part with Gorgeous George... that is a real common situation in crime fiction. You get a lower level guy who’s protecting the kitty or whatever. But then the prolific killing? I’m like, you people want to go to jail. Laura: I don’t know how realistic it is, but it felt like glimmers into kind of what Stephen King has always wanted to write about. He’s known for his horror, but as you can tell, there has been very little supernatural elements so far. What has been scary about this story is the violence. In the last decade plus, he has taken a real turn to crime fiction. Sarah: I don’t mind the violence— The Sopranos is one of my favorite shows of all time—but I want the portraits of the criminals to be complex. And this felt a little one-note. Laura: To me, it felt like every other storyline has had a touch of the flu in it. And other than maybe the arresting cop having the sniffles, this has nothing to do with anything else we have read thus far. So you’re kind of asking yourself: What does this have to do with anything? Sarah: It’s kind of a weird wash to listen to this and be like, well, yeah, that’s a violent, terrible way to die... but you might have just drowned in your own snot like everybody else is right now. Laura: You’re kind of zooming out. Like, well, they don’t know it, but we know it. Chapter 17: Starkey, Project Blue, and the “Miserable Worm” Laura: Chapter 17. We are back to Starkey, the head of Project Blue. And we finally sort of get a little bit of the backstory to not just the origins of Project Blue, but maybe the decades-long corruption that might be happening here. Sarah: That there are these figures so deep underneath the public’s knowledge that are actually controlling everything. Starkey has known the man that’s now the president since college. Sarah: Here’s my first question: I don’t understand the centrifuge. I thought a centrifuge is just a really big fan thing. Are they running out of air? Laura: Starkey is in an admin building watching the monitors. But then he goes into the cafeteria and cleans the guy’s face off. He had to kind of bust through the gates to get back in there and everybody’s dead. Laura: I’m skipping ahead because right now all we get is that he calls the command “Troy,” which basically means: Don’t let the story get out . That also doesn’t make a lot of sense to me. At this point, I’m like: You guys know it’s out and everybody’s going to die. What exactly do you think you’re containing here? Sarah: Do you think they’re just trying to keep public panic at bay? They just need everybody to die without panic on the airwaves? Here is also a funny thing that I did reading this chapter. When he says: “And one of their number, a man who could now dial directly to the miserable worm who had been masquerading as a chief executive...” I read “Worm” as “Woman”. I thought the president was a woman! I thought that was going to be such an interesting choice. But no, the president is a man. Laura: Starkey is thinking back on this quote: “If you find your mother raped or your father beaten and robbed before you call the police... you cover their nakedness because you love them.” He’s justifying to himself telling them to murder the journalists. Because what we’re learning about Starkey is that he would cover himself and the government and the country above all else. Sarah: That is how people justify things like murdering journalists and quarantining whole towns. Because it’s not about the people anymore. It’s about the institution. Laura: But when you see it framed as love... that is such dark nationalist territory to me. That in 2025, when you’re just like “country above all else”... it gives me a pit in my stomach. Because the institution is going to be left when everyone’s dead. What are you worried about? People are not stupid. They are starting to figure it out. Chapter 18: Nick Andros, The Sheriff of Shoyo Laura: Chapter 18. We’re with poor Nick in Arkansas. And everybody’s dead but him. Sarah: Including the soldiers trying to block the road. Laura: Nick basically becomes the sheriff because Sheriff Baker is so sick. And Nick decides to write down and fill in some of the holes of his backstory. We learn that he becomes an orphan early and is sent to a foster care system where the state provides a deaf-mute man, Rudy, to teach this kid how to read and write. Sarah: I really like that part. But before we get there, I have to call out a hilarious moment. Nick is with the Bakers and he says: “Nick, watching them, wondered how two people of such radically different size got along in bed.” I was like, oh goody, it’s not just me. Laura: I have definitely thought that about people. Just have some logistical questions. Sarah: I really liked the backstory with Rudy because we’re in the age of positive parenting, and Rudy... well, he slapped