GRACEPILLED with Hanna Williams

Connect with me, Hanna, your host: Instagram: @grace.pilled hannawilliams.com (bookings, conflict school, etc) patreon.com/gracepilled (join as a free member to listen to GRACE 101!) What does it actually take to stay on the spiritual path for the long haul? In this episode, we explore perseverance as one of the most essential, and perhaps least glamorous, ingredients of genuine spiritual transformation. The path is not always filled with profound insights, mystical experiences, or obvious signs that something is working. Much of it is ordinary. You practice, you forget, you come back. You lose the thread and pick it up again. Sometimes nothing seems to be happening at all. And yet, this willingness to continue is precisely what allows the path to deepen over time. Through reflections on devotion, discipline, death, liberation, and the long arc of spiritual practice, this episode explores what it means to keep choosing the path without demanding constant evidence that you are getting somewhere. Perseverance becomes less about forcing yourself forward and more about developing a relationship with practice that can survive boredom, difficulty, disappointment, and the inevitable seasons when your inspiration disappears. Ultimately, the spiritual path may have much less to do with becoming a perfect practitioner and much more to do with becoming someone who simply keeps returning.

Connect with me, Hanna, your host: Instagram: @grace.pilled hannawilliams.com (bookings, conflict school, etc) patreon.com/gracepilled (join as a free member to listen to GRACE 101!) What does it mean to take responsibility for your inner state when the world gives you plenty of legitimate reasons to feel terrible? In this episode, I explore the spiritual assumption underneath the question, “How can I be happy when there’s so much suffering in the world?” and why I don’t believe our happiness is meant to be entirely dependent on external circumstances. We get into the difference between actually processing difficult emotions and becoming committed to misery, why unresolved grief, resentment, and conflict are like a room full of crying babies making presence nearly impossible, and why tending to those feelings is part of learning to consciously shift your state. I also talk about the strange idea that our suffering somehow helps other people who are suffering, and make the case that choosing to enjoy your life, do meaningful work, love God, and become a little harder for the world to knock over might actually be a greater contribution to the collective than remaining perpetually disempowered by everything that’s wrong.

Connect with me, Hanna, your host: Instagram: @grace.pilled hannawilliams.com (bookings, conflict school, etc) patreon.com/gracepilled (join as a free member to listen to GRACE 101!) In this Q&A episode, I’m answering your questions about fear, shame, rejection, victimhood, chronic illness, creativity, desire, manifestation, and what it actually means to work with the hand life deals you. We talk about becoming the author of your life, how fear can point you toward your highest potential, why you might not know the “lesson” of a difficult experience until years later, and how to let old parts of yourself stay at the table without letting them run the show. I also get into the yoga of wanting things: pursuing what you desire, working to change your circumstances, and participating fully in your life without making your peace dependent on getting the outcome you wanted. We talk about accepting the reality of illness without giving up on improving it, making art as a devotional practice, the slippery slope of manifestation and reality creation, and remembering the difference between the side quests of this life and the main quest. Here is the book list I shared: • My Name Is Chellis and I’m in Recovery from Western Civilization by Chellis Glendinning • Tantra Illuminated by Christopher D. Wallis • The Many Daughters of Afong Moy by Jamie Ford • Ritual: Power, Healing and Community by Malidoma Patrice Somé • High Magick by Damien Echols • Six Ways by Aidan Wachter • Living from the Heart by Puran Bair • Already Free: Buddhism Meets Psychotherapy on the Path of Liberation by Bruce Tift • In Praise of the Goddess: The Devimahatmya and Its Meaning by Devadatta Kali • Decolonizing Methodologies by Linda Tuhiwai Smith • Still Here by Ram Dass • Crooked Cucumber , the biography of Shunryu Suzuki Basically, this is an episode about how to want things, fear things, lose things, change things, and still keep your eye on the main quest.

Connect with me, Hanna, your host: Instagram: @grace.pilled hannawilliams.com (bookings, conflict school, etc) patreon.com/gracepilled (join as a free member to listen to GRACE 101!) Kundalini has become one of the most sensationalized—and misunderstood—concepts in modern spirituality. In this episode, I share an essay exploring the classical tantric understanding of Kundalini as it has been taught in my lineage over the last eleven years. Rather than treating Kundalini as a rare energetic event or dramatic spiritual experience, we explore Her as the very power of Grace: the evolutionary force of consciousness that purifies the mind, awakens the heart, and ultimately reveals God. Along the way, we discuss why Kundalini is synonymous with Grace and prana, the difference between chit kundalini and prana kundalini, why intense "kundalini experiences" are not necessarily signs of advanced spiritual development, and why surrender—not striving—is the essence of authentic Kundalini Yoga. We also examine the emotional side of spiritual purification, the role of a teacher, and how the deepest work of awakening often unfolds far more subtly than the internet would have you believe.