Nick. It was a very physical learning. I just thought that was a very accurate portrayal of how a man taught him. He slapped him across the face to get his attention, but he was very kind and taught him everything he needed. Laura: I got spanked growing up. I’m not traumatized. But getting slapped across the face... it is a humiliation. But it didn’t feel that way with Rudy. It was different than with Carla and Franny. Sarah: I think what was impactful to me is that Nick was checked out. He was cynical and didn’t trust anybody. And when Rudy shows up and uses that physicality to pull him back... to say, “Oh, come back here with me.” Laura: I also underlined this part: “It’s going to be a great day for the deaf mutes of the world when the telephone view screens the science fiction novels were always predicting finally came into general use.” Oh my God. Now we’re reading it and being like: Yep, we FaceTime each other every day. Sarah: We also learn in this chapter that Nick is starting to have vivid dreams. He is dreaming about endless rows of green corn looking for something and terribly afraid of something else that seemed to be behind him. Laura: Also in Chapter 18, Sheriff Baker actually dies. And one of the prisoners dies. So things are progressing. Sarah: The most important part to me is when Dr. Soames gives Nick a little speech. He says: “I repeat, someone made a mistake and now they’re trying to cover it up.” He is right. But he also alludes to like... educated people are not supposed to believe these stupid theories, and we get to the end of our life and we’re like, Oh shoot, maybe all of that paranoia was the right thing . Laura: It’s the paradox of conspiracy theories. There is often something there that doesn’t make sense. But people want to turn it into something organized with a central villain. Sarah: I think it’s interesting that Nick is such a young character amidst all these old people who are praising him or trusting him. They see something in him. He’s sort of like an old soul. Laura: He doesn’t have loyalty to anything. He’s been failed in a lot of ways. Born with a birth defect. Parents died. Never adopted. Out on his own since 16. He has no loyalty to anything... which is interesting as the story is going to go on. Chapter 19: Larry Underwood Sarah: Nick is in such sharp contrast to Larry, who we go back to in the next chapter. Larry’s mom, Alice, is sick as a dog in New York City. And he’s like, Hey, I’m going to go walk around Times Square . Sarah: I underlined this: “Her idea of nutrition was vague, but all encompassing.” Same. That’s 100% me. Also, why do we think this is the first one we get a picture of? There’s a random illustration. Laura: Here’s the part where I thought the contrast between Larry and Nick was intense. He’s thinking: “Why did it have to happen after I got the good news? And most despicable of all, how bad is this going to screw up my plans?” Sarah: That was relatable to me. Am I a narcissist? Laura: No. I think there’s always that voice. Sarah: When my child was diagnosed with Type 1 diabetes, the first thing I thought about was our upcoming vacation. I’m not even playing. I was like, Oh my God, are we still going to go? How bad is that? But I think everybody has that. Sarah: I also wonder if as Enneagram Ones, the way that our brains work is like: This is the way. And when a wrench has been thrown to the way, we’re like: Wait. That is not what I had planned. Chapter 20: Franny, Maine, and The Pie Laura: Chapter 20. We check in on Franny in Maine. She has decamped to a hotel. She is trying to write a letter to a childhood friend. Sarah: This chapter felt a little filler to me. But her trying to write a cheery letter without revealing her pregnancy... it was giving Instagram captions 2025. Laura: I underlined where she says she felt like “that bug” that swelled up when it felt threatened. “The gestalt was maybe even a better word.” That’s the second time he’s used gestalt. I had an old school therapist in his 70s who was really into gestalt. It’s just another little flicker of the 70s. Sarah: We’ve been signing off our episodes with “See You on the Other Side,” but do we need to change it to her sign-off: “Believe in me and I’ll believe in you” ? Laura: I thought that was such a funny way to end a letter. Why would you write that to a friend? I don’t know if I’ve ever said anything like that in my whole life. Sarah: At the end of the chapter, she gets a call from her daddy that Carla is sick as a dog. And she thinks: “Responsibility is a pie... You’re only kidding if you think you’re not going to have a cut a big, juicy, bitter piece for yourself and eat every bite.” Laura: Did not love that metaphor. Sarah: This kind of gets at what we were talking about... Franny’s trying to figure it out. If you take the whole super flu away from