SIGN UP FOR CONFLICT SCHOOL: www.hannawilliams.com/conflictschool Connect with Monika Alanna Instagram: @rooted.relating (coaching/grief counseling) @magicksalt (handmade jewelry, art, writing) www.magicksalt.com Connect with me, Hanna, your host: Instagram: @grace.pilled hannawilliams.com (bookings, human design, etc) patreon.com/gracepilled (join as a free member to get access to a collection of talks!) What if the hardest conflict you'll ever face isn't with another person—but with yourself? In this conversation, Monika Alanna and I explore the subtle ways we avoid truth in order to avoid conflict. We talk about self-betrayal, people-pleasing, desire, compromise, relationships, nervous system regulation, and why so many of us sacrifice our own authenticity in the pursuit of belonging, love, or peace. Along the way, we ask questions like: What makes someone a good compromise partner? How do you know the difference between compromise and self-sacrifice? Why do the things we love most about someone often become the very things that frustrate us? And what happens when we finally stop trying to avoid conflict altogether? More than anything, this episode is an invitation to rethink conflict. Conflict is not a sign that something has gone wrong. It is an inevitable and even transformative part of being alive. The goal isn't to eliminate conflict. The goal is to develop the skills, awareness, and courage to meet it well. Whether you're navigating romantic relationships, friendships, family dynamics, or your own inner world, I hope this conversation leaves you feeling a little more equipped to tell the truth, stay present through discomfort, and choose relationships that make both people more free.

Connect with me, Hanna, your host: CONFLICT SCHOOL STARTS JULY 28th Instagram: @grace.pilled hannawilliams.com (bookings, merch, etc) patreon.com/gracepilled (join as a free member to get access to a collection of talks!) What happens when a classical Tantrika sits down with someone who has spent years working in the world of Neo Tantra and erotic bodywork? In this conversation, we explore where these two worlds overlap, where they fundamentally diverge, and what questions they raise about intimacy, healing, spirituality, sex work, vulnerability, and the search for God. Rather than trying to arrive at definitive answers, this episode is an invitation into a thoughtful and curious exploration of one of the most misunderstood subjects in contemporary spirituality.

Connect with Dave, my guest: https://www.instagram.com/dadima.ayurveda.yoga/ what we said at the end: vijnañabhairava tantra Connect with me, Hanna, your host: Instagram: @grace.pilled hannawilliams.com (bookings, conflict school, etc) patreon.com/gracepilled (join as a free member to get access to a collection of talks!) What is Tantra, really? In this episode, I sit down with David Yoss for an ambitious conversation: attempting to explain the vast world of classical Tantra in a single sitting. What began as a tongue-in-cheek challenge quickly became an exploration of just how difficult Tantra is to define. Far from being a single religion, philosophy, or practice, Tantra is a diverse family of traditions that has shaped Hinduism, Buddhism, ritual practice, yoga, mysticism, and devotional life across South Asia for over a thousand years. Together, we explore some of the key themes that appear across Tantric traditions, while also discussing the historical and cultural forces that have shaped modern understandings (and misunderstandings) of Tantra in the West. Topics include: • Why scholars still struggle to agree on a single definition of Tantra • The meaning of the word "Tantra" and its relationship to sacred texts and revelation • Mantra as a living embodiment of divine power rather than a symbolic prayer • Initiation, lineage, and the role of the guru in Tantric practice • Ritual, puja, visualization, and worship in the "temple of the mind" • The subtle body, chakras, nyasa, and the installation of mantras within the body • Dualistic and nondual Tantric philosophies • Why Tantra is often associated with transgression and what that actually means • Left-handed and right-handed approaches to Tantric practice • Siddhis, spiritual attainments, and the distinction between liberation and worldly goals • The historical development of Tantra and its relationship to Hinduism and Buddhism • How colonialism and Victorian attitudes toward sexuality influenced Western perceptions of Tantra • The origins of Neo-Tantra and how it differs from classical Tantric traditions Whether you're completely new to Tantra or have been practicing for years, this conversation offers a broad introduction to one of the most influential, misunderstood, and fascinating spiritual movements in human history. Or at least our best attempt at explaining it in ninety minutes.