it, she is at a real crossroads in her life. Chapter 21: Stu Redman was Frightened Laura: Chapter 21 starts out with: “Stu Redman was frightened.” And he’s like a tough guy. So if he’s scared, we shall be scared, too. Sarah: My quibble with this chapter is they have moved him from the Atlanta CDC to a facility in Vermont. And I have questions. How did that happen logistically? Everybody’s sick. What’s going on? Chapter 22: The Face in the Soup Laura: Chapter 22. You guys, Chapter 22 is one of my favorites. Sarah: This is the one that’s your favorite? Why do you like every time the dude with the face in the soup shows up? Laura: Because that imagery is strong. When the whole thing is over, I’m still going to remember the guy who died in the cafeteria with his face in the soup. Sarah: Starkey has been fired by the president. And he goes back into the facility. He’s quoting Yeats—but he calls him “Yeet.” Laura: I thought that was such a funny little detail. He’s trying to be intellectual and philosophical and he’s just butchering it a little bit. Sarah: And then he watches Frank D. Bruce’s soup head on the monitor. “The soup congealing in Frank D. Bruce’s eyebrows worried him more, much more.” Laura: Everything before he sits down on the floor and puts the gun in his mouth is fascinating to me. Because you’re getting the smallest glimpse of these people who work in this facility who absolutely know what’s coming. Two of them decide to copulate right there. A group of them run for the elevator. There’s the man who has time to make a sign to put around his neck: Now you know it works. Any questions? Sarah: That’s stark. A last gasp of sort of protest or defiance. Laura: I love this scene because it tells you so much about human nature. It reminds me of the 9/11 documentaries... the people who choose to shoot themselves or the people who choose to sit and eat their soup until it gets them. Chapter 23: Randall Flagg Laura: Chapter 23. We meet Randall Flagg. I underlined so many things in this chapter. He is one of literature’s greatest all-time villains. I actually will probably do a bonus thing just about Randall Flagg. Sarah: Is he just the devil? It feels like he’s just the devil. Sarah: “There was a dark hilarity in his face... It was the face of a hateful, happy man... a face to make small children crash their trikes into board fences and then run wailing to their mommies with steak-shaped splinters sticking out of their knees.” Yee! So scary! Laura: I felt very scared reading this chapter. But in the iteration of Randall Flagg as we’re meeting him now, he is a man. He doesn’t have much memory before his current iteration. But he also levitates off the ground. Sarah: It’s awkward to make parallels to Jesus because it’s the opposite... but evil made man is the opposite of good made man. Laura: I also find it fascinating that Randall Flagg is a big reader. “Flagg was an equal opportunity reader.” He read all the pamphlets. Chapter 24: Lloyd’s Lawyer Sarah: Chapter 24. Lloyd has a very long talk with his lawyer. And everybody don’t panic. This is where I will dust off my legal degree and say: This is not a thing. Lawyers do not tell their clients what to say like that. That is so illegal and a massive ethical violation. Laura: You don’t think that happens? Sarah: No. Of course, I think it happens sometimes. But this is pretty overt. Lawyers usually want just enough doubt. They’re not going to layer on the doubt to where point it becomes unbelievable. Chapter 25: The End of Shoyo Sarah: Chapter 25. Listen. I like Nick, but this chapter was entirely too long. Laura: We’re getting a lot of detail on what happens when everybody’s dead. How are you going to feed yourself? What happens next? Nick is 22 years old and no one has any context for what is happening. This is so bizarre. Sarah: There were elements of this chapter that bubbled up for me some of the trauma of those early days of COVID-19. Like: It is so surreal that this is actually happening. Nick is in that same sort of denial. Laura: He watches the TV and notices the newscasters are giving skewed information. No weather report. No sports reporting. I loved that part. Sarah: I want to know what everybody else thinks. Is it scarier if Randall Flagg shows up after everybody’s dead or in your everyday life? Laura: I feel like when everybody’s dead... who gives a fuck? Sarah: No, because when everything is upside down... if he showed up in everyday life, there are more tools available to you. There’s more people to help you. I’m better in a group. The idea that this monstrous presence shows up and you’re by yourself... that’s rough. Next Week: We are covering Chapters 26 through 34 . It is 94 pages. We can do hard things. See you on the other side. This is a public episode. 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