Connect with my guest, Kayla: www.instagram.com/kayla.radhika www.kaylaradhika.ca www.patreon.com/cw/KaylaMiller493 Connect with me, Hanna, your host: Art store: distantplanetdesign.etsy.com Instagram: @grace.pilled hannawilliams.com (bookings, conflict school, etc) patreon.com/gracepilled (join as a free member to get access to a collection of talks!) In this episode of Gracepilled, I’m joined by multidisciplinary artist, mystic, and tantric yoga teacher Kayla Radhika Miller for a wide-ranging conversation about the relationship between art and spiritual practice. Together, we explore what happens when creativity stops being mere self-expression and starts becoming a genuine path of perception, devotion, and transformation. We talk about beauty as a force that interrupts the thinking mind, the parallels between artistic discipline and mantra practice, and how the creative process can train us to see reality more clearly. We also explore the tension between technique and surrender, why frustration is often part of both spiritual and artistic growth, and the difference between making something “correct” versus making something truly alive. Along the way, we dive into tantra, perception, abstract art, devotional practice, artistic limitation, self-portraiture, color theory, AI art, and the mysterious question of whether art can carry transmission. Kayla brings a rare blend of depth to this conversation through her background in tantric yoga, Kashmir Shaivism, expressive arts facilitation, and art history, and together we reflect on how creativity itself can become a doorway into relationship with the sacred. This episode is for artists, seekers, and anyone interested in the deeper spiritual function of beauty, perception, and creative practice.

free human design resource: www.hannawilliams.com/humandesign get a written analysis from me join me on patreon In this solo episode of Gracepilled, I share the deeply personal story of how Human Design entered my life during a period of burnout, confusion, financial instability, and spiritual identity crisis. What began as skepticism toward a “channeled” system eventually became a profound framework for understanding individuality, authenticity, energy, relationships, and the spiritual process itself. I explores my experience discovering I am a Projector, the strange synchronicities that pulled me deeper into the system, and why Human Design ultimately felt less like a departure from my tantric background and more like another way of studying God, consciousness, and human behavior. Along the way, I reflect on burnout culture, deconditioning, differentiation, spiritual integrity, relational dynamics, openness and sensitivity, and the liberating power of radically accepting what you actually are instead of trying to become something else.

REGISTRATION FOR CONFLICT SCHOOL OPENS JUNE 16TH! Connect with me, Hanna, your host: Instagram: @grace.pilled hannawilliams.com (bookings, conflict school, etc) patreon.com/gracepilled (join as a free member to get access to a collection of talks!) Connect with Monika Alanna Instagram: @rooted.relating (coaching/grief counseling) @magicksalt (handmade jewelry, art, writing) www.magicksalt.com In this episode, Monika and I sit down for a deeply personal conversation about conflict, honesty, intimacy, self-betrayal, nervous system regulation, and what it actually means to love another human being truthfully. We explore the ways our childhoods shaped our relationship to conflict, why so many people fear honest conversations, and how relational rupture can sometimes become the doorway to deeper intimacy, self-awareness, and transformation. We talk about family systems, tone policing, “canaries in the coal mine,” heartbreak, staying too long, leaving too late, and the difficult reality that sometimes love asks us to confront truths we desperately wish were not true. Throughout the conversation, we return again and again to the idea that conflict is not inherently destructive. In many ways, conflict is the mechanism through which real connection becomes possible. We discuss how nervous system regulation impacts our ability to listen, why most people black out during difficult conversations, the difference between abusive communication and emotional intensity, and how learning to tolerate discomfort may actually be the pathway to the intimacy most people claim to want. We also speak candidly about our own lives and relationships: what it means to feel unseen, how people carry old wounds into present relationships, the stories we tell ourselves after heartbreak, and the strange grace that can emerge when we stop avoiding difficult truths. This episode is philosophical, emotionally raw, funny at times, and deeply rooted in the belief that the life we want often exists on the other side of the conversations we are most afraid to have. Conflict School begins July 28th. This year, the course will be six weeks long instead of four, giving us much more room to go deeper into the anatomy of conflict, communication, nervous system work, rupture and repair, relational dynamics, and actionable skills that can radically transform the way you engage with disagreement and intimacy. Registration opens June 16th. From June 16th–23rd, we’ll be offering an early bird rate of $200 for the full six-week program. After that, the price increases to $250. More details will be available on my website soon. Let’s get into it.

guest info: www.sophiestrand.com/ www.instagram.com/cosmogyny/ www.substack.com/@sophiestrand GO BUY HER BOOKS!!!! host info: www.hannawilliams.com www.patreon.com/gracepilled www.instagram.com/gracepilled In this episode of Gracepilled, I sat down with writer and “neo-troubadour animist” Sophie Strand for a sprawling conversation about mysticism, illness, ecology, beauty, paradox, and what it means to stay openhearted in a world that often feels unsafe. Together we explore Sophie’s unusual upbringing around Buddhist monks, interfaith spirituality, rescued animals, and ecological thought, as well as the role chronic illness played in dismantling simplistic spiritual narratives about healing, fairness, and transcendence. The conversation moves through topics like animism, Joan of Arc, climate anxiety, Groundhog Day as a spiritual text, mystical experience, riddles and parables, the difference between beauty and glamour, and why the deepest spiritual truths often live inside contradiction rather than certainty. This episode is ultimately about surrender: not as passivity, but as the willingness to remain in relationship with reality even when there are no guarantees, no explanations, and no “happy ending” waiting at the end of suffering. You can find Sophie’s work through her books, essays, and Substack.

SIGN UP FOR ATTENTION 101 (reclaim your agency for change) sign up here Starts January 6th! Connect with me, Hanna, your host: Instagram: @grace.pilled hannawilliams.com (bookings, conflict school, etc) patreon.com/gracepilled (join as a free member to get access to a collection of talks!) Connect with Monica Alanna Instagram: @rooted.relating (coaching/grief counseling) @magicksalt (handmade jewelry, art, writing) www.magicksalt.com In this episode, Monica interviews me about what it’s really like to live and work online as a creative & mentor. We talk about our digital duplicates , attention fatigue, curating our algorithms with intention, the tension between analog life vs. digital life , what it means to be authentic on social media, and how I think about creativity, boundaries, and running Gracepilled as a business. It’s an honest look at identity, influence, and staying human on the internet. Digital duplicates & online identity — how the internet forms a version of us, how others perceive that version, and how it affects real life. Attention, distraction & notification fatigue — the constant pull of screens, digital audits, and reclaiming focus. Analog vs. digital media — the sensory and emotional differences between reading physical books, using Kindles, and engaging offline. Creativity, authenticity & running an online business — how I create content, use data, navigate the algorithm, and balance privacy with visibility. Influence, boundaries & staying grounded online — curating your algorithm, resisting comparison culture, and choosing how you want to show up on the internet.

Connect with me, Hanna, your host: Instagram: @grace.pilled hannawilliams.com (bookings, conflict school, etc) patreon.com/gracepilled (join as a free member to get access to a collection of talks!) Connect with Monica Alanna Instagram: @rooted.relating (coaching/grief counseling) @magicksalt (handmade jewelry, art, writing) www.magicksalt.com Today’s episode is a conversation with my friend & colleague Monica Alanna about the strange and complicated world of digital spaces. We personify the platforms we use every day—Instagram, TikTok, Reddit, YouTube—as if they were people, each with their own archetype and flavor. We explore how these apps shape culture, attention, and even our sense of self, from the pull we all experience of wanting to peek at the comment section arguments to the addictive, casino-like design of social media apps that keep us emotionally hooked. Along the way, we talk about digital “duplicates,” cancel culture, distraction, and what it takes to build real boundaries with screens. It’s funny, it’s sharp, and it gets into the gray areas of how technology can be both a tool and a trap. I think you’ll leave this one reflecting on your own relationship with social media—and maybe even laughing about it too.

Connect with Ramon, my guest: instagram the drama of the planets [his book of poetry] Connect with me, Hanna, your host: Instagram: @grace.pilled hannawilliams.com (bookings, merch, etc) patreon.com/gracepilled (join as a free member to get access to a collection of talks!) In this episode of GRACEPILLED , I sit down with poet, philosopher, and teacher Ramon Parish (a.k.a. Uriel Jones ), whose journey weaves together stargazing, philosophy, poetry, and spiritual practice. Ramon recently released his first poetry collection Drama of the Planets , and in this conversation, he shares the stories, influences, and practices that shaped both his art and his spiritual path. We talk about: How Ramon’s early stargazing experiences sparked a lifelong sense of spiritual purpose Why he sees philosophy and poetry as core spiritual practices The influence of Rastafari, music, and mythology on his worldview The role of movement, meditation, and community in his spiritual growth Balancing tradition with adaptation in spirituality, and why conduct and justice matter just as much as consciousness

Connect with Cindy: Instagram: @clairvoyantcounseling Website Connect with me, Hanna, your host: Instagram: @grace.pilled hannawilliams.com (bookings, merch, etc) patreon.com/gracepilled (join as a free member to get access to a collection of talks!) Today’s guest is Reverend Cindy Pincus—minister, death doula, and someone who I now consider a spiritual comrade. We originally met at a First Friday art market in Denver when she walked straight up to my table and picked up my “Money + the Spiritual Path” zine. I remember thinking, this person has sparkles around them . And I was right. In this conversation, Cindy shares the wild, beautiful, and unexpected path that’s led her through Christian seminary, Indigenous ceremony, psychic training, and years of hospice and hospital chaplaincy. She speaks with rare clarity about death, grief, ministry, and spiritual courage—and about the surprising places her deepest convictions came from. (Spoiler: one involved a protest, a votive candle, and a head injury.) There were a few things said in this interview that blew my mind — I hope you love it! We cover: Cindy’s surprising journey from culturally Jewish roots to Christian ministry What it means to have a conversion experience in the modern world Her years working with death—hospitals, hospice, and the spiritual wisdom of the dying Why she believes Jesus was psychic (and probably a witch) The beauty and power of not looking away from grief, endings, and the collapse of empire

Connect with Aiden, my guest: Instagram: @aidenarata https://aidenarata.com/ YOU HAVE A NEW MEMORY (her book!) Connect with me, Hanna, your host: Instagram: @grace.pilled hannawilliams.com (bookings, merch, etc) patreon.com/gracepilled (join as a free member to get access to a collection of talks!) Today I’m joined by writer, poet, and internet oracle Aiden Arata. You might know her from her dreamy, timely memes, her prose that cuts through the screen of your phone, or her completely surreal yet relatable guided meditation reels on instagram. Aiden’s new book of essays, YOU HAVE A NEW MEMORY , came out just two days ago—and I haven’t read it yet, but I can’t wait to. I can only imagine that it will feel like a voice memo from a highly perceptive friend, sent from the edge of a spiritual breakthrough that happened alongside the produce rack at the grocery store. In this conversation, we talk about the dread that surrounds creative work, the porousness required for both art and intuition, and what happens when you accidentally end up at a 14-hour-a-day solitary retreat in France. We also get into spiritual hysteria, memes as mystical artifacts, and the healing power of finally feeling seen. This one’s funny, strange, and full of surprisingly delicious nuggets of gold. I hope you love it. we cover: – the dread that creeps in around creative work, especially writing, and how the language of the internet (short, catchy, algorithm-friendly) can distort your voice and make deep work feel impossible – the porousness required for both creativity and spirituality—and how curating your sense impressions can be a way of clearing space for awe, intuition, and your own mind to come back online – the shift from trying to use spirituality to fix yourself, to actually having a relationship with yourself—and how that changed everything (with the help of therapy, trauma work, and a more compassionate view of mental health) – Catholic roots, spiritual hysteria, gold + gore aesthetics, and the unexpected joy of accidentally ending up in a 14-hour-a-day silent monastery retreat in France – what the internet can be (divine connection through memes, shared humanity), and also what it is becoming (a pipeline for paranoia, commodified enlightenment, and people falling in love with chatbots)

Connect with Diana, my guest: Instagram: @ddamascenaa patreon.com/ddamascenaa ddamascenaa.com Connect with me, Hanna, your host: Instagram: @grace.pilled hannawilliams.com (bookings, merch, etc) patreon.com/gracepilled (join as a free member to get access to a collection of talks!) In this episode, I talk with Diana Rose about what it means to truly human. We start with a beautiful story she shares about choosing connection instead of isolation while navigating complex grief, and how that reflects the deeper healing work she’s done—work that’s allowed her to stay in relationship, even when things are hard. We also talk about the dream of village life and what it means to be supported by a web of people who are in mutual care with one another. Diana shares how her spiritual worldview formed outside of formal tradition, what led her to astrology, and how she uses it as a tool to help people release internalized “shoulds” and understand their own nature with more compassion.

Connect with Rami: Instagram: @ramidreams ramidreams.com (booking, live programs, etc) Enrollment for Rami's school ends July 8th Connect with me, Hanna, your host: Instagram: @grace.pilled hannawilliams.com (bookings, merch, etc) patreon.com/gracepilled We cover: The emotional and existential challenges of running a spiritual business , including the unexpected inner work around self-worth, shame, and the discomfort of marketing one's offerings with integrity. Authenticity in leadership and marketing , especially the importance of being your full self (including humor, messiness, and vulnerability) in your public presence so clients meet the real you—not just a shiny persona. The delicate dance of sharing personal process online , exploring how to discern when something is "cooked" enough to serve others, versus when it’s still raw and may unconsciously ask your audience to hold you. Projections, pedestals, and the myth of the perfect spiritual guide , including how to recognize golden shadow and navigate others’ expectations without fragmenting your identity or hiding your humanity. The spiritual necessity of creative expression , especially in the digital age—seeing Instagram and social media as modern landfills where we can still perform sacred service, wake people up, and keep the river of spirit flowing through us.

Connect with Yumi, my guest: Instagram: @yumisakugawa Website Affirmation deck Connect with me, Hanna, your host: Instagram: @grace.pilled hannawilliams.com (bookings, merch, etc) patreon.com/gracepilled (join as a free member to get access to a collection of talks!) In this episode of Gracepilled , I sit down with interdisciplinary artist and author Yumi Sakugawa (she/they) to trace the spiraling, unexpected path of her spiritual life—from childhood flashes of psychic imagery and goth teenage atheism to meditation, soul retrieval, and ancestral reclamation. Yumi is the author of beloved illustrated books like There Is No Right Way to Meditate and Your Illustrated Guide to Becoming One with the Universe . Her work has appeared in The New Yorker, The Believer, and exhibitions at the Smithsonian and the Japanese American National Museum. But today we go beyond Yumi’s amazing career accomplishments and explore their inner world. We talk about a recent health scare that became a surprisingly spiritual wake-up call, and how discipline, fueled by the powers of Virgo, interacts with creative ritual. We talk about their dark night of the soul experience teaching english in Japan, finding meditation through Eckhart Tolle and David Lynch, and how grief led her deeper into ancestral connection with her Okinawan roots. Yumi also shares the story of a traumatic ayahuasca ceremony—something she’s never spoken about publicly before—and the long, slow, embodied healing that followed. And, full disclosure, in telling this story and discussing it, neither of us are suggesting there is anything wrong with plant medicine or ayahuasca, we are simply exploring what that was like, and some potential aspects of modern Ayahuasca usage that aren’t so commonly discussed. We cover: Spiritual emergence through crisis : Yumi shares how a painful post-college experience teaching abroad in Japan led them to meditation, marking the beginning of their spiritual path. Creative discipline as ritual : She talks about her workshop “Discipline is Pleasure” and how creative practice, health routines, and spirituality all benefit from intentional containers of time and attention. Lineage, colonization, and ancestral reclamation : They reflect on visiting their paternal homeland of Okinawa and how it catalyzed a deeper connection to their ancestral roots and the region’s spiritual and political history. Ayahuasca, trauma, and healing : Yumi opens up—publicly for the first time—about a devastating ayahuasca experience, soul fragmentation, and the long arc of recovery supported by their community and energetic healing. Art, intuition, and the evolution of purpose : She reflects on how her creative journey has shifted from needing to prove herself to trusting intuition, play, and her unique voice.

Connect with me, Hanna, your host: Instagram: @grace.pilled hannawilliams.com (bookings, merch, etc) patreon.com/gracepilled (join as a free member to get access to a collection of talks!) Connect with John, our guest: Instagram: @saint_rainey His book: Finding God, Losing God, Becoming God His podcast: House of Saint Rainey Today, I’m joined by John Rainey—author, seeker, and explorer of unity consciousness. Once a devoted Christian, working as a youth pastor, his search for deeper truth led him beyond the walls of his religion and into the wild, uncharted expanse of direct experience of the divine. His journey to me is the perfect example of how deep questioning can lead someone to the truth — a potent question he asked himself one day changed the course of his life. But I’ll save that story for the interview. Let’s get into